Sailormoon isn't mine nor are the song's used.
Darien and Serena were standing outside the concert hall. Serena was pacing back and forth muttering to herself. Darien reached out and grabbed her shoulder trying to get her to stop and calm her down.
"Serena you need to calm down. Everything is going to be okay. I'm sure once you get the chance to talk to her everything is going to be okay."
Serena stopped and looked at Darien.
"How do you know? She's had her phone off since she left. I have no idea how she's feeling or what she's thinking."
Serena looked down at her phone to check the time. "We better get in there. They show is going to start soon. I think it will be better to wait till after to speak to her. I don't want to interfere with her performance."
Darien nodded and they walked towards the concert hall. They were ushered back stage, once back there they were instructed to stand with a small group of people. Serena had pushed her way to the front to make sure that if Rei had looked over to the side of the stage that she would be able to see her. Serena was really nervous she couldn't keep her hands still and kept looking around for Rei or Markus. The concert hall went dark and Serena could barely see the band make their way past her. She frowned slightly because she was sure that Rei hadn't seen her. The band took their usual marks on stage. The stage lit up and it was in that moment that Rei looked to the left of the stage right at Serena. Time stood still for the two.
As the music started to play Rei was knocked out of the bond. She walked over to Markus whispered something into his ear, he looked in Serena's0 direction with a look of shock on his face. Rei and Markus seemed to be arguing as the music continued to play and from the looks of it Rei was winning. After another minute she walked to the other band mates and gave them a few orders then walked over to the piano that was on stage.
"Sorry for the delay folks, we have a bit of a set change. We hope you enjoy this song as much as we enjoy playing it for you!" Rei said into the microphone. She looked over at Markus gave him a wink and began to play. A lightly melody filled the concert hall as Markus softly began to sing.
"You said don't wait up"
"But I can't help myself"
"You swear just friends"
"But I know better than that"
"So baby when you leave this place I don't wanna hear your name"
"Promise when you walk away you're never coming back again"
"You left me nothing, nothing, nothing"
"Nothing, nothing, nothing at all"
"You left me nothing, nothing, nothing"
"Nothing, nothing, nothing at all"
Rei watched as Markus sung the words she had wrote on the train just days before. She had wanted to watch Serena's reaction but she couldn't bring herself to look over there. She had noticed that Darien was with her. 'He was the reason she didn't come.' She thought to herself. She knew this was the perfect song. Serena would get it after this. She tried to will away her tears. She had a long night ahead of her, she needed to get it together. Markus looked back at her and smiled as Rei began to sing with everything that was in her.
"Your heart, to cold"
"So you don't ever feel"
"My words on deaf ears"
"No you will ever hear"
Markus joined Rei and they finished out the song
"So baby when you leave this place"
"I don't wanna hear your name"
"Promise when you walk away"
"You're never coming back again"
"You left me nothing, nothing, nothing"
"Nothing, nothing, nothing at all"
"You left me nothing, nothing, nothing"
Rei stood up from the piano grabbed the microphone and walked towards the front of the stage to join Markus and looked over at him giving him another wink and continued to sing.
"Don't hold me to tightly cause I'll be reminded of why I wanted you here"
"And the last thing I need is for you to believe that there is anything left that can change how I feel"
Rei didn't make any effort to hide any of the emotion on her face. The music began to slow as Markus began to sing the last two lines as Rei put her microphone on the stand.
"I wish there was any other way"
"I'm sure there's no chance you'll ever change"
As the music faded Markus and Rei took a bow and smiled out to the crowd. Rei looked over to the left and noticed that Darien was now right behind Serena. She quickly looked away and walked over to Markus to discuss the next song, if she had her way the lineup was going to be completely different then what they have rehearsed yesterday.
Serena looked at Rei, she couldn't take her eyes off of her. She didn't know that Rei knew how to play the Piano and she had a feeling that this song was directed towards her. She didn't notice but she had been holding her breath the entire song. There was such emotion in Rei's voice and there was a look in Rei's eyes that made her shiver. She noticed Rei look her way again but this time she looked passed her so Serena turned around and tried to see who she as looking at. That's when she noticed Darien was right behind her. Serena panicked.
"What are you doing Darien?" she questioned.
"I'm watching the show Serena." He said with a shrug.
"Rei just looked over here and saw us standing together, she probably thinks we're together and thinks you're the reason why I didn't go." Serena let out a sigh.
"I am the reason you didn't go" Darien pointed out.
Serena shot him a look and turned around to see the band in the middle of the stage talking. She wondered what was going on.
Rei and Markus was going back and Forth. The other three were just standing there watching the scene before them. This was highly unlike the two. If they didn't stay playing soon then fans would know something was up.
"Rei we can't change the entire set up!" Markus yelled.
"I don't care Markus."
"Look I understand your emotions are running wild because she is here. But we rehearsed certain songs so we're going to play those songs. This isn't like you, stop acting like a brat."
Rei let out a sigh and started to rub her temples. He was right this wasn't like her, she performed for her fans it was about them. Not about the blonde haired girl standing just off stage.
"Alright, just…" she let out a sigh.
"Let's do this one song and we'll go back to what's on the set list alright?"
The bad members all nodded in agreement and all went back to their marks. Markus quickly spoke.
"Sorry about the delay folks, Rei's always had a spontaneous soul and wanted to try out this new song, it took some convincing but who can say no to that pretty face" Markus winked. "This is called in my bones. We hope you like it."
Markus took is microphone off the stand and walked over to Rei who was sitting at the piano again. As Rei started to play Markus stood next to the piano and began to sing.
"I thought I saw an angel, calling me across the yard"
"She said baby it's been real but now I'm gone"
"I should've known much better, you can't tame something so wild"
Rei's hands slid perfectly over the ivory keys. Hitting each note with such passion. Markus looked down at Rei as she started to sing.
"It's my fault, I don't care"
"I can't hate you, if you're not here"
"Once you go, never ever turn around"
"I have sacrificed and I have burred"
"Oh you gotta live before you learn"
"I wanted the truth, but sometimes the truth hurts"
Markus sat down next to Rei nudged her shoulder then continued to sing.
"My angel with dirty wings, she used to make me smile"
"But she kept all of her secrets locked inside"
"In a place I could not reach her, though I tried with all my might"
"And when I begged for something real she said good-bye"
Rei looked at Markus with a sad smile and finished out the song.
"And I am sure I'll be just fine"
"If I remember she wasn't ever mine."
"And I am sure I'll be just fine"
"If I remember she wasn't ever mine."
With a few more strokes of the keys and the music faded. Markus and Rei stood and took another bow. They pair walked towards the front of the stage. Markus gave Rei a light hug as the next song began to play. Rei sighed and took the microphone. 'I just want this night to be over with' Rei thought as she smiled and looked out over the crowd.
As the second song as come to an end Serena was becoming less confident that Rei was going to understand. She was pretty sure that Rei had thought that she was with Darien. Which thinking back on it coming here with Darien probably wasn't the best choice but it was a means to an end and she needed to speak to Rei. Serena was sure she loved Rei and she wasn't leaving here till Rei knew it. Till Rei understood that she wasn't going anywhere. Serena was knocked out of her thoughts by the start of the next song. She looked back at the stage.
Rei's voice was soft as she sung the first line.
"What if I told you?"
"Who I really was, what if I let you in on my charade"
"What if I told you?"
"What was really going on?"
"No more masks and no more parts to play"
Markus was supposed to join in on the next line but he felt the song would come across better if Rei had handled this one by herself. If she wasn't going to help herself, he was going to give her the push she needed.
"There's so much I want to say"
Rei looked over at Markus trying to get him to start singing and he just smiled and winked then shrugged in the direction of Serena. Rei rolled her eyes and continued to sing.
"But I'm so scared to give away"
"Every little secret that I hide behind"
Rei couldn't help but look to the side of the stage to where Serena was. She knew she was dooming herself but she felt drawn to her. The moment their eyes locked she knew she wouldn't look away till the song was over.
"Would you see me differently?"
"And would that be... Such... a bad... thing"
"I wonder what it would be like"
"If I told you"
Rei let the music wash over her, a sweet soft melody. 'Maybe I should have started out with this song.' Rei thought to herself as she began to sing again.
"What if I told you?"
"That's it's just a front"
"To hide the insecurities I have"
"What if I told you?"
"That I'm not as strong"
"As I like to make believe I am"
As the song ended the concert hall filled with cheers and roars. Rei took a bow and shot Markus a look of death. Then a smirk appeared on Rei's face remembering the night they had gone out. Rei sent Markus a wink as she walked off stage for a minute to talk to one of the special effect guys then returned with a look Markus couldn't describe.
"Rei what are you doing?"
"Oh nothing" Rei said with a smile.
Re grabbed her microphone and smiled out at the crowd.
"How is everyone out there tonight?!"
The crowd went wild.
"I have something special I'd like to share with you all tonight. I'm originally from Tokyo and when I got to the states I met Markus. His been like a big bother to me ever since. Well the other night we had gone out with a few friends of mine and as little sister should, I just wanted to share some videos from that night." Rei said with a laugh.
A screen covered the stage and a video of Markus singing baby got back showed up on screen. Markus's face turned bright red. He shot Rei a look telling her that this was only the beginning. He walked over to his microphone.
"Oh who is that sexy man up there?" Markus said with a laugh. He wasn't going t let Rei win.
"Now that you've had your fun dear Rei lets get back to the show shall we?"
Rei rolled her eyes at Markus as the screen disappeared. The show was coming to an end, the pair had sung a couple more songs. Rei was getting tried which was unusual. She was emotionally drained. It didn't help that Serena was standing maybe a hundred feet away from her with someone she didn't expect to see. They had one song left to sing. Rei really didn't want to sing it but since she had caused drama in the beginning of the show she couldn't get out of it now. She didn't want to sing the words because she wasn't sure if they meant anything now. She was so conflicted, so confused. Rei could have lived with Serena not showing, she would have gone back to the states continued to make music and gone on with her life. But she's here with Darien throwing it in her face. How she is going to deal with things now?
The band started to play, a rustic beat of the drums and the twang of the electric guitar brought her back to reality. She looked over to where Markus had been standing and noticed he was no longer on stage but standing next to Serena. He gave Rei a smile and mouthed 'go on' with a sigh Rei began to sing.
"We might have met as children"
"Maybe it's been a couple weeks"
"I don't even know anymore"
"You have that effect on me"
Rei took her microphone from the stand and walked to the other end of the stage bending down to touch the hands of the fans in the first row.
"And now I'm feeling like forever"
"Just showed up at my door"
"I've got a little piece of heaven"
"It's all mine to hold onto"
She made her way to the other side of the stage and bent down again making her she touched a few of her fans hands.
"What I'm trying to say"
"In my own simple way"
She stood up and made her way back to center stage placing her microphone back on the stand and closed her eyes as she sung.
"Is I want you to be"
"My last first kiss"
"I want you to be my"
"Last first kiss"
She opened her eyes and turned to look at Serena who was looking down at the ground. Markus nudged her with his elbow and her head shot up just as Rei sung.
"My heart yes it's finally found"
"Someone it can't live without"
Rei didn't look away from Serena, she couldn't.
"And I wonder what you're thinking"
"Whenever you're not around"
"Any secret I was keeping"
"I wanna tell you right now"
"And when I dream about tomorrow"
"I've got you on my mind"
"I am hopelessly devoted"
"Just want you in my life"
Serena was surprised when she saw that Markus was making his was over to her. There was sweat pouring from his face but he didn't look worn out. She smiled up at the man. Then turned her attention back to the stage as Rei began to sing.
"She didn't expect you to see you here after you didn't show." Markus stated.
Serena looked down at the ground not sure what to say to the man next to her. Staring at the floor Serena finally answered
"I had every intention of coming then things got really complicated."
"Yeah, I can see. Who's the guy?" Markus questioned looking back at Darien.
Serena lifted her Head for a moment looking back at Darien. A blush crept across her face.
"Oh… that's uh Darien…. He's just a friend."
Markus raised an eyebrow. "I see" was all he said as he turned back to watch Rei.
Serena had gone back to watching the floor when Markus had nudged her in the side with his elbow and in that moment she had locked eyes with Rei. Everything else had disappeared. Nothing else mattered but the two of them. Serena's heart started to beat fast. The song had come to an end but the two girls hadn't stopped staring at each other. Markus had left Serena's side to walk back out on stage so they could take a bow and say good night to their fans.
Rei looked away from Serena when she felt Markus's hand on her shoulder. She looked over at him and gave him a small smile. Rei took his hand in hers and they took a bow. The other three band members joined them and the bowed again. Markus took the microphone and thanked the fans for joining them tonight and hoped they enjoyed the show. The curtains on the stage closed and the band stood around for a second talking.
"How am I going to face her" Rei blurted out.
"Just go over there and talk. You have to go over there anyways its part of the back stage experience" Markus pointed out.
"This is great, why couldn't she just stay gone."
"Because you love her, and she loves you"
"She's with him, she doesn't love me." Rei let out a sigh
"Let's just get this over with"
The band made their way over to the group of people waiting to meet them but when they got there Darien and Serena were no longer in the front. 'Maybe they decided to leave' Rei thought letting out a sigh of relief. Relaxing a little Rei and the others signed autographs and took pictures with their fans had a few laughs and spent a few minutes with each of them. They were getting ready to head to their dressing rooms when a hand reached out for Rei's wrist. Rei stopped and turned around. She put a smile on her face trying to be polite a possible.
"Rei… i..." Serena started.
"Hello Darien, it's a surprise to see you." Rei said ignoring Serena by cutting her off trying to keep her composure.
Markus walked up next to Rei to make sure things didn't get out of control and to make sure his friend didn't say anything she wasn't going to regret later.
"Yes, it's been a while. I didn't know you moved to the states as well. You have such great talent."
"Thank you, so what are you doing back?"
"Well school is over so I decided to take a vacation"
Serena had enough of the meaningless conversation and cut Darien off. She knew what Rei was getting at and was starting to get annoyed.
"Rei is there anywhere we could go and talk?"
Rei finally brought her attention to the blonde. She looked at her a moment and said.
"There isn't anything to talk about" with that remark Markus elbowed Rei in the side. Rei shot Markus a look and rubbed her side.
"Yes there is Rei, please."
Rei stood there for a minute looking at the blonde in front of her staring at her with pleading eyes. How could she say no? She loved the girl before her with everything that was in her. But at the same time how could she say yes. Serena was here with Darien. Maybe she was just being stubborn. 'I really need to learn to get over that' she thought to herself.
"I really don't have it in me tonight Serena, we still have to pack up here. It will be late before we get done. How about you come over to our hotel in the morning?" Rei said looking at Darien trying to judge his reaction. It wasn't a total lie. She really was mentally worn out. She needed a little while longer to think. If they spoke now it would be out of mixed emotions and right now Rei didn't have very many nice things to say to the blonde haired girl.
Serena thought for a moment. She didn't want to push her but she needed Rei to understand. Serena feared that if she agreed that Rei wouldn't be there tomorrow. Serena blinked a few times before saying anything.
"You promise?" Was all Serena could manage to say with a little uncertainty in her voice. Rei look into Serena's sapphire eyes a moment and gave her a small smile.
"Promise, come by the hotel in the morning around eight, we have rehearsal at noon. That should give us enough time to talk." Braking their gaze Rei gave a nod to Darien then turned to continue to walk back to the dressing rooms.
Markus took a moment before following his friend he sent Serena a smile and a wink then ran after Rei to make sure she was okay. He found Rei leaning against the dressing room door. Her head resting back on the door with her eyes closed her breathing in a slow rhythm as if she was meditating. Markus was unsure of what to do so he decided to lean against the wall next to her and wait till she was ready to talk. Markus wasn't sure of how much time had passed and he didn't want to push her into talking but they couldn't stand there all night so he decided to push a little and see how she reacted.
"You should tell her you know" Markus spoke softly.
Rei opened her eyes and looked over at her friend. Markus meant well but she really didn't need this at the moment. With a sigh she pushed herself off the door.
"Yes, I should tell her, actually they all should know the reasons why I left…" Rei trailed off as the memory flashed through her mind. A tear slid down her cheek. She hated when her emotions got the best of her. Rei's cell phone beeped as she checked her messages, she smiled then showed her phone to Markus who laughed a little.
"We should really get to work it's getting late and you have a date to keep tomorrow morning" Markus said with a smile lightly hitting Rei's shoulder. Rei rolled her eyes.
"Actually can you guys handle it tonight, I need to make a call before it gets too late."
Markus gave her a look of uncertainty. "I'm okay, I just need to talk to Mina."
Markus raised his eyebrow and smirked at her. "Yeah, im sure we can handle it, but you owe me double for tonight's little stunt and for slacking off."
"Yeah, Yeah, Yeah" Rei said smiling as she let herself into the dressing room to change so she could head back to her hotel room. Within minutes Rei was back in her hotel room sitting on her bed staring at her phone. If she waited much longer she was sure the blonde haired girl would be asleep by now. She let out a deep breath and picked up her phone and hit the speed dial. It took the girl on the other mine a few minutes to answer, Rei was about to hang out when she heard the voice on the line.
"Hello?" came a soft mumble.
"It's Rei… I'm sorry did I wake you?" Rei felt badly, over the years couldn't count the many times she had called her friend while she had slept.
"Hmm, you know it's alright Rei" Rei could hear Mina stretch and sit up. It took Rei a few moments to say anything else she sat on her bed staring at the wall.
"I think I'm finally ready to tell them" Rei blurted out.
"You mean about…"
"Yes" Rei let another tear slip down her cheek cutting her off before she said those words she's been trying to escape for years.
"I got the picture you sent, very cute" Rei smiled at the comment.
"Serena's here with Darien, did you know he was back in town?"
"He came into the crown one day, Serena didn't seem surprised to see him. Though you shouldn't worry about him." Mina stated.
"She wants to talk, tomorrow morning. I'm not sure how to tell her Mina. It's just not something you blurt out. It's not exactly a happy subject."
Mina could hear the sadness and embarrassment in her friend's voice. She'd never forget that day. Everything had changed for the two. Though Rei had decided to leave, to hide everything she was going through the two had become really close. Mina put on a smile and chirped into the phone.
"Have no fear let the Goddess of love work her magic! This is what you're going to do…." Rei couldn't help but laugh at her friends antics picturing Mina putting up her famous "v" with her fingers.
The two girls carried on their conversation for a while longer. The plan was set and it was getting late. Rei yawned and looked over at the clock on the night stand. It was after two in the morning. Mina was talking about some guy she saw in the mall and how gorgeous he was.
"Mina…. Not that I don't love hearing about all these boys you pine over but it's after two in the morning and I told Serena to be here by eight. I need to be getting some sleep. As always thanks for listening."
"Yeah no problem Rei, good luck and let me know how everything works out. When you get back into town we can tell everyone together. No worries there! Now go get her!"
Rei let out a sigh as she placed her phone on the table next to her. She decided to get a shower so she could sleep in just a little bit longer. The shower only lasted but a few minutes. Rei laid down and looked up at the ceiling hoping that everything was going to work out okay.
Serena didn't move as she watched Rei walk away from her. She still didn't want to wait till the morning to say the things she needed to say. Darien walked up behind her putting a hand on her shoulder causing her to jump a little.
"Geez, don't sneak up on people like that." Serena said grabbing her chest trying to calm herself.
Darien chuckled at the sight "Sorry, It's just that it's getting late we should probably head back to the hotel. "
Serena gave him a nod and then gave one glance back in the direction in which Rei had walked off. The pair walked around the back stage area for a few minutes before they could figure out how to get out of there. There was a light breeze and Serena began to shiver. Darien looked over at Serena and noticed she was cold and handed over his jacket. Serena looked at him and then the jacket a second before taking it. Slipping it over her shoulders she asked the one question Darien ever gave a clear answer to.
"Why did you leave?"
"I'm not sure that matters at this point, Serena. Besides I already told you."
Serena looked over at Darien, his hands were behind his head and he was looking straight ahead like he was in a far off place.
"Yes, of course it matters."
Darien let out a sigh and dropped his hands and shoved them into his pockets. When he decided to come back he didn't think this is how they would have ended up.
"It's real foolish actually" Darien started glancing over at Serena who was looking straight ahead. When Serena didn't look over at him or reply he continued.
"I started thinking about our future. You know us getting married, kids, having a life and I got a little scared." Darien laughed a little still Serena didn't look at the man standing next to her she just kept on walking.
"Then I started to notice things, you were acting different around me. You weren't as happy as you once were, at least you didn't seem happy around me. Then I got this opportunity to go to school in the states and I just figured that maybe things would be better off if I went."
Serena tensed at the statement. How could someone who seemed to love her so dearly just make a decision like that when it involved more than just themselves.
"Contrary to popular belief, I can handle myself when it comes to matters like that. We were in a relationship, why didn't you come talk to me instead of running off?" Serena shot back.
"Because like Rei I don't have a strong suit in sharing my feelings. Before you and the girls came into my life I was alone. Besides I didn't want you to feel like we had to be together. I figured letting you go was the right choice. I'd rather be hated and you be happy then you not being happy." Darien sighed and gave a small shrug.
Darien looked over at Serena who looked like she was deep in thought.
"It was by nowhere near fair to you, and I am sorry. I can back to tell you I was foolish and had hoped that things could have been different. Though I didn't mean to show up at your house at five am. I got a little carried away." Darien said with a smile.
Serena looked over at Darien with a weak smile as they arrived at the hotel. Darien told Serena to hold on a minute. He didn't think they should share a hotel room together since it might look bad if Rei found out. For that Serena was very appreciative. They made it to Serena's room and stood in an uneasy silence before Darien spoke again.
"I'm sorry for the pain I caused when I left. I thought you'd be happier being able to find someone who really made you happy"
Serena finally broke her silence. She looked up at Darien while she rested on the wall.
"I think between Rei and yourself I've developed a complex" Serena said with a light chuckle rubbing her temples then continued.
"Two of the most important people in my life decide that they need to disappear. That whatever is bothering then is too great that they cannot come to me and speak to me. I know I need to swallow my pride here but I can't help but feel a little hurt." Serena said letting out a sigh.
"I'm sure she has a better reason then I do, just talk to her. Though I wouldn't suggest trying to pry too much. Let her do the talking and go from there. If she loves you and realizes how important the conversation really is then she will open up to you no matter what."
Serena smiled at Darien then yawned it was late and she did have to be up early in the morning. This was something she couldn't be late for.
"Go to bed meatball head." Darien said with a chuckle as he waited for her to get inside her room just to make sure she was safe.
A/N: So I decided to stop it there. I was going to put Serena and Rei's conversation in this chapter but decided that if I was going to explain everything in a flack back scene that the conversation should go along with it.
After I posted the author's note I had decided I wasn't going to write this weekend and focus on my studies but I went to a Bonfire last night (30 foot flames it was amazing) I felt inspired to get this chapter finished. So I put off my class work to finish this ha.
Darien's reason is leaving is a bit of a copout but its better than the whole I had a dream so I left…. Blah…
I'm excited for the next chapter though. Serena finds out why Rei left. It's a bit dark so I need to change the rating just to be safe because of the graphic scene next chapter.
I've come to the conclusion the reason why I am focusing so much on Amara and Mina is because of the Stories I've been reading lately. I'll try to add more of the others too…
Oh… yeah the songs, I really had wanted to use Everybody's fool by Evanescence, but it was a little too dark for me, but the lines "Look here she comes now bow down and stare in wonder. Oh how we love you, no flaws when you're pretending" is perfect for how Rei is feeling… the song fits but it's just too dark because Rei isn't trying to push the girl away. Always wanted to make an AMV to sailormoon with this song. At the end of story I'll post a list of the songs and who they are by in case anyone wants to check them out.
Anyways that's all for now. Sorry the rant is a bit long. Hope you enjoyed it!