Alright, so here is the second chapter. I have been asked to write longer chapters, but this one is rather short, which I will try to avoid (no promises though, especially if I plan on updating halfway regularly) but it was already written by that time and seemed complete like it is now. Hope you like it, and now: on with the story.

1st of February

A good cup of tea usually does wonders for my calm, but at times even that has got its limits. There are several reasons for that to happen, but for the last few days it had usually been Starfire.

Like this morning, where I looked at her while she was walking into the kitchen, once again, like I already had the day before, asking myself why on earth that girl always had to wear so short and skin tight clothing. Somehow she was able to look like an angel in clothes that would have made nearly every other woman look like a slut, probably that vibe of innocence she brought with her. An innocence that I had taken from her. I had slept with a friend. A friend who was also the girlfriend of another friend of mine. God, this is so fucked up.

"Are you feeling good, friend Raven? You were doing the brooding again, and all the dishes exploded." Indeed I had been so sunken in my own thoughts that all the glass and porcelain in the kitchen had broken, and I had not even noticed.

"Yes, I'm alright, Starfire", I mumbled, before going up to my room as fast as I could without seeming suspicious. I knew that Robin, always being the detective, had already caught on to my strange behavior. It was highly unlikely that he would ever guess where my discomfort came from, but nevertheless, he was the last one whose suspicions I wanted to feed.

Once in my room, the first thing I did was sitting down in front of my soul mirror. I had avoided talking to my emotions yesterday and the days before as I knew wisdom would lecture me as soon as I met her on how irresponsible I had been. The worst thing about it was that I knew that she would be right in everything she said. I knew from the beginning that nothing good could ever come out of this, yet I had thrown caution in the wind. While the worst possible consequence, that I would blow up the whole city during orgasm because I lost my control over my powers had been unfounded, the other problems still remained.

The first one I approached was brave, who congratulated me on having the guts to pull through with my decision. An absolutely unnecessary comment which did not help me at all. I walked on to timid.

Timid simply asked me what I thought I would do if the others found out what had happened. She drew a horrid scenario that ended with everybody telling me that they had been my friend for the longest time before they kicked me out of the team.

I continued past lust (her commentary would most likely include something like how hot Starfire looked while naked, something that I did not need at all right now) on to happy, who only had to tell me that she did not like that I was so broody and worried and that I should just forget this chaos I had created for myself and and go have some fun. For some reason, that idea did not sound half bad right now.

Rage told me, with her typical malicious gleam in her eyes, that a real demon would just take what they liked, so I should kill Robin and claim Starfire and her body for myself. I shuddered. It was disconcerting, to say the least, that I still harbored this kind of thoughts, even if it was just in a small part in the back of my mind. I would do everything to keep myself from ever carrying out that plan.

Knowledge hardly acknowledged me, she was way too busy with sorting a new bookcase in the library, probably storing away my memories and thought processes of the last few days.

Now that I could not put it up any longer, I decided to go on to wisdom. My other emotions had not been able to give me any advice, and though I dreaded the obligatory "I told you so" she was probably the only one who could help me.

I had just exited the library when I found myself in another room that I had never seen before. In its center there stood a big television that showed short clips of memories. Robin and Starfire walking hand in hand. Starfire talking to me about her home world. A clip of her telling me that I was her friend and how she trusted me. Robin helping me regain my confidence before we defeated Trigon. Of him showing us all his most prized possession after we defeated Ding Dong Daddy.

A figure walked up to me from the other end of the room. She stepped up uncomfortably close in front of me. I had never seen this emotion before, but if I had not known who she was from the videos, I certainly did after her first sentence.

"Hey, Raven. So, what was it like to seduce your friend's girlfriend?", the emotion asked. She was clad in a sickly neon green robe that, just like herself, seemed to be intent not to be overlooked at any time.

"You're guilt, I suppose?", I asked the emotion as evenly as I could when facing the problems I had built for myself.

"As sure as the fact that you betrayed Starfire's trust", the emotion retorted. If anything, her reaction was only further proof that she was indeed guilt. She made absolutely sure that I would never forget why she was here.

I did my best to maintain my composure and asked: "So why weren't you here before?"

She grinned, and answered: "There never was any need for me. Now though, that you…"

"I know, I know", I interrupted her, before leaving the room as quickly as possible, hoping that this time I would actually encounter wisdom.

"You know, you can't walk away from me, Raven", she called after me. I shuddered. I knew she was right, my guilt would keep up regardless of what I did.

"You should have listened to me", wisdom greeted me in a tone of voice that made it absolutely clear she was less than amused.

"I know", I answered, ashamedly. "Can you help me, give me a tip, perhaps?"

"You did not want my help then, you won't get my help now", wisdom stated snappishly.

"Please?", I tried again. I did not really have a lot of alternatives, and though I felt a bit stupid begging my own emoticlone for advice, I did not really have an alternative.

"No", she stated calmly, before turning around and walking away.

I sighed and went back to reality. Now that really had helped me a whole damn lot.