IM ALIVE! Gahh ok im soooo sorry! i got caught up in finals for school and home issues and everything...! i added whenever i could and...gahh im sooo sorry T_T im sooo sorry, you know i love u guys!

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chapter 19

The sun was bright on Sunday afternoon as Shinra, Celty, Izaya and Shizuo approached Shizuo's front door. Shizuo, who had been jumpy and on edge the entire morning, stared at his front door with worry filled eyes. He glanced at Izaya who came up to stand beside him. "It's alright. We're here for you."

Shizuo nodded and, taking a deep breath, opene the door. He had expected his dad to be the first one he saw, but instead it was Kasuka. The younger boy blinked and then before stepping closer. "Shizuo..."

"Hey," Shizuo murmured. "...Mom and Dad here?"

"In the kitchen," Kasuka muttered, gesturing in that direction. "...Why are Shinra and them here too...?"

"They're helping me move things out," Shizuo shrugged as he walked past his brother.

Kasuka's eyes widened a bit as he watched the others follow Shizuo down the hall. Move things out...?

Kasuka, after clearing his head, followed the others down to Shizuo's room. They were looking around Shizuo's room, Shinra nodding to himself. "I think we have enough boxes back at the house...I can borrow Dad's car and drive it over here."

Shizuo nodded slowly. "Then go do that; the sooner the better, I guess."

Shinra and Celty left, Shinra offering a smile at Kasuka before exiting the house. Kasuka looked back towards Izaya and then at Shizuo. "...You're moving out?"

Shizuo paused and looked over at his little brother. "Yeah, I'm moving in with Izaya."

Kasuka frowned, fists clenching at his sides. "...So soon?"

"The sooner the better," Shizuo murmured, walking to his closet and starting to pull out his clothes. "I can't stay here anymore, Kasuka."

Kasuka took a shaky breath, slowly looking down at his feet. Izaya glanced at the younger male and then at Shizuo. "Should I give you two a moment...?"

Shizuo glanced over his shoulder, about to object, when he noticed the shaking of his little brother's shoulders. He sighed and nodded. Without a word, Izaya exited to the room, leaving Kasuka and his brother. Shizuo stepped away from the closet and turned towards his brother. "What is it?"

Kasuka looked up, his brown eyes teary. "Are you moving because of me?"

Shizuo's eyes widened in slight shock and then he frowned. "No, not because of you...why would you think that?"

"B-because...they always compare you to me..." Kasuka whispered, frowning. "They tell you how much better i am..how they wish you were like me...you...you hate me..."

Shizuo sighed, running a hand through his hair. "Kasuka, I don't hate you."

Kasuka frowned and looked back down at the floor. "...Yes you do...because they love me."

Shizuo frowned and then took a deep breath. "Come in here and shut the door."

Kasuka stepped fully into the room and shut the door behind him. He turned to look at his brother with his eyes still teary. Awkwardly, Shizuo rubbed the back of his head and thought for a second. "...Damn, I'm no good at this...ok...I've...never hated you. Maybe i...m-made it seem th-that way but...I...in reality I'm..."

Kasuka blinked in surprise when he saw Shizuo's shoulders start to tremble and his eyes begin to fill with tears. The blonde sat on his bed, face hidden in his hands as he let out a shaky, sobbing breath. "I've just been s-so e-envious of you."

"Envious..." Kasuka murmured as he frowned in slight confusion. "...Because I can act?"

"No," Shizuo shook his head, running a shaking hand through his hair as a tear rolled down his cheek. "...Because you're smart and attractive and...they love you...and you seem to be perfect at everything you do and I...I'm the complete opposite...heh...you know how everyone assumes the younger sibling looks up to the older ones?"

Slowly, Kasuka nodded. "Yes.."

Shizuo wiped his eyes, biting his lip as he bowed his head. "...I'm the one...who looks up to you, Kasuka...I've always loved you...I just wanted to be you."

Kasuka's eyes widened again and he slowly walked over to his brother. He set a hand on Shizuo's head and sighed a bit. "...Baka..."

Shizuo wrapped his arms around his little brother's torso, crying silently into Kasuka's shirt. Kasuka smiled just a bit. "...You haven't hugged me in a long time, big brother."

Shizuo chuckled ever so slightly. "Sh-shut up..."

Kasuka smiled, running a hand through his brother's hair slowly. "Love you, Shizuo."

Shizuo grew stiff for a moment before, slowly, relaxing. "...I love you too, Kasuka."

Kasuka hummed a bit. "...If you have to move then fine...but Izaya should know that I'm going to stop by whenever I want so I can see you. Alright? Just because you're moving out doesn't mean you can ignore me or anything."

Shizuo let out a chuckle. "Yeah...alright."

Kasuka smiled again and then sighed. "Come on; let's get your stuff ready."

Two hours later, Shinra and Celty were packing the last of the boxes into Shinra's father's car. From the livingroom, Shizuo glanced towards the kitchen where his parents had stayed since he had arrived. Beside him, Izaya and Kasuka glanced at him. Kasuka nudged him a bit. "Hey...you can go now, you know..."

"I know," Shizuo murmured, sighing and glancing down. He took a deep breath and then looked at his little brother. "...But I need to talk to them, too."

Izaya frowned a little. "Are you sure, Shizuo?"

"Yeah," Shizuo nodded slowly, running a hand through his hair. "...Give me a minute."

He went to the kitchen and walked in, lingering in the doorway. His father sat at the table across from his mother, both looking up in surprise when Shizuo entered. Shizuo hesitated before biting his lip. "...I'm leaving in a few minutes...thought I'd say bye."

Hiroki stood, making Shizuo jump a bit, and stared at his son. In the few moments of silence that followed, Shizuo managed to take in his dad's appearance. Bruised, cut and with bandages wrapped around his wrist; Izaya had taken a toll on him, indeed. Hiroki sighed just a bit. "...You're moving in with the Orihara boy?"

Shizuo nodded stiffly. "Yeah, I am."

Hiroki glanced at his wife, rubbing the back of his neck. "...Hope things work out for you...Shizuo. I do."

At the sight of Shizuo's frown, Mrs. Heiwajima stood too. "We mean...we hope you're happier there..."

Shizuo, biting back the smart remark that formed in his mind, nodded. "Thanks...make sure you guys keep taking Kasuka to his auditions.'

Hiroki nodded, walking closer. Shizuo went stiff, gulping just a bit as the man stopped a few inches from him. He stared into Shizuo's eyes before, slowly, extending a hand. "...Don't be a stranger around here...come over to see your brother whenever."

Shizuo blinked in surprise, slowly taking his dad's hand and shaking it. It felt strange, and his dad's palms were sweaty; nervous, perhaps? It made his eyes sting a bit as he stared back at his dad. "I plan to. ...See you around then."

Hiroki nodded, stepping back and turning away. "...Don't cause too much trouble."

Despite how wrong it felt, Shizuo managed a small smile. "Yeah, I'll try."

Shizuo left, finding his brother and the others outside near the car. Kasuka looked over at his brother and smiled slightly. "...Leaving now?"

Shizuo nodded slowly. "Yeah."

Kasuka glanced down and then smiled again. "I'll miss you."

Shizuo blushed and then looked away, huffing. "...I'm only going to be a few blocks away, jeeze; it's not forever. You can come over whenever and I'll come to see you, too." Though he blushed and his voice was a tad stern, it didn't stop him from pulling his little brother into a hug yet again. Kasuka wrapped his arms around his big brother's torso, burying his face in Shizuo's shirt. "Bye, big brother."

Shizuo hugged Kasuka just a little tighter. "Bye, Kasuka."

They broke apart, Kasuak offering one last smile before he turned his now stern and protective gaze on Izaya. "I'm trusting you with my brother...hurt him or make him cry again and I'll personally hunt you down."

Izaya laughed and nodded, bowing his head. "No worries, Heiwajima Jr.; I'll take good care of him."

Kasuka nodded and waved to Shinra and Celty before disappearing back inside the house. Shizuo glanced at the house, his old house, blinking and looking over as he felt Izaya twine their fingers together. Izaya smiled a bit at the blonde. "Are you ready to go, Shizuo?"

Shizuo slowly looked back at his house, a small smile on his lips. "Yeah...I think I am."

Izaya smiled, leading Shizuo to the car with the others.

"That's the last of it," Izaya smiled, setting the last box down in the corner of his room. He looked around at the boxes stacked in every corner before looking at Shizuo. The blonde was carefully hanging up his clothes in Izaya's closet and Izaya felt warmth spread inside of his chest. He's really here now with me...all mine...

Shizuo nearly jumped out of his skin when he felt arms wrap around his torso. "Damn it, you scared me!"

Izaya chuckled in the blonde's ear, turning so that he could kiss Shizuo's neck slowly. "You're finally here."

Shizuo blushed slightly. "I've been here for a few days now, Flea..."

"Not like this," Izaya murmured, a rush of sudden desire washing over him as he placed a kiss to Shizuo's neck again. "This time you aren't going back to that man...you're here with me."

Shizuo blinked a bit, turning so that he was staring at the other teen's face. He blushed a bit. "I'm here to stay, Flea..."

"MM, I know," Izaya whispered, cupping Shizuo's cheeks with his hands. "You're all mine now."

The statement was followed by a kiss, Izaya's lips hungry and driven by desire. Desire for Shizuo...for all of him. Shizuo had no objections, parting his lips almost instantly to allow the other's tongue access to his mouth. Izaya wrapped his arms around Shizuo's waist, his tongue sliding against Shizuo's slowly before lapping at the roof of the blonde's mouth. Shizuo sighed into the kiss, allowing Izaya to led him back until his back hit the wall, the black haired teen's hands sliding around his waist until they slid up his torso, Shizuo shivering into the touch. Izaya broke the kiss only to trail light kisses down Shizuo's jaw and neck, Shizuo panting slightly as he blushed brightly. "Nghn...I-Izaya..."

Izaya glanced up and then crashed their lips together again. His body was hot with the need to touch Shizuo...his Shizuo. The very thought sent his mind into over drive and he felt Shizuo respond, the blonde pressing closer to Izaya, their kiss becoming more sloppy as pants and ragged gasps began to punctuate it. Izaya, grinding his knee between Shizuo's legs, felt a rush of arousal run through him at the sound of Shizuo's half muffled moan between their lips. "I...Izaya..."

Izaya panted against Shizuo's lips, staring into the other's half lidded eyes. The danger of the situation sunk in; he was over whelmed with desire for his lover...and Shizuo was drop dead gorgeous. He gulped just slightly, smiling slightly. "S-sorry, Shizu-Chan...got a little carried away."

He went to move but Shizuo grabbed his wrist, pulling him closer. Izaya had to brace himself against the wall, both hands pressed flat against the wall beside Shizuo' head. Izaya blinked a few times at the blushing blonde trying to avoid his gaze. "Shizuo...?"

Shizuo gulped and then slowly met Izaya's eye. "...I...didn't want to stop."

He said it. He said it and, good god, was he embarrassed. His face seemed ten times hotter as he watched the surprise on Izaya's face. Izaya hesitated, leaning in a bit and kissing Shizuo's cheek. "You don' have to because I want to."

He didn't want to hurt him or scare him; that was the last thing he ever wanted to do to Shizuo. He would wait as long as he could, unlike the night Shiuzo's father had caught them on the couch. Then, he had been unable to hold down his lust. However, Shizuo was his now, and he wasn't about to do anything that would put Shizuo in another position like that.

Shizuo took a deep breath and shook his head a bit. "N-no...I want to...I want to."

Izaya hesitated before nodding slowly. "Alright...then let's move to the bed."

Shizuo allowed the other teen to led him to the bed. Izaya lowered Shizuo down slowly, kissing the top of Shizuo's head gently. Shizuo blushed as he brought his and Izaya's lips together once again. Izaya went slower this time, his hands resting on the blonde's waist for a few calm moments before sliding underneath Shizuo's shirt. Shizuo shivered a bit, Izaya's hands cold on his already hot skin. The raven's fingers traced every inch of his torso before brushing against a nipple. Shizuo jerked a little and Izaya slid his tongue into the blonde's mouth, lapping at his tongue almost eagerly. His fingers ran across Shizuo's nipple again, then again, the blonde giving a low moan into Izaya's mouth at the action. Izaya broke the kiss, leaning back enough so that he could slowly easy Shizuo's shirt off. The blonde blinked and then sat up a little, gripping the front of Izaya's shirt almost in a panic.

"Shizuo?" Izaya's voice dripped with concern.

Shizuo gulped and then huffed a little, his voice quiet. "Y-yours too..."

Izaya smiled a bit and tugged off his own shirt, taking a second to let Shizuo look at him. Shizuo's eyes roamed over the pale body presented to him, fingers suddenly itching to touch the skin before him. He gulped, unsure of what to do; was he allowed to touch Izaya as well, or was he supposed to stay still? He frowned a bit and then looked at Izaya with a nervous expression. "I...have the urge to...to t-touch you, too..."

Izaya blinked, his own cheeks tinting pink, before smiling. He slowly took Shizuo's hand and brought it to his chest, resting the blonde's palm on his own chest. "Then do it."

Shizuo blushed brighter, if humanly possible, before slowly running his one hand down Izaya's torso. The skin was soft and warm on his palm. He smiled a bit, his hand trailing down until it bumped the waist band of Izaya's pants. Izaya smiled, lifting Shizuo's chin and placing a soft kiss on his lips before trailing more down his jaw until he got to the blonde's neck. He took extra time here, kissing the skin softly before licking the juncture where the shoulder met the neck. Shizuo moaned quietly and Izaya bit down, a loud moan tearing from Shizuo's throat at the sudden wave of pleasure that ran through him. Izaya moaned a bit against Shizuo's skin, sucking on the bite spot and then licking it in apology.

Shizuo moaned and then covered his mouth with his hand, muffling the sound. Izaya frowned, removing Shizuo's hand and shaking his head lightly. "Don't do that. My parents are gone; no one will hear you so let me hear you."

Shizuo blushed, shaking his head as well. "I-It's embarrassing..."

"Embarrassing," Izaya chuckled softly, slowly lying Shizuo down on his back. "If you're with a lover, it can't be embarrassing...it's only me who will hear you."

Shizuo, after hesitating, slowly nodded. Izaya smiled, straddling the blonde's hips as he reached out to brush his thumb over an an erect nipple. Shizuo gasped a little, biting his lip. "Nnn..."

Izaya nodded, doing the action again and grinning as Shizuo squirmed a bit beneath him. He took the nipple between two fingers, pinching and rolling it and listening to the delicious gasps and whimpers coming from the blonde. He leaned down, taking the other nipple into his mouth and flicking his tongue against it. Shizuo jerked, a moan escaping his lips as Izaya flicked his tongue against it once more. "A-ahh...Izaya..."

Izaya felt another wave of arousal run through him as he listened to the noises the blonde was making. They were driving him mad and, even though he wanted to just get to the good part, he wanted Shizuo to feel every ounce of pleasure he could offer. He gave the nipple one last lick before his mouth trailed down, planting soft kisses as it went. Shizuo moaned softly, squirming slightly as he felt his manhood harden slowly. Izaya's lips reached the waist band of Shizuo's jeans and the raven haired teen paused, glancing up at the blonde. Shizuo, panting, looked down at him with a blush. "Wh-why...why are you stopping...?"

"Are you sure you want to keep going?" Izaya asked, voice huskier than normal. He placed a gentle kiss to Shizuo's stomach. "I won't force you to keep going."

Shizuo took a deep breath, allowing his mind to finally catch up with what was going on. He and Izaya were only a few minutes away from doing that. He gulped, looking back at Izaya who was staring patiently at him.

Did he want to continue? He wasn't stupid; this as a big deal. He was going to lose his virginity for god's sake..the one thing he had kept intact his entire life. He had grow up believing that doing this sort of thing was reserved for someone you loved...but he did love Izaya, there wasn't a doubt in his mind about that. Taking a deep breath, Shizuo sat up on his elbows. "C-come here..."

Izaya leaned up, letting Shizuo press their lips together gently. This kiss was slow, gentle, filled with every ounce of sweet love Shizuo could muster up. They broke apart slowly, Shizuo staring at Izaya through half lidded eyes. "I want to do this...with you...o-only...with you."

Izaya blinked and then smiled, nodding. "Alright...because I don't think I could stop if we continued like this."

Kissing the blonde again, Izaya allowed his hand to wander down and rub at Shizuo's steadily growing erection through his jeans. Shizuo gasped into the kiss, a hand coming up to grip Izaya's shoulder as he parted his lips. A wave of pleasure washed over him as Izaya rubbed a bit harder. Shizuo moaned into the other's mouth, his hand sliding up to twine his fingers into Izaya's hair and tug. Izaya moaned in return, adding extra pressure as he rubbed faster. Shizuo broke apart from the kiss and hid his face in Izaya's shoulder, breath coming out in quick gasps. "I...Iza...Izaya..."

Izaya groaned lowly and undid Shizuo's pants, pulling them down the blonde's legs slowly. Shizuo laid back, panting as the raven haired teen placed gentle kisses along his legs until his nose was touching the edge of his boxers. With a small huff, Izaya began to ease those off as well, eyes darting up to watch Shizuo's expression for any sign of uncertainty. He found none, only nervous lust swimming in the blonde's mocha eyes. When the boxers were completely off, Shizuo almost instantly closed his legs, turning to hide his face in the pillow as his face burned bright red. Izaya's eyes trailed over the pale, naked body below him hungrily.

Shizuo was perfect, more than that, even. Izaya wanted to devour every single inch of the blonde right then and there. From his sweet, delicious lips and down. He leaned down and eased Shizuo's legs open a bit with a pout. "Don't hide from me..."

"Stop looking," Shizuo murmured. "They're ugly..."

Izaya tilted his head before his eyes fell to the scars littering the blonde's hips. He smiled softly, pressing his lips to one mark gently. "These? No, they aren't ugly at all, Shizuo...I think your scars are beautiful."

Shizuo blinked, slowly looking down at Izaya as the raven haired teen kissed a few more scars, a hand on Shiuo's thigh, thumb rubbing soothing circles into the skin to keep the blonde calm. Shizuo frowned a bit. "Beautiful...?"

"Yes," Izaya murmured as he sat up, free hand coming to touch Shizuo's cheek gently. Despite how turned on he was, he couldn't help but be a total sap at the moment. "...It's a part of you, so it's beautiful; everything about you is beautiful."

Shizuo, huffing and glancing away, managed to roll his eyes. "...Idiot."

"I'm your idiot," Izaya pressed a kiss to the blonde's neck before smiling down gently at him. "Now...let me see you and don't be embarrassed."

Slowly, Shizuo let Izaya ease his legs apart and blushed brightly as the raven's eyes drank in the very sight of him. Izaya's eyes glazed over with lust, his voice husky and filled with desire as he spoke. "God, you're beautiful..."

"Don't just stare," Shizuo murmured, sitting up a little. He huffed, pressing his lips to Izaya's for a chaste kiss before lying back once more. Izaya, needing no more encouragement, smirked and leaned down to start littering kisses along the blonde's neck as his hand trailed up the blonde's bare thigh. Shizuo shivered, letting out a soft sigh and then gasping as Izaya's hand wrapped around his member. "A-ahh..."

"Relax a bit," Izaya gave a small chuckle, kissing the blonde's neck before biting down gently. Shizuo moaned softly, gasps escaping his lips as Izaya started to slowly pump his hardening cock. Watching the expressions on the blonde's face, Izaya smiled more. His noises are so cute...

Shizuo, panting slightly, closed his eyes and let his head fall to the side, trying to hide it in the pillow as Izaya's hand quickened, pleasurable jolts running through his body. Izaya was nipping at his collar bone, licking in some places and biting in others. Shizuo could feel something hot coiling in his stomach, but he wasn't sure what it was. "N-gnn... Izaya..."

"Hm?" Izaya gave a last lick to Shizuo's neck before going lower, licking at a sensitive nipple. Shizuo jerked and let out a long moan, one that sent a pleasurable chill down Izaya's spine. He groaned as well. I want to hear him do that again.

Izaya licked again and then, without any hesitation, began sucking. Shizuo's eyes jerked open as he groaned, a hand coming to twine in Izaya's hair and tug a little, more in pleasure if anything. "Izaya...haa..."

Izaya's hand, wrapped firmly around the blonde's member, paused and Izaya was delighted to hear the long, drug out whine the blonde let escape his lips. He eased his way down the blonde's body, kissing the inside of Shizuo's thigh before pausing again. Feeling slightly frustrated, Shizuo groaned."Why do you keep-haa..!"

Izaya had, without warning, taken the blonde's erection into his mouth. The sudden wet heat drove Shizuo nearly mad and he moaned out again, eyes clenching shut in pleasure. Izaya's tongue was slow at first, running along the length in a slow, agonizing fashion. Shizuo groaned low in his throat, his skin heating up as his now shaking hand came to grip Izaya's hair. "N-no...not there..."

Izaya pulled back a little, smirking slightly at his panting lover. "You seem to like it, Shizuo."

"P-pervert," Shizuo whispered shakily, not meeting the other's eye as he looked away again. Izaya smiled, his tongue flicking out to swipe across the head of Shizuo's cock without warning. Shizuo jerked, gasping out loud. "A-ahh..!"

Izaya chuckled again before taking the blonde's cock back into his mouth. Shizuo moaned at the feeling, head titling back again as his grip on Izaya's hair increased. "I...Izaya..."

Izaya's tongue worked slowly, tracing random patterns along the heated skin. He hummed a few times, the action sending vibrations through Shizuo's erection that had the blonde whimpering under him. Izaya forced down a smirk before he started sucking, the action making Shizuo's breath hitch before a loud moan tore from his lips. "Izaya...ahh...!"

Izaya didn't stop, too mesmerized by the sounds he was eliciting from Shizuo. He sucked harder, taking Shizuo deeper into his mouth, groaning around the length as a pleasurable jolt went down his spine when Shizuo gripped his hair tighter. Shizuo's panting was becoming faster, moans cutting into it every few seconds; he was close and that idea made Izaya excited.

He would bring Shizuo to his first orgasm.

Him and only him.

With a new found vigor, Izaya began to suck harder, bobbing his head as he swirled his tongue around the shaft and head. Shizuo's eyes widened as he moaned louder, the hot coil in his stomach becoming tighter and tighter. "A-ahh...haa...Izaya...!" The raven haired teen continued, grazing his teeth along the underside of Shizuo's length a few times, Shizuo closing his eyes tightly as he felt the coil tighten impossibly. "I...I f-feel weird...ngn...!"

He's so close...Izaya thought idly. With a final long, slow lick to Shizuo's straining cock, Izaya heard the blonde let out a loud, drug out moan and, instantly, Shizuo came into Izaya's mouth. "I-Izaya...!"

Mortified, Shizuo sat up with wide eyes and a bright red face. "I...i...S-sorry! Sp-spit it out!"

Izaya smirked a bit, making a show of himself swallowing the substance in his mouth. Shizuo's mortified look intensified and he quickly covered his mouth with his hand. "Th...that's...thats dirty, Izaya!"

"It's not dirty if it's with the one you love," Izaya almost purred, leaning in to peck Shizuo's lips. "Now relax...we aren't done just yet, love."

Shizuo blinked a bit, still slightly hazy from his orgasm, and then his eyes fluttered shut when Izaya connected their lips once more. Shizuo let the other teen lie him on his back again, the raven's lips detaching from his own only so that Izaya could press three fingers against Shizuo's kiss swollen lips. Shizuo parted his lips just enough to let the fingers slide into his mouth, his tongue swirling around them as he began to suck.

The feeling of Shizuo's wet mouth around his fingers made Izaya visibly shiver in anticipation and he watched with fainted breath. Damn, Shizuo was sexy. The blonde's tongue swirled around the other teen's fingers slowly, in an almost teasing fashion and it was all Izaya could do not to just cum right there. After deciding that his fingers were coated well enough, Izaya pulled them free of the blonde's mouth, a thin string of saliva connecting the fingers to Shizuo's mouth. The blonde, cheeks flushed and panting, stared at Izaya, waiting. Izaya took a slight second to compose himself before speaking. "I need you to relax for this part, Shizu-chan, or else it will be very uncomfortable."

Shizuo nodded slowly, taking a shallow breath. "Okay..."

Izaya nodded a bit, his hand lowering until his fingers were lingering just inches from Shizuo's virgin entrance. He glanced at the blonde again before slowly easing the first finger in. Shizuo grew stiff, squirming a bit and frowning in discomfort. Izaya bit his lip. "Just relax..."

Now, it was Izaya's turn to be nervous about the entire situation. This was the start of the most vital part, the most important part...he had to be careful not to frighten or displease Shizuo. Taking a deep breath, Izaya continued to ease the finger inside of the blonde and then paused. "You ok?"

"F-feels...weird..." Shizuo muttered, frowning and squirming again.

"I know, just be patient," Izaya murmured gently, adding a second finger.

This time Shizuo winced, biting his lips slightly as the urge to squirm away from the invading fingers washed over him. "H-hurts..."

"Bear with me here," Izaya kissed Shizuo's lips gently before leaning down to kiss his neck as he slowly started to scissor the fingers to loosen the blonde up. Shizuo made a small sound of discomfort. "H-hurts..."

"I know," Izaya nodded as he placed another kiss on Shizuo's neck. "It'll be ok, relax..."

Izaya moved his fingers around more, hesitating before inserting the third one. Shizuo grew stiff. "Ah..!"

"Sorry, last one, I promise," Izaya murmured, feeling bad as he saw Shizuo wince. He moved the fingers around, trying to find that one spot that he knew would make Shizuo see stars. Come on, now...

And, as if on cue, Shizuo's back suddenly arched, a loud moan tearing from his throat. "Oh god...!"

Izaya blinked a bit, experimentally thrusting against that spot again. Shizuo moaned again, eyes closing tightly as he gripped the bed sheets. "A-ahh...!"

Izaya smiled a bit. "Does that feel good, Shizuo?"

"P-pervert...ahh..!" Shizuo's face went bright red as Izaya nudged that spot with his fingers yet again. "H-haa...I-Izaya...!"

"You're enjoying this," Izaya said with a grin, laughing just a bit. "We're almost there, Shizu-Chan..."

Slowly, Izaya removed his fingers and Shizuo whined a bit at the loss. Izaya leaned back, slowly unzipping his own pants that trapped his pained and throbbing erection. He kicked his pants off with vigor, wasting no time in tossing aside his boxers as well. He stared down at Shizuo and then glanced around. "Shit, i don't have any lotion..." But, he wasn't about to stop now. He spat into his hand, using his spit (because that was all he knew he would have to use) to lubricate himself as best as he could. Below him, Shizuo writhed in both eagerness and nervousness. He panted slightly, biting his lip as he watched Izaya lather his spit along his length.

His eyes, he would later deny, fell to Izaya's length and he gulped. Would that...even fit...?

He took a shuddering breath, looking up to meet Izaya's eye. The raven stared down at him, his own cheeks flushed pink as he spoke. "R-ready...?"

Shizuo gulped and, slowly, he nodded. "Y-yeah..."

Izaya hesitated, though. This was it, this was...the big moment that would, without a doubt, have the most impact. He gulped ever so slightly; he couldn't fuck this up...no pun intended. He took a deep breath and leaned down to kiss Shizuo, at the same time lining his aching cock up with Shizuo's virgin entrance. The kiss was gentle and slow, both teens finally starting to feel the effects of their overwhelmed emotions. Shizuo's trembling hands came to tangle in Izaya's hair, now matted with a slight layer of sweat. Izaya slid his tongue into Shizuo's mouth, lapping at the roof of Shizuo's mouth as he, slowly, began to slide his way into the blonde's body.

Instantly, Shizuo grew stiff and then broke the kiss with a loud gasp. "A-ahh...Wh-wha...ahh...!"

"Shh, shh," Izaya cooed, kissing Shizuo's neck as he eased in, resisting the urge to just fuck him then and there. No, he had to make sure Shizuo was one hundred percent comfortable. "Relax or it'll hurt more, Shizuo."

Shizuo grit his teeth, taking quick breaths as Izaya slowly slid the rest of the way in. It felt almost as if he was being split in half; this was what everyone talked about at school? This was what teenagers loved? Shizuo couldn't see why...

Fully in, Izaya let out a shuddering breath, biting his lip to hold back a groan. He hadn't expected Shizuo to feel so good... The tight heat surrounding his cock was almost unbearable. Izaya looked at Shizuo, panting ever so slightly. "Just let me know...when i can move, Shizu-Chan..."

Shizuo winced again, trying to get used to the feeling. The pain was still there, very slowly easing away. Opening his eyes just barely, Shizuo nodded. "M-move...I-Izaya..."

Izaya nodded stiffly and, slowly, he eased back out until only the very tip remain, and then thrust back in quickly. Shizuo winced again, biting down on his lip as Izaya began to continue the action at an agonizingly slow pace. Izaya frowned a bit, his hand coming up to twine with Shizuo's other as he thrusted again. A little more...come on...

Pulling back out, Izaya took a deep breath. "It's ok, Shizuo..."

"Izaya," Shizuo breathed out, wincing as Izaya pulled out again. "It..it hur-ahh!"

While the blonde had been trying to speak, Izaya had thrusted in again, this time hitting Shizuo's prostate almost dead on. The blonde's sentence was cut off by a loud, stunned and pleasured moan. Izaya blinked, looking down at the blonde's face. Shizuo stared up at him, panting faster. "D-do...do th-that...again..."

Izaya felt himself smirk a bit. "With pleasure."

Izaya pulled back out again, letting out the smallest of moans as he plunged back in, Shizuo moaning out and arching his back up a little. "A-ah...!"

"Oh god," Izaya groaned, thrusted again, harder, and burying his face in Shizuo's neck. "You're tight, Shizuo...so tight..."

His thrusting became fast, but not too fast, lips attacking every inch of Shizuo that he could reach. Shizuo was a panting mess, moans escaping his lips each time Izaya hit that one spot, eyes watering at the intense level of pleasure his body had never felt before. He squeezed Izaya's hand tightly, arching up into his lover as that tight heat began to once again coil in his stomach. "M-more...I-Izaya...!"

"More," Izaya murmured with a breathless chuckle. He stopped, Shizuo whining at the loss, and pulled completely out. "Lie on your stomach."

Though the idea seemed vulgar in every way, Shizuo was too lost in pleasure to care. He turned, his back now facing Izaya. The raven smiled, taking Shizuo's hips into his hands and leaning forward to kiss Shizuo's shoulder blade. "Good boy..."

Shizuo huffed, burying his face into the pillow. "Sh-shut up and k-keep going, F-flea..."

Izaya nodded, kissing the nape of Shizuo's neck as he thrust in all the way. Shizuo gasped loudly, biting down on his lip. "Sh-shit..."

The new angle made Izaya go deeper, Shizuo feeling pleasure shoot up and down his spine and all along his body. "A-ahh...Izayaa...!"

Izaya groaned silently, gripping Shizuo's hips tighter and pulling out, only to thrust in yet again. Shizuo moaned again, head tossing back as he breathed in ragged gasps. "F...Fas...ter...faster...!"

Izaya did as was told, picking up the pace and thrusting into the blonde faster, moaning each time Shizuo did. The heat around his cock was almost too much; he was close already. Shizuo, too, was close, and Izaya snaked a hand around to grip the blonde's now leaking and straining cock, stroking it in time with his thrusts.

Shizuo moaned low in his throat, hanging his head as his body rocked with every inward thrust of the raven's hips. The bed beneath them creaked sligtly in protest, the sound seeming to make Shziuo even more turned on all together. He panted faster, the hot coil in his stomach tightening as Izaya's cock hit that spot dead on once more. "G-gonna...h-haa...Iz-Izaya...!"

Izaya bit down on his lip to suppress a groan. He loved this, the feeling of finally being like this with Shizuo. He loved every sound the blond emade, loved the heat around him, loved the expressions the blonde made...he loved all of it...and now, Shizuo was, one hundred percent...his.

"Oh god," Izaya moaned, slamming in as hard as he was able. "Sh-Shizuo...h-haa..."

Izaya's pace became frantic, slamming into Shizuo with every ounce of strength he had. Shizuo, hips trembling and moaning like there was no tomorrow, was pushing back against Izaya to feel more, so much more, of the raven. Izaya groaned, stroking Shizuo's dripping cock faster. Shizuo gasped out, trembling as he spoke in a breathless voice. "I...I'm going to...to c-cum...I-Izaya...!"

"Me too," Izaya panted against Shizuo's ear, licking along the shell of it before laughing breathlessly. "T-together... I love you, Shizu-Chan...!"

Shizuo let out a loud moan when Izaya sunk his teeth into his shoulder. "I...I ahh...l-love you...!" He came, white liquid spilling out and all over Izaya's hand and dripping onto the sheets.

Izaya moaned as he felt Shizuo tighten around him, finally reaching his breaking point and releasing his semen into the blonde as he bite down a bit harder on Shizuo's shoulder, licking it in apology once he finished.

They stayed like that for a while, panting and still very much connected. Izaya placed a kiss to Shizuo's back before finally pulling out, the blonde huffing slightly and falling back onto the bed. Izaya chuckled slightly, falling beside the blonde and moving hair, matted to Shizuo's forehead, out of his eyes. Shizuo stared at him with groggy eyes, panting. Izaya smiled, touching Shizuo's cheek. "Are you alright?"

"Y-yeah," Shizuo nodded, face turning a bright shade of red. "We...just..."

"Had sex?" Izaya laughed, nodding as he sat up a little. "Yes, we did...and i enjoyed it very much...did you?"

"D-don't ask things like that!" Shizuo blushed, looking away and then nodding a bit. "A-and...y-yes, i did."

Izaya's smile widened. "Good...shall we clean ourselves up now?"

"I'm tired..." Shizuo murmured, frowning.

Izaya rolled his eyes playfully, nodded as he laid back down, wrapping his arms around Shizuo and pulling him flush against him. He kissed the blonde's lips gently, an innocent action compared to what they had just finished doing. "...I love you, Shizu-Chan."

Shizuo smiled against Izaya's neck. "...I love you too, flea...now let me sleep."

Izaya grinned again, nodding as he too closed his eyes. "Sleep well, Shizuo."

gah! how was it? T_T be honest! i've never done a full yaoi scene before so...i was really nervous and unsure...and i kept erasing and adding and everything...! . review review review! i love you guys for putting up with me and how long i took! i love u all soooo much! 3 next chapter, hopefully, wont take as long.