sorry! my internet was off, then i was uber busy...its summer! im trying! DX but! i came up with a plot twist that could add a few more chapters to this story since you all love it so much XD

sorry again if it took so long D:

Enjoy~

chapter 20

Shizuo opened his eyes slowly, yawning and then nearly jerking in shock at the other body pressed against his. After the momentary shock wore off, he relaxed a bit into the other male's arms and inhaled Izaya's scent. He smiled as Izaya shifted, crimson eyes blinking open slowly. Izaya looked at Shizuo blankly for a moment before a soft smile formed on his lips. "Well, good morning, beautiful."

Blushing, Shizuo shoved at Izaya with a small smile. "Shut up, Flea...what time is it?"

Izaya hummed, leaning over Shizuo to grab his phone off the bed side table. He flipped it open and checked the time. "Hmm...six o'clock."

"We have school," Shizuo grunted with a small sigh, yawning and sitting up. "Ah!" At the sharp pain that shot up his back, he fell back again and winced. "Ow..."

Izaya, worry flooding his eyes, quickly leaned over and, with little effort, rolled Shizuo onto his stomach. "I should have told you it'll hurt when you try to stand...or walk...and move."

"I wouldn't have done it if you told me that," Shizuo snapped, burying his face into the pillow with an annoyed growl.

Izaya chuckled, his hands slowly rubbing soothing circles into Shizuo's lower back. "Big bad Shizuo can't handle sex?"

"Sh-shut up!" Shizuo blushed, glaring over his shoulder.

Izaya snickered playfully before his smile grew soft again. "I'm sorry, if it helps at all."

Shizuo muttered something along the lines of "Stupid Flea," and Izaya couldn't help but smile again. He sat there for a few minutes, gently rubbing Shizuo's back and humming to himself as the blonde laid still. Once Izaya stopped, he kissed the top of Shizuo's head. "Come on; let's get ready for school."

"School," Shizuo murmured, sitting up slowly. "I can't even walk."

"Don't be a baby," Izaya teased, getting off the bed and smiling gently. "Just don't get so worked up and don't walk too fast."

Shizuo mumbled something under his breath before getting out of bed and wincing just slightly. They both dressed in their uniforms, Izaya sneaking quick kisses here and there that had Shizuo growling under his breath in embarrassment. They gathered their bags and headed down stairs, finding Izumi in the kitchen. She smiled over her shoulder at them. "Morning, boys."

"Good morning mother," Izaya smiled, walking to the fridge and opening it.

"Morning," Shizuo murmured, looking around. "Kururi and Mairu still asleep?"

"Yeah, hey you want to go get them up for me, Shizuo?" Izumi smiled.

Shizuo hesitated before nodding. "Yeah, sure."

He left slowly and Izaya pulled out a carton of milk, opening it and taking a drink. Izumi swatted the back of his head lightly. "Use a cup, Izaya."

Izaya smiled and wiped his mouth with the back of his hand. "Sorry~"

Izumi smiled again before walking top the table and picking up an envelope. "You got a letter back from the university."

Izaya blinked, setting the milk down and walking over to take the envelope. "Which one...?"

"The one nearly across the country," Izumi said quietly, leaning against the counter as she gazed at her son. "You were accepted."

Izaya blinked again, not smiling but also not frowning. He stared at the envelope for a few seconds before his mother spoke again, her voice barely above a whisper. "You didn't tell him, did you?"

"It never crossed my mind," Izaya murmured as he shoved the envelope into his jacket pocket. "Plus it wasn't the most important thing on my mind lately..."

Izumi sighed, nodding slowly as she stood straight. "You have to tell him, Izaya; he';; be more upset later if he finds out some other way. I'm sure you don't want him to be more upset than necessary."

Izaya nodded again, sighing as he ran a hand through his hair. "I will, mom...I will."

Izumi didn't respond, watching as Kururi and Mairu trudged in with Shizuo behind them. Shizuo smiled a bit at Izumi. "I got them for you."

"Thank you honey," Izumi smiled, walking over and hugging the blonde teen. "Make sure to have a great day, ok?"

Shizuo blushed a bit, nodding stiffly. "Y-yeah."

Izaya felt himself smile and he hugged his mom quickly before grabbing Shizuo's wrist. "Come on, Shizu-Chan~"

The two teens walked out, the morning sun warming their skins as their fingers slowly twined together. Izaya frowned a bit, looking up at the sky. "The school year is almost over."

Shizuo shrugged a little. "We have another year to go so it's no big deal."

Izaya winced a bit, looking off to the side as he chewed his lip in thought. "I wonder how that year will go..."

"Normal," Shizuo murmured before shrugging once more. "But...maybe a bit better because we're...you know..."

"Yeah," Izaya muttered, forcing back a sigh and squeezing Shizuo's hand. "I love you."

Shizuo blinked a bit before blushing slightly. "I love you too."

Izaya smiled, deciding not to dwell on his thoughts for too long.

He had a lot to explain to Shizuo and he had a lot to ask of the blonde teen. He already felt guilty and he hadn't even mentioned anything yet;how could he possibly ask more of the blonde, who had given him everything and beyond? He didn't want to have to explain this to Shizuo because because he was sure of what would come as a result.

He didn't want to hurt him.

He hadn't meant to forget about all of this but now that it was looking him straight in the eye, and Shizuo was relying on him for dear life...everything was different now.

Shinra yawned as he picked at his lunch, glancing at Shizuo who sat across from him, alone. "Where's Izaya?"

"He said he had to talk to the counselor," Shizuo murmured, swallowing a mouthful of food.

Shinra blinked before nodding in realization. "They must be talking about graduation."

"Graduation," Shizuo echoed, confused. "What the hell for? We don't graduate for another year."

"No," Shinra shook his head with a small frown. "Izaya's graduating early, Shizuo."

Shizuo's eyes widened, grip on his chopsticks tightening. Shinra took in the blonde's shocked expression before he gasped. "Shit, he didn't tell you?! Ah, I'm sorry! My sincerest apologies!"

Shizuo watched the brunet bow his head repeatedly, finally shaking his head and looking down at his lunch. "It's...fine."

Shinra bit his lip. He felt like a jerk for speaking out of turn and about Izaya's personal business at that. "I'm sorry...I figured he would have told you by now..."

Shizuo shook his head. "No...he's graduating...this year?"

Shinra nodded, fixing his glasses and glancing away. "Yeah...and from what he told me earlier when you were in the bathroom he-...no, never mind!"

"What, tell me!" Shizuo gasped, head snapping up. Shinra shook his head and Shizuo growled under his breath. "Tell me, damn it!"

Shinra sighed, unable to deny his friend. "He...a while ago he applied for a university. He showed me the acceptance letter earlier today..."

Shizuo wasn't stupid; he heard the way Shinra trailed off, caught the unsure tone of the other boy's voice. "...Where is this university, Shinra?"

Shinra didn't answer right away, unsure if he should. He didn't want to sadden the blonde but he also knew that not answering would anger Shizuo which would start a whole chain of unneeded events. He sighed, looking back at the blonde slowly. "It's...almost fully across the country, Shizuo."

Shizuo felt a cold chill settle in, his heart clenching painfully. Izaya hadn't told him any of this, had never even suggested the fact that he'd have to leave soon. Shizuo felt his hands shake and he set his food down, standing slowly. Shinra blinked up at him. "Where are you going?"

"Class," Shizuo whispered. "I've lost my appetite."

He walked back into the school building, down the stairs to go to the boys' bathroom. After making sure the bathroom was empty, he locked the door and fall back against it, a shuddering gasp escaping his lips as he clutched his head.

Izaya couldn't leave... he couldn't!

Shizuo would have to go through life...

Alone.

He'd have to move back in with his parents...and be sad...

Alone.

He'd become a monster again...he didn't want that, he didn't!

Shizuo slid to the floor, hugging his knees to his chest as his breathing became rapid. He had to calm down; he couldn't have a panic attack at school. He tried to slow his breathing, running a hand through his hair as he closed his eyes.

Then, his phone buzzed. He jerk in surprised, opening his eyes and fishing it out of his pocket with a shaking hand and flipping it open.

'I love you.'

The text was from Izaya and it was all he needed to calm down his rapid heart. He felt himself smile just a bit, leaning his head back to rest against the door behind him.

Izaya closed his phone after sending the text, walking back to his class before the bell rang within the next three minutes. He would talk to Shizuo about his graduation and such later, on a better day, on a day he could be with Shizuo alone and break the news slowly...gently. Doing it now would be stupid; Shizuo was still in a rather delicate state, after all.

What kind of boyfriend dumps such important information on his stressed lover at such a wrong time?

This weekend, Izaya decided. I'll talk to him this weekend...after, of course, I surprise him.

He had decided to spend time with Kasuka, as well. It was a perfect idea; spend an entire day with the Heiwajima brothers, then ease into the news later that night with Shizuo.

He prayed, though, that Shizuo wouldn't hate him for his early graduation or for his enrollment in such a far university. That would kill not only him, but Shizuo too.

He didn't want to hurt Shizuo, he had sworn to himself that he wouldn't. But with this kind of news...that goal seemed close to impossible now He could only pray that Shizuo would take it well.

OK! drama drama drama...Shizu-chan knows! wonder how the news breaking will go for Izaya~ the next chapter will skip ahead to the weekend. Involves Kasuka and Izaya being the awkward guy dating Kasuka's brother XD And an awkward attempt at bonding with kasuka too XD then of course all the feels! what did u think about this chapter? for some reason no matter how i wrote it,it just didnt sit well with me... review dears?