Sorry, this took a while. I have a busy summer, believe it or not...for once im not forever alone XD but im working on it, slowly but surely. I won't give up on this XD

Enjoy!~

chapter 21

Saturday had come in a blur, Shizuo not thinking too much about what Shinra had told him for most of the week; no use in getting himself worked up. Now, late Saturday morning, he found himself sitting on a park bench with Izaya as they waited for Kasuka to arrive. Shizuo glanced at Izaya, the raven haired teen looking somewhat anxious. "You ok?"

"A tad nervous," Izaya admitted with a small laugh.

"Nervous," Shizuo scoffed. "You've met my brother before, Izaya."

"Yes, but he didn't like me the last few times I saw him." Izaya reminded with a small sigh. He leaned back and smiled. "I want Kasuka to like me, Shizu-Chan."

"He does," Shizuo shook his head and elbowed Izaya lightly.

Izaya smiled again before glancing to the side. He blinked a bit as he saw Kasuka come into view, the younger Heiwajima meeting his eye instantly. Izaya stood, looking at Shizuo. "He's here."

Shizuo stood too, walking to his little brother and giving him a hug before ruffling his hair to mess it up. "Hey."

"Hey," Kasuka replied, smiling before looking over Shizuo's shoulder at Izaya. "Hello, Izaya."

Izaya smiled kindly, waving. "Hello, Kasuka; I'm glad you could make it."

"It's no problem," Kasuka assured with the smallest of smiles. "What did you have planned today?"

Izaya shrugged lightly. "You two up for a trip to an amusement park? There's one across town that's closing in a few days; I figured we could have some fun there. Rides, games and such~"

"Sounds good," Kasuka nodded, gesturing for Izaya to lead the way, "Let's get going."

Izaya smiled, turning on his heel and leading the way. The walk there was long, though punctuated with small conversations here and there between the three. They reached the amusement park after sometime, Shizuo blinking at the amount of people that crowded the area. "People...great..."

"Oh, lighten up, Shizu-Chan!" Izaya smiled, throwing an arm around the blonde's waist. "Ride some rides, eat some candy...enjoy!"

"He's right," Kasuka murmured lightly. "Have fun."

Shizuo sighed a bit, shifting from foot to foot uncomfortably. "There's too many people..."

"You'll be fine," Izaya placed a gentle kiss on the blonde's lips, smiling sweetly at him. "You've got me here, remember?"

Kasuka couldn't help but laugh as he watched his brother's face turn bright pink, the blonde finally murmuring, "Y-yeah..."

Izaya grinned widely, turning on his heel and pointing towards the large roller coaster across the park. "We'll ride that first!"

Shizuo paled. "E-excuse me...?"

"He's your boyfriend," Kasuka muttered as he playfully elbowed his brother. "Let's go before he starts to scream."

He felt sick, more than sick.

He felt like shit.

He had been drug on three roller coasters, all of which must have been the fastest and twisted ones at the park. Izaya, however, had found Shizuo's screams of fear enjoyable and Kasuka...well, Shizuo had the suspicion that his little brother found his agony humorous too.

Shizuo sighed, flopping down on a bench and leaning back to let out a sigh. "Damn..."

"You look like hell," Kasuma laughed, sitting beside Shizuo and holding out a bottle of water. "I don't think roller coasters are your thing, Shizuo..."

"Shut up," Shizuo muttered, snatching the water bottle and opening it. He took a long drink before sighing again.

Kasuka smiled and glanced towards Izaya who was currently waiting in line to buy cotton candy which Kasuka had requested. "...How are you and him doing?"

Shizuo looked up, his eyes falling on Izaya and then he frowned. "...I though we were great."

Kasuka frowned as he tilted his head. "What do you mean...?"

Shizuo looked away, staring blankly at the water bottle. "...He;s graduating early...this year. And after that he's...going to a University after summer but it's...half way across Japan."

Kasuka blinked in mild surprise as he looked back towards Izaya. "He told you that?"

"No, Shinra did," Shizuo scoffed, shaking his head as he ran a hand through his hair. "Izaya hasn't said a single thing about it to me."

"That's no good," Kasuka frowned. He sighed too and crossed his arms. "I'm sure he was planning to tell you, Shizuo. It's just...he probably figured now wasn;t the best time, what with you moving out and everything. Try not to get so worried, ok?"

"I can't help it," Shizuo muttered. "I'm going to get worried...you know I am."

"I'm sure Izaya would only be honest with you," Kasuka assured with a small smile.

Shizuo shrugged idly, lookign up as Izaya walked up to them with the cotton candy. "I got the candy."

"Great," Kasuka smiled, taking some and looking at Shizuo. "More rides?"

"Go to hell," Shizuo snapped, looking away and huffing.

Izaya smiled and ate some of his candy, reaching out and pulling Shizuo up by the hand. "Come on, we don't have to go on any rides. There's plenty of things to do."

"We can just walk," Shizuo murmured lightly. "We went on enough rides."

"Big baby," Izaya laughed, twining their fingers together and looking at Kasuka. "Walking is fine for you, yes?"

"Sure," Kasuka stood, following the older two as they started to walk. The trio walked casually through the crowded area, eating cotton candy and laughing with each other.

Shizuo had to admit that it was nice seeing Izaya and Kasuka get along. He was glad that they didn't hate each other because he was sure Kasuka had hated Izaya not too long ago. The three walked for an hour or so, Shizuo wasn't sure, before Kasuka finally stopped them. "Shizuo, you should go get us drinks."

"Why me?!" Shizuo snapped, crossing his arms. "There are people there!"

"Exactly," Kasuka stressed, gently pushing his brother in the direction of the drink stands. "Go on, they won't bite you."

Shizuo growled under his breath, stalking off, and Kasuka looked at Izaya. Izaya smiled back at him. "Forcing him to socialize?"

"He needs it," Kasuka replied quietly, leaning against a pole. "He'll need it for adult life."

Izaya nodded again in agreement. "That's very true...thank you, Kasuka...for coming today."

"I didn't want to hate you forever," Kasuka admitted with a small smile before growing serious. He recalled what Shizuo had told him earlier and frowned again. "Don't give me reason to hate you, Izaya."

Izaya's smile faltered, his stomach flipping nervously as he looked away. "I know, Kasuka."

Kasuka frowned again but sai nothing, settling for looking up at the sky. "...You make him happy, you know. I don't think I've ever seen him so happy in my life."

Izaya glanced at the younger Heiwajima. "...He makes me happy as well. I love your brother with all my heart."

"I sure hope so," Kasuka muttered. "Because it won't be me he kills if you're lying."

Izaya blinked in surprise, unable to speak as Shizuo walked back up with three sodas and an irritated frown. "Here, I got your damn drinks."

"Was that so hard?" Kasuka smiled, taking his soda and smirking slightly. "Big baby."

"Shut up," Shizuo snapped, turning and holding Izaya's soda out to him. "Here, flea."

Izaya took the soda slowly, a frown on his lips. Shizuo tilted his head, a frown on his lips as well. "Izaya, are you alright?"

Izaya blinked back to reality. "Yes, I'm-"

"He looks pale," Kasuka cut in with a mock gasp. He looked at Shizuo with worried eyes. "You two should go home before he passes out or something!"

Shizuo blinked in surprise, nodding slowly. "R-right..."

"Go on!" Kasuka huffed, shoving the two away. "I'll walk home, ok? Take care of Izaya!"

Turning on his heel and walking away, Kasuka mentally snickered at his brother. I don't even need to be a good actor to get to him!

Shizuo ran a hand through his hair, confused, before looking at Izaya. "Well...let's get you home."

Izaya frowned but nodded, allowing Shizuo to twine their fingers together and lead them away. His chest felt heavy, as if it were being pressed down on by a rock or something larger, heavier. It damn near hurt; he hated the feeling of guilt. He glanced at the sky and then at Shizuo, the blonde also seeming distracted by something. He frowned, tugging Shizuo's hand lightly. "Hey, you alright?"

Shizuo nodded. "Yeah, are you? I didn't really think you looked sick like Kasuka said but...you looked distracted..."

"Just thinking," Izaya assured softly, smiling a little. "I'm fine. Shizu-Chan."

Shizuo nodded and neither said a word after that. They made it home, the family saying hi before the boys went upstairs. Shizuo kicked off his shoes, yawning and sitting on the bed only to fall on his back, staring up at the ceiling. Izaya stared from the door way.

"Don't give me a reason to hate you, Izaya."

Izaya winced a bit before looking towards his school jacket hanging idly on his closet door. He gulped and then took a deep breath. "Hey, can we talk?"

Shizuo frowned at the ceiling. "Sure..."

Izaya walked to his jacket, reaching into one of the pockets and removing the envelope concealing his acceptance letter. He fiddled with it for a second, nervous, before sitting on the bed and looking down at Shizuo. "...I'm graduating early."

Shizuo's eyes widened for a second before he frowned, turning to lie on his side with his back facing his lover. "...I know. Shinra told me a few days ago."

Izaya frowned, looking down at the letter in his lap. "...I applied before I met you...I wouldn't have if we had...you know..."

"It's fine," Shizuo cut in. "It's good. You're progressing in life. I'm...happy for you."

"You're lying," Izaya's voice was a silent whisper.

Shizuo sat up, a pillo hugged to his chest and back to Izaya. He bit his lip before hugging the pillow tighter. "...I'm very happy for you, Izaya...I am. It's the fact that you didn't tell me...and that you'll have to go away that makes me so...upset."

"I was going to tell you," Izaya assured, hands coming to rest on Shizuo's shoulders, rubbing gently. "I promise I was...but I didn't think now was the best time...as for the leaving...there are high schools there, too, Shizu-Chan..."

"I'm not moving," Shizuo snapped, glaring over his shoulder with teary eyes. He turned to full face the other teen, trying his best to glare. "I can't leave Ikkebukuro; all that would happen would be a new city would hate me! I'd rather feel the familiar hate than live with a new one...besides, Shinra, Celty and Kasuka are here...I can't just leave them..."

Izaya frowned back, looking to the side to stare at the window. "...I have to go to this school, Shizu-chan...I know I told you I'd do anything for you but...this is a very good opportunity for me..."

"I know," Shizuo sighed, leaning closer until his head rested against Izaya's chest, hands gripping the raven haired boy's shirt. He closed his eyes, inhaling Izaya's scent. "...I wouldn't ask you to give this up...I...I know that...you need to go..."

"But I promised you I'd never leave you," Izaya whispered, kissing the top of Shizuo's head as he hugged the blonde. "I promised."

Shizuo gulped, shaking slightly as he opened his teary eyes, a lone tear sneaking down his cheek. "...We have until graduation to figure this out...so it's ok...for now..."

"For now," Izaya nodded, biting his lip. But then what comes at the end of this wait? Will you hate me,or love me a thousand times more?

gahhh this chapter was really bad, sorry! Hm, will they work things out? Maybe. Will they break up? Maybe not. XD yeah, you'll have to see. Thanks to this plot twist idea, i have a way to extend this fic, so there'll be one more chapter for their school year before a few chapters about summer, then a skip to adult hood, you'll see. it might actually turn out good, believe it or not XD thanks so much for your support, please review! I love you all!