I was one step closer to restoring Ludwig. I was the highest rank anyone could possible be in the military, the commander in cheif. If I still had my cocky attitude when entered the army then it was gone.

It had been years since I last since I had lived and studied with Hans, though we still wrote to each other, but I had a naging feel that he probably told me in one of our lessons that the proper thing to do after a promosion or something like that is to throw some kind of party, what kind I don't know because that lesson I wasn't paying attention. Since I hadn't seen any of the other nations since I was sent to stay with Hans I decided to do it.

I ended up asking someone else to plan it for me, but no one had to know that. It a ball like party but what ever.

I wore my cerimonialy uniform. I looked in my mirror to make sure I looked ok. I looked like a twenty year old man now, my hair reaching just past my shoulders. I straightened out my sword and grabed my hat and went to greet the guests.

The first people to arrive where human friends of mine. Hans showed up. His blond hair had turned white and he was wrinkled and much older looking then I had remembered leaving him. I talked with them until Rochdrick showed up with Elizibeta and Feli.

"Hello Rochdrick. Elizabeta." My twin nodded in acknowledgement . My old friend smiled and gave me a quick hug before clinging back to her feince's arm.

"Its nice to see you again Gil. It been a long time. How are you?" I was about to say I was fine but I could tell she was talking about something else.

"What do you mean?" Eliza sighed and detached herself from austria and pulled me away from the other two, one of which I still hadn't say hello to.

"I mean how are you after what happened to Ludwig." I could tell she was worried about me.

"Why did you pull me away to ask me that?" She took a deep breath. I noticed that her lead hand was twiching. For what ever reason she wanted to smack the back of my head, which confused me more.

"I didn't want to bring it up with Feli there. It took him months to get over Ludwig's death, if he is even over it yet. He hasn't been the same since." My heart stopped for a moment before going again. Ludwig's death. It made since now. Why other nations didn't write me asking what was up with me. Why ludwig hadn't met feli. Now that I thought about Feli did seem to be faking his smile.

I forced my own smile. "Fine. Out of curiousity, who told you?" She didn't seem to believe me but answered any way.

"Your grandfather came and told us. He also gave us most of his belongs that he had with him." She looked at Feliciono who had walked over to his brother who had just come in with Antonio. She reached into her purse and pulled out a leather bound book, that I had only ever seen with one person before.

"It's Ludwig's journal. I thought you might want to keep it. Feli and I have read it already. Rocdrick doesn't want it. Besides I always thought you were closer to him anyway." I nodded and carefully. I had never read the journal before. The closest I had ever come before was from before he could write when either Eliza or I would write for him.

"Thank you Eliza." I tucked the book under my arms. "I should go talk to my other guests." She nodded in understanding and ran back to my brother.

I walked over to the person who was hurt the most by my grandfather's lie, Feliciono.

He was with Loviono, away from the rest of the group. Though they were the same age Romano looked older, like a 14 year old human. Italy had always looked younger but now he could have been anywhere from 11- 13.

The older brother seemed to be standing in a protective stance in front of his brother, glaring at everyone that past, as if he was daring someone to come mess with him. His glare seemed to deepen when he noticed me approching.

"What do you what bastard?" He snarled. I gave him a a look and pushed past him to Feli.

"Hello Gilbert. Its a nice party. Thanks for inviting me." I could certainly tell that his smile and happy attitude were forced now.

"Are you ok?" He glanced up at me, and I saw his normal smiling mask crack. Tears welled up in his eyes.

"I miss him." It broke my heart to see Feli so upset. I reached out and pulled him into my arms. He started to cry, and I soothed him as I had done for Luddwig when he was younger.

"I miss him too." We stood there like that for a while with Lovi standing ready next to us to pull his brother away from me if I did anything.

"He did love you. It broke his heart to leave you that time. He only did because he planned to come back. If he thought he wouldn't come back he wouldn't have left. He could never permenantly leave you." I felt the crying slow down. When he finally looked up at me his smile seemed more guenuine.

"I know." He paused for a moment searching my face for something. "He loved you too." I smiled at this.

"I know." I repeated his words. "And just so you know, because he loved you, I would do anything for you, when ever, where ever, or what ever you needed."

He nodded still smiling. "I would do the same for you."

The rest of the night was a blur. My mind was too focused on the book under my arm to even be upset with my grandfather when he can without Ludwig even though I had sent him an invitation, I had mange to stay in contact thoung my entire time in the army.

The first thing I when I was back alone in my room was lie on my bed and open the the first entry of the journal and read it out loud.

"I am Ludwig Beilschmidt. My annoying brother, Gilbert, is writing this for me. Don't ask me how but I am a nation. I don't understand it yet but I will. I live with my other brother..." I remebered writing this. After every sentence I had teased him about how if he was the only one to ever read it why would should he right about his daily life. I smiled at the memory.

"I met the prettiest girl today. Francis brought her with her brother. Apperenly they are all siblings but none of them act anything alike and francis doesn't look like either of them. She is so nice too. She smiles at everything and is always happy. Feli, that is what she told me her name was, and Lovino will be living with us for a while, though by the sounds of it Lovi won't before too long. The best part is that she is a nation too! She is the nation of Italy, well North Italy. Her brother is south Italy but people call him Romano. She cares for her brother so much. It reminds me of how I feel for Gilbert." This entry, much later in the journal, contuied talking about how amazing Feli was. It was when he could write for himself so I didn't know any of this though I had been there with francis that day.

I read the journal for hours until I finally got to the last entry.

"I am going into a big battle today aginst France. I left Feli and promised her that I would come back and marry her. I sealed it with a kiss. She gave me her broom! It took all my will power to leave and I could only do it becuse I woujld come back and marry her. I will never let it go.

"I would never tell anyone this but I am scared about the battle. Gilbert is here with me and I don't want anything to happen to him. If he died I don't think even my dear Italia would be able to console me. At least I know Italy is safe. If they both died I don't know what I would do. Well I have an early day tomorrow so I am off to bed."

I felt tears run down my cheeks and quickly wiped them away. My brother was the kindest person in the world though he had a hard time showing it with how shy he was.

Before I could change my mind, I wrapped the journal in paper and wrote a quick note to Ludwig informing him what this was, and sent him the book. If he can't remeber atleast he will know about his life.