Notes: This is shorter than originally planned, but I won't have a chance to update again until the end of the week and I wanted to give a little something to let everyone know how much I appreciate the feedback. I do not own either of these 2 lovely ladies because Rookie Blue does. No betas for me, so mistakes are all mine.

Chapter 2: I Can't Seem to Find My Way Home

So far away from where you are

These miles have torn us worlds apart

And I miss you, yeah I miss you

I miss all the little things

I never thought they'd mean everything to me

Lifehouse

Day 10

'The new guy is a stiff. Good thing I am up on my medical jurisprudence.'

'He has taken over your lab. He makes me wait in the hall!'

'Your lab was like my second home.'

'Did I ever tell you that?'

'My first home was your house.'

'Actually, my first home was you.'

'I bet your new lab is a nerd's wet dream.'

'Would my cat tree fit in there with all your fancy new doodads?'

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The key provided by the landlord slips easy into the lock. You cradle the handle like you have countless times before, except today it will look different. You step in and immediately, the front door clicks gently behind you, locking you into this moment whether you are ready or not. Hardwood and granite. Your hands caress the smooth surfaces of the previous occupant's kitchen. Her insanely expensive, but 'totally necessary' brass espresso maker is missing. Only the outlet that brought it to life remains. Gone are her extra pair of glasses by the sink and her docking station. The one that facilitated her annoyingly perky, morning dishes dance. Although, the good doctor, shaking her amazing ass in her underwear, was not really something you were inclined to voice complaints about, no matter how early.

The hardwood whines beneath your feet. The sound bouncing off the empty walls, like a broken silence, reminding you that she's not here. You climb the steps to the second floor and automatically step around the plant that no longer occupies the landing. It had made such a mess that night you knocked it over, barely reaching the top of the stairs before spinning Holly around because you weren't waiting another second to touch her. She had tasted like warm summer rain drops and honey. Your heart had been taken without permission that night. Holly's trusting, soulful brown eyes locked with yours when she'd climaxed and you had been so humbled. Never, had someone entrusted you with such abandon. You had fallen completely and irrevocably in love with her. Just like that, your heart jumped ship. Leapt right into Holly's hands and never looked back.

First door on the left. Your hand hovers over the handle that leads to the bathroom. Another life changing place held within the confines of this house. That night marked the start to your new life with Holly at your side. Shaking your head, your drop your hand. Its done. Alright, "all about growing these days" girl. You came, you felt, you need to go. This isn't your safe place anymore.

'WOW! So, your old townhouse was expensive! Guess I won't be moving in!'

'I was kind of toying with the idea that Sophie and I could start our life there together.'

'I mean if Sophie and I get to be together.'

'Alot of really good things happened to me in that house. I learned to love in that house.'

'And I thought I had learned to be loved in that house.'

'Did you love me there?'

'I am turning into a gigantic sap. McNally's gonna have a field day.'

'She is going to hug me.'

'Officer "big pile of emotional goo" reporting for duty.'

'Do I need to add "gay" to that description?'

'I don't think it rolls off the tongue as well though.'

Later

'The house doesn't smell like you anymore.'

Later still

'Cookie dough ice creme and bourbon suck together.'

'if you were here, you would have told me that cause you're a nerd and know very weird, useful facts like that.'

'could have saved the bad taste I am sporting in my mouth.'

'do you think about me? do you miss me?'

'I am pathetic'

'I'm trying.'

'Night baby. Drinking sucks without you.'