Sophie ran into the Rover's with a sick feeling building in her stomach. As she opened the door herself, she saw Sian quickly scurrying away to the loo, and Rosie calling after her.
"I'm sorry Sian! I didn't mean to say that!" cried Rosie after Sian. She had jumped up when the blonde jumped up.
"Hey, what is this shit Rosie? What are you talking to her for?" demanded Sophie grabbing Rosie's arm. She dropped her bag on the ground.
"Ow you're hurting me! Let me go Sophie," said Rosie, startled at first but then actually in a bit of pain.
"No Rosie, answer me first. Don't make me make a scene in here. You know I'm good at that," said Sophie between clenched teeth.
"Sophie, she is upset. She wants to be with you and you're off with that red headed slut. I wanted to talk to her to answer some like.. questions. You know, explain some stuff. That's all. Don't get all big headed about it," said Rosie quickly pulling her arm out of Sophie's grasp.
Sophie had actually let up on her sister, which made it easy for the elder Webster to get her arm back. Hearing that Sian wanted her, yet again, did something to her. What though she couldn't explain. Just then a still slightly wet faced Sian appeared from the bathroom.
"Sophie what…"
"I was just leaving Sian, but first I want to talk to my loving sister in private if you don't mind," said Sophie, the last part sarcastically with a fake smile plastered on. The sarcasm wasn't meant for Sian but more for her sister and instead of realizing that, Sian took it personally.
"Fine then, do whatever. We were done talking anyway. Have a good night," said Sian going behind the bar to get her purse and coat.
Sophie hated seeing Sian upset by something she had said, especially when she hadn't meant it for her and felt worse than before. It was just too many emotions and issues all at once and so Sophie stood there watching her leave. Sian didn't want to leave out of the front because of all the looky loos already gawping, so she walked to leave out through the back smoking area.
"See what you've done now Sophie? You're going to chase off your one chance at happiness," Rosie was yelling as Sophie acted fast and ran after Sian. Sophie was so hopped up on uneasiness and frustration she about bowled over Sian who had stopped to turn around to see who was chasing her.
"Sophie what are you doing? You about killed me there!"
"I know Sian I'm sorry. Look in there, I was annoyed with my sister not you. She's got a lot of nerve sometimes…"
"Save it Sophie, I know what's going on. She was just filling in some blanks is all. I get it. Well, not entirely, but I understand somewhat. You're free to go. I saw you were all packed, so have fun," Sian couldn't help but get that shaky voice you get when you're upset but trying to be tough. She tried to hide it but couldn't now that she was face to face with Sophie.
"Sian…" Sophie lost all brain function and was hearing Sian's words about a second after she actually said them. She could tell Sian was upset. Was she the game player she seemed to be? This didn't seem like a game. This felt… REAL. Almost too real. Sophie wasn't prepared for all of this. She didn't know what to do. She had always been in Sian's position with Erinn. Now she had Erinn begging for her come play and Sian acting hurt by it all. "Was she acting though? Or…"
Sian wasn't just going to stand there while Sophie processed this all so she moved to walk away again. She put herself out there again because of Sophie Webster and this would be the third time Sophie had rejected her. Sian vowed then and there to never do that again. She turned around to get the heck out of there.
"Sian wait, I…. "
"You what Sophie? Look.." The blonde stopped walking and turned towards the brunette. Sian took a deep breath. "It's okay, I should just go. I wouldn't want either one of us to say something we'd regret."
Sophie nodded slowly at Sian. Here was a moment in time where so many things hinged on the next couple of seconds. Sophie was neither very brave nor very confident. Nor spontaneous, but she felt like she should act out of character, since that's how her life was right now anyway. She reached out to Sian like she had done to Sophie at the bench a day earlier. Instead of waiting for her to figure out what Sophie wanted, Soph went in for a hug. Why just a hug she didn't know but she wanted to defuse the situation, and also she didn't know what to say. She didn't want to confess to Sian what this strange relationship with Erinn was, and why she felt like she had to be in it in the first place. Sophie was also at a loss for words. Yet again. The effect Sian has over her left her speechless among other things, and she didn't want the blonde to go just yet.
Sian didn't know what to do with this gesture. She didn't want to put herself out there anymore for Sophie who sure, was going through things... but there she was trying to hug her and Sian wasn't cruel, she embraced Sophie back. Sophie gripped tight as Sian rested her head on Sophie's shoulder. Sophie was the first to pull back slightly, it seemed she got her words back as she had the perfect thing to say.. but that was all out the window, because when the girls pulled away and faced each other, Sian instinctively leaned in for yet another kiss.
This was beginning to become Sophie's favorite sight. The blonde staring into her eyes until they got close enough, then she moved her eyes to Sophie's lips and then shut them completely. Sophie thought she could never meet someone who could kiss as perfectly as Erinn, but Sian was definitely the winner. Their lips were perfectly matched, the rhythm, the amount of tongue, just there, but not overpowering. Everything was perfect. It started to get a bit more rushed and heated though, as Sian dropped her purse to put two hands on Sophie's back, hair and neck. Sophie focused on trying to get Sian as close to her as possible. Just resting on each other wasn't enough. She wanted it to be like on the SIMS when they occupy the same space. Knowing physics wouldn't allow it, she settled for the hot blonde's body resting on hers. Sian was making primal noises as they would switch sides and dive back in. This was driving Sophie crazy like she had never felt before.
Sophie was beginning to lose all sense of where she was, why this was "wrong" and who was waiting for her. That is, until her phone buzzed violently in her pocket. She wasn't going to answer it, but Sian stopped the kiss and tried to catch her breath. Sophie didn't want it to end but wasn't going to force the issue and breathlessly reached for her phone.
From Erinn S:
"Look Sophie if you aren't going to take this seriously, then we can just forget it. The food's getting cold. If you didn't want to come over you should have just said"
Sophie was ready to just huck her phone as hard as she could against the brick wall that made up part of the ginnel. Why was this all happening now?
Sian was the first to speak. "It's fine Soph, you can go." She said nonchalantly as she picked up her purse. She put her fingers to her lips to get as much as she could of the taste of Sophie's lip gloss. Sian gave a small smile to Sophie and walked away. Sophie had no brain power to stop her, so she watched as Sian turned the corner and let out a breath she didn't know she was holding.
Through a light gathering of tears she texted an impatient "girlfriend" back.
To Erinn S:
"Be right there."
Sian walked home with a different feeling than earlier when she was talking with Rosie. It wasn't sadness or dread. It had been replaced with a feeling of hope. Sophie had responded to the kiss like she wanted it to happen and like she wanted Sian. She smiled to herself. The more she thought about it, she wanted this with Sophie because before with Darren, it had been chaotic and messy. Always trying to please him and not have him go off breaking stuff because she didn't smile at him right away. Sophie was safe, and most of all it would be Sian's choice. She never had control over anything with Darren and she could tell that Sophie wasn't controlling or harmful. And she didn't seem angry or bitter after the horror stories that Rosie told her about her past relationship with Erinn. Maybe this was Soph's way of getting over Erinn for good. She couldn't see Sophie as a Dominatrix, so that must be what it was. Either way, Sian was going to nudge Sophie in the right direction and right back to her. How to go about it, she didn't know but a few more encounters like they just had, might do the trick. Sian looked up to an opening in the clouds at the stars. She closed her eyes and made a wish that this would all work out soonish and to give it time but not too much time. She smiled. "Sophie Webster, don't fight it, this is going to happen." She said aloud to no one and everyone. Sian felt confident, something she hadn't felt in a long long while.
Sophie went back into the Rover's and slowly grabbed her bag. Everything was happening around her but she couldn't move at the same pace. It was all like a dream. That kiss. "What was that kiss?" She wanted to chase down Sian and ask her what the hell, but she knew she had an upset red head waiting for her. She looked at Rosie who had joined Jason and Tyrone over by the dartboard.
Rosie locked eyes with her younger sister and smiled a sympathetic smile. She knew as well as Sian that no amount of talking would change her stubborn sister's mind, and that she had to learn this for herself, but she still felt bad for her. And for Sian. Rosie made a wish as she watched Sophie slowly leave that the two girls would eventually find their way to each other. It just needed some time.
Sophie headed for Erinn's house not sure what she was feeling. Maybe Ryan was right, she wasn't dropping everything to be with Erinn because of how she felt for Sian deep down. She had pushed those feelings down when that creepy guy Darren was lurking about, making Sophie feel uncomfortable and kissing Sian...What was all that anyway? She wasn't sure she had the right to ask but she was curious that's for sure. Sophie wasn't sure if she could trust Sian. Her trust had been toyed with so much in the past, she didn't just hand it out all willy nilly.
She walked up to Erinn's front door and knocked.
"Come in," said a less than enthused Erinn. "Are you going to tell me what took you so long?" she said to Sophie as she walked in and put her bag down. Erinn was sitting at the dining room table.
"I got held up. I'm sorry. It won't happen again," said Sophie quietly.
"Doing what? If you didn't want to come you didn't have to but you could've said."
"I did want to come. I DO. I had to talk to Rosie about something and she was in the Rover's so I…"
"Did you see Sian?" interrupted Erinn getting up from the dinner table almost as if she should be standing for this conversation.
"Well briefly, but Rosie…"
"Oh. Okay well.. you're here now," said Erinn starting to clean up the table and take the plates to the sink.
Sophie just watched her and grew more confused as the seconds ticked by.
"Erinn..?"
"It's fine Soph. What do you want to do tonight then?" asked Erinn avoiding the subject.
"Why are you.."
"Sophie! I'm not mad okay? Let's just forget about it."
Sophie didn't know what to do. Erinn had switched gears in a few seconds and all at the mention of Sian. "Did she know? Did I give it away? Was it written all over my face?" The next thing she knew, Erinn was walking toward her with a devilish grin. Sophie didn't have the reflexes to move. She knew what was coming next. Erinn threw her arms around Sophie and leaned in for a kiss.
"Did you change your perfume? You smell different," Erinn asked as she spotted a blonde hair on Sophie's shoulder. Erinn looked into Sophie's eyes and could see the confusion and guilt in her eyes. The red head grabbed Sophie's hand before she could come up with an answer or protest and led her to the bedroom. "Let's get you out of those clothes, shall we?"
Sophie walked behind Erinn as she led the reluctant brunette to the bedroom. This was going to be a long night.