Double D
I didn't remember much. Just bright lights and a beautiful voice singing to me, pleading with me. I was locked inside my head and I couldn't find my way back out. I wandered around in the dark looking for something, anything. Then I was falling. I kept falling and falling till I hit the ground.
The grass was green and alive, the sky was bright and blue, and I was once again under attack by Marie Kanker.
"P-p-p-p-please Marie I im-m-mplore you to s-s-s-stop!" I was laying on the ground looking up into the face of Marie Kanker. Her blue hair was just as it always was. Cut short just below the ear with her bangs covering her right eye.
"Oh come one dreamboat," she pouted, "don't you want a kiss? I haven't kissed you since…..at least lunch time." I tried to wriggle free but Marie was a strong girl and I was a weak boy.
"Marie please!" I squirmed but she held firm. Then I had an idea, mustering all the courage I had in my body and trying to ignore the cries of my friends nearby I sat up and kissed Marie. She was so shocked it gave me the time I needed to escape. I pushed her off of me and was quickly on my feet above her.
She looked shocked and her sisters had stopped their assault to watch. She looked up at me with her one visible hazel eye, confusion written on every inch of her face. I stood tall and puffed out my chest, enough was enough.
"What's wrong cupcake?" I asked innocent yet mockingly, "don't you like it when I kiss you?" Marie didn't say anything, she just sat there on the ground.
"Well?" I questioned anger resonating in my words, "I asked you a question sweetheart. Don't you like it when I kiss you?"
"I-I-I," she faltered. So I let her have it, "No, you don't like it when I kiss you. Do you want to know why? Of course you do. It's because when I kiss you, you don't have control over me or the situation anymore and that scares you. Do you know why it scares you? Because you've never not been in control of the situation. People fear you, which gives you control over them. People do whatever you say, people let you get away with anything because you control them. Well guess what Marie Kanker, you don't control me anymore. I'm so sick of you and your-your-your demon sisters controlling me and my friends. You know what you are? You're demons, hellspawn, children of satan. You were placed on this earth to torture poor unfortunate souls like me and my friends. Well I've had it! I won't let you-you sluts control us anymore! Quit throwing yourselves at us! You would never have a chance with me anyway because your just trailer trash. So go back to your trailer your house of death and pain and just leave us alone!"
Silence. Nobody spoke. It was so quiet you could hear a butterfly's wings flap. And then it happened. Marie started crying. Like actual real tears. They slipped out of her visible eye and down her cheek. One right after another the tears came crashing out. It was like a dam had broken somewhere inside of her and it all came pouring out.
I could pin point the actual moment when I watched her heart shatter into a million pieces. And then with Marie crying on the ground I knew, I liked her. Of course my feelings would pick that moment to present themselves. I mean I suspected when I felt an electric shock when I kissed her for the first time but, I was so mad my brain didn't process the signals from my heart until it was too late. Marie was broken. And it was my fault.
Seeing the pain in her eyes made me feel a twinge of pain and guilt. Before I could apologize Marie was gone. She was running away from me, her face hidden in her hands and the sound of sobbing slowly fading with each step she took. Her sisters followed her, neither one of them saying anything. They just walked by me without so much as a glance.
Eddy was shocked, he didn't make any cruel remarks or dirty jokes. Ed was too absentminded to even realize anything bad had happened. I looked at my friends trying to ignore the growing emptiness in my heart. I turned and walked to my house. I didn't look back.
I spent the rest of the night writing my feelings down and trying to decipher them. Each time I came up with the same conclusion. I had a crush on Marie Kanker.
It was impossible. I couldn't stand Marie. She was loud and obnoxious, and flashy, and goth, punk, whatever, and she was cruel and cold hearted and selfish and misunderstood and pretty and sweet and whoa whoa whoa! I couldn't believe my mind was thinking those things about Marie.
I lie awake all night trying to sort through my feelings and come to a logical and reasonable conclusion. Maybe I had been poisoned at lunch and it was clouding my brain? Maybe I was dreaming? Maybe I was actually asleep and it was a dream? Maybe it didn't really happen? Maybe I imagined it happening to ease my conscience? No no no no and no. There was only one answer to the mystery of my feelings.
I had a crush on Marie Kanker.
It made sense. The way that my heart sped up when she smiled at me, the way that I felt when our hands touched and it wasn't forced. The way I felt electrified when I had initiated my first kiss.
I had a crush on Marie Kanker.
And I just called her a slut.
And trailer trash.
And demons, hell spawn, and children of satan.
I had a crush on Marie Kanker.
And I had broken her to the point where words could not fix it.
Marie
It was week two in the hospital and Edd was still in a coma. The doctors came by constantly to check on his vitals and stuff but, still he slept. I thought he was going to wake up a few times but, he didn't. Once he was shaking so bad I knew he had to be having some kind of nightmare. But still he slept.
I stayed at the hospital, right by his side. The first week they tried to get me to leave but they quickly learned to just leave me alone.
I slept in the chair by his bed and only left the room to go and get food. I wanted to be there when he woke up. I wanted to be able to thank him for saving me. I wanted to be the first person he saw. Because I wanted him.
Sometimes as I sat in my chair I would watch him in his coma and wonder what was going on in that big brain of his. His nose would twitch, or he would shiver and I would just wonder why.
His parents were called but couldn't come to visit him. Ed and Eddy came to visit daily and didn't even question why I was still there. Lee and May came a couple times too. They were worried about Edd but they were worried more about me. I hardly ate, I only slept for 30 mins at a time, and I hadn't left the hospital in two weeks.
But still Edd slept.
At the beginning of week four I was starting to lose it. I would shake Edd trying to wake him up. I would scream in his ear. I would pour cold water on him, but still he slept. I was starting to mix fear in with my worry. I was afraid he would never wake up again. One morning when I was practically made out of nothing but worry I slapped Edd on the face to get him to wake up. It didn't work and I started to sob.
I used all my vacation time at work in order to stay at the hospital till Edd woke up. It didn't look like it would be soon though. Time was running out.
Desperation poured into every pore of my body. I didn't know what to do. I felt so guilty so horrible, so weak. Half way through the second month I lost my job. I practically lived at the hospital now so it made no difference to me.
Months dragged on and Edd was still in a coma. His parents came to visit him once but, it didn't go very well. It went something like this:
Edd's mom: Oh my poor baby.
Edd's dad: He just needs to be more of a man. Suck it up boy!
Me: What the hell is wrong with you? Your son, your only son, has been in a coma for a month and that's all you have to say?
Edd's dad: Who the fuck are you?
Me: I'm Edd's girlfriend!
Edd's dad: He doesn't have a girlfriend. Escpecially not a slut like you!
Edd's mom: Dear please use your manners.
Edd's dad: Shut the fuck up woman.
Me: You are a fucking asshole. Get the fuck out of here before I call the police.
Edd's dad: You can't do that I'm his father.
Me: The hell I can't.
Security came and escorted his father from the building. He could not come back and visit but his mother could. She hasn't though. My mom and sisters came to visit a few times but mostly to make sure I was still taking care of myself. Ed and Eddy came almost every day. Eddy had to tell Edd that he had finally got a girlfriend. Her name was Helen and she was a knockout. Ed cried every time and begged the aliens from the planet Hogerrshen I think it was to leave Edd alone. But he still slept in his coma.
Sometimes he would twitch or move and I would jump to my feet and hope today was the day, but it never was. I wondered what kind of things Edd was dreaming about.
Most days I just sat and sang to him. The same songs over and over. It helped me to feel a little better but not a whole lot. Today I was singing I miss you by Bl!nk 182.
Hello there
The angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim
Of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends
Where are you?
And I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight?
Stop this pain tonight
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head
I miss you
By the end of the song tears were pouring down my face and all hope was gone. I couldn't take it anymore. All the pain, all the worry, I just wanted Edd to wake up and be ok.
A/N Hey so this is the first time that I am communicating with my lovely readers. First off I want to apologize for the drunken Edd scene. I have never been drunk so I just went off what I have seen from people who are drunk. Also it only took three drinks because Edd is not a drinker and his system can't handle a lot of alcohol at one time. Secondly I want to thank fanficreviewer69 for your kind and encouraging review. It made my day and I will definitely take you up on that offer if the need arises. Also I am not one bit sorry for my cliff hangers. I love leaving you all in suspense. I have no regrets. Please continue to read and reviews would be lovely and they really do help with my writing. Any questions, comments, etc. pm me and I will respond when I get time. Thank you all for your support and for taking time out of your day to read Second Chances. *freakingfangirl