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"I don't want to be anything other then what I've been

Trying to be lately

All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind.

I'm tired of looking 'round rooms

Wondering what I've got to do

Or who I'm supposed to be

I don't want to be anything other than me."

Gavin Degraw, " I Don't Want to Be"

Chapter 6:

Philosophers say that every human has a soul. Religious icons from before the war believed that every human is inherently good and that evil and dishonesty come from a human's own actions but even all people have a chance at redemption.

I would like to believe that there was a point in my father's life where he did have a soul and he was a good man.

But I just don't think that's true.

And now as I walk through the blistering winds towards the Abnegation sector, I just can't wrap my mind around the fact that my father is back in a city that he was banned from because of his previous deeds. If what the philosophers believed that bad people had a shot at a redeeming life was true, shouldn't he be out trying to save some bunnies or something? Instead he is planning on blowing up the city just to reclaim it.

I just can't believe I am going to try and talk things out. As if that has worked before. I tried to warn him about Erudite's attacks on the Abnegation and he didn't believe me. But now I am going to tell him to stop his plans and leave. This should be interesting.

The wind is starting to pick up as I come to my childhood door and bang on the door hard. After a couple of minutes, my father answers the door.

"Tobias. What are you doing here?" he asks angrily.

"I could say the same thing Marcus. You were exiled from the city."

He looks a lot different then the last time I saw him. His hair is longer and he has a full-grown beard that hides his hard jawline. He looks a little more heavier as if he has been drinking and eating too much. It's strange to be standing in front of him.

"Well I have some things to do. Now why are you here Tobias. I doubt it's to have a happy reunion with your father."

I roll my eyes and say, "You are going to try to blow up the city. I know all about it and so do the police. I have come to tell you that if you don't leave now, I will come here with 30 policemen and throw your ass in prison for the rest of your life."

He laughs for a moment before sneering at me, "Oh really and how do you know that. What evidence do you have?"

"I know you ordered the hit on Johanna. The shooter let it slip that he had a boss and it didn't take me too long to connect the dots."

Marcus glares at me and says, "Well I guess I didn't raise a complete idiot. But now how are you going to stop me?"

"I will do everything in my power to search through this whole city and find the bombs. We already have police squads looking everywhere and it's just a matter of time before they find something. They are very good at their jobs. And then when I am done, I am going to come after you and kill you. Something I should have done years ago." I say as I come a little closer to my father and use my instructor persona on him.

But he is so much better at being intimidating because he is a cruel man so he doesn't have to act like I do. He leans in and says, "Not if I kill you first."

"I would like to see you try. You can't beat me up like you did when I was a kid. I am stronger now." I seethe at him as I clench my jaw.

"Well let's find out sometime." He smiles and suddenly a blunt object from behind catches me off guard and hits me hard on the head.

I wake up hours later and the back of my head feels like it is weight down by a thousand bricks because it is so sore and swollen. I groggily open up my eyes and I snap awake when I remember where I am and how I got knocked out.

Hurriedly, I look around and see that I am in my apartment. I bolt myself up but a strong hand that stops me holds me down.

"Calm down buddy." Zeke says as he pushes me back down on the couch and I groan from my head throbbing.

"What am I doing back in my apartment?" I ask Zeke.

"One of my patrol men found you unconscious and bleeding outside the old Abnegation sector. Tobias what were you doing over there?"

"I went to go talk to Marcus and tell him that I am going to stop him. Even if it kills me."

"And what did your dad knock you out?"

"I don't know. I-I can't remember."

Zeke nods and sighs as he says, "Well we finally have some more information on where Marcus has been these last three years. He has been involved in a small GD terrorist organization that is based outside of Milwaukee. I guess that is where he is getting his men from but we still can't figure out where or who is supplying him the bombs that you think he has."

"I don't think he has them Zeke I know he does!" I snap at him and wince as the motion rattles my sensitive head.

"I believe you but everyone else is skeptical. You don't have any evidence, which makes it hard to convince people that there is a bomb threat. I mean all you have is a dream where Tris-"

"Zeke I know he has some bombs. He flat out said he did when I confronted him about it." I say.

"Wait hold on. You went alone to confront your insane father who you believe has weapons of massive destruction. What the hell is wrong with you!" Zeke yells at me.

"I don't see the issue here Zeke." I quip at him

"Oh you don't? You should have called me or at least told Christina or I where you were! At least then I wouldn't have to freak out when one of my cops calls to tell me that my best friend is bleeding and knocked out on the street! Do you have any idea how worried Christina and I were! God now I know how you felt when Tris was doing this!" he shouts angrily at me.

"Don't bring her into this Zeke!" I scream back at him.

"No I am! Ever since she has died you have no fucking regard for you life! I might have been able to handle it but Christina can't be stressing too much because of the baby! I mean seriously you have thrown yourself into so many dangerous situations in the last three years! Remember the hostage situation a couple of years ago? It was a couple of months after Tris died and instead of waiting outside like a normal citizen, you just ran in there against my orders and fought off an armed assailant. Without a gun or any weapon might I add. You almost were killed! And there have been countless other times like the GD gang and whatnot. I don't get why you are so hell bent on throwing your life away!"

I purse my lips to avoid saying something that I would regret and after a couple of minutes of Zeke angrily staring down at me, I respond in an even tone.

"At first yes, I was throwing myself in those situations because I was so overcome with grief that I thought it was the only way to deal with it. I was trying to make sense of her death Zeke. But then I remembered that she knew what real sacrifice was and at the time I didn't. And I am still learning. I can't make the same sacrifice that she did because I'm not like her. I'm not as brave and selfless as she was and I am trying to be what she thought I could be. But now I have a second chance to fix a screw up that I made three years ago. And that was with the GDs that I thought at the time were not the enemy and I didn't listen to Tris. Now I can stop them and my father from killing innocents. I can stop them like I should have done three years ago like Tris wanted me too.

"Yah well if you listened to Tris then my brother wouldn't be dead." He says angrily and I look down in shame and guilt because even though we are much better then we were when both of them died, sometimes our old wounds are opened up and it threatens to tear us apart again.

Zeke sighs and runs his hand through his hair before sitting down on the edge of my shaky coffee table.

"I am sorry that wasn't necessary. It wasn't your fault Tobias." He apologizes

"Yes it was. And that is why I need to stop them Zeke. I need to make up for the mistake that I made that cost your brother's life. I need to do this and you just have to believe me. Please."

I never beg but in this situation it could be life or death.

He looks at me for a moment before replying, "Fine. But just don't do that again Tobias. You scared the shit out of me."

"I told my dad I was going to kill him." I blurt out

"Did you mean it?"

"I don't know. At the time I felt like I wanted to. Like I should have done it years ago but now…I don't think it's the right thing to do. Even if he is a hopeless bastard, if I kill him I am no better then him."

"Would he kill you?" Zeke asks.

I pause and think it over. I am his son so doesn't that count for something? But in the past his hasn't shown that it does.

"Probably. But enough of Marcus, I am going to go see if I can find any surveillance video or anything that can help me figure out where he is hiding the bombs."

"Tobias you should rest. You don't look to good."

" I'm fine. Besides I can't just sit here while the city could blow up at any moment."

I stand up shakily and my head feels like it has a ton of rocks in it but I eventually steady myself and grab my coat.

"I have access to the city's security videos so I am going there. Maybe you or someone can check the police's footage?" I ask Zeke and he shakes his head.

"We already checked the feed. Nothing suspicious showed up. But I will keep looking. Just be careful ok? There are a lot of people who care about you and who are worried."

I grimace and nod before I head out the door. I need to find these bombs for many reasons but mostly because my father seems completely off the rails. I don't quite remember how I was knocked out but he is desperate and he is desperate enough to blow up this city at any second, especially now that I know about the bombs and where he is hiding.

Now the only problem is trying to stop him before it's too late. My father is a cruel man who has lost his soul long ago. I don't know how he became like this or why he enjoys making people suffer so much but either way he needs to be stopped before he takes down the whole city with his own damnation.