Only in My Dreams

by Riptide14

The setting is about 6 months after the epilogue. Basic premise is about Tobias's life after where it leaves off. He begins having vivid dreams with Tris who warns him of some danger coming to the city that he and his friends will have to stop before he threatens to destroy the city. Can Tobias save the city once again and stay away from the paralyzing grief of losing Tris?

7. Chapter 7

So I have decided that the next chapter will be the final chapter to this story. It was always supposed to be a short story but I still had so much fun writing it. Thank you so much for all of your support and I hope you guys will like my other Divergent work, "The Divergent Series Drabbles."

Please read the A/N at the end.

I do not own anything.

"Cause I know where I belong
I know where I, I came from
I know the reason why
I must decide
And leave here
The man I am inside

The future is clear for me to see
To be the man I'm meant to be."

Phil Collins, "Everything I Am."

Chapter 7-

Four weeks later

One would think that searching through countless video feeds would show me something about the bombs. But nothing has come up. I have been looking everywhere I can't find anything, which is driving me insane. Everyone in Zeke's squad has given up and Zeke has told me countless times to give up. But I can't, I know the bombs are out there, Marcus and Tris have told me. And I know what could happen to the city based on the warning Tris showed me and if I know what is going to happen and not stop it somehow, I don't think I could live with myself.

I haven't really done any work. All I do is sneak into security room in City Hall and sit there for hours on end trying to find anything. Johanna isn't particularly happy with my lack of work but she can't really say anything because of the nature of what I am doing. She doesn't want to be the person who tells me to stop searching for a potential threat to the city, a city she sworn to protect. Well that's what I told her when she was yelling at me three weeks ago. That made her shut up.

Right now though I am in my apartment looking at all of the documents that are laid out on my coffee table. Sometimes looking at evidence in a hardcopy helps me figure out what I want to know. There is a knock on the door and footsteps walking across my floor as Christina calls out, "Tobias?"

"In here." I answer not looking away from the papers.

She walks in and looks at the hundreds of papers and she says, "God Tobias how many trees did you kill?"

"Don't really know. Call me a serial tree murderer." I look up at her with a tiny smirk before looking back down and asking, "So what's up?"

I flip through some more papers as she says, "Well you haven't called me in two weeks. I had to come see if you were alive."

"Sorry I just have been looking for the bombs. I know they are in the city somewhere. I know it Christina."

She looks at me with a worried expression and asks, "I'm just worried you are looking for something that isn't there. Maybe your dad was messing with you? And who knows what that dream could have been anything-"

"If you are here just to say that I am crazy then I would like you to leave."

"I'm not saying you are!"

"Then what are you saying?" I ask her finally looking up at her.

She hesitates before saying, "I'm saying that I think you are searching for this bomb for all of the wrong reasons."

I am about to snap back at her but then my phone rings and I quickly pick it up.

"Hello?"

"Tobias we got a tip from someone about the bombs." Zeke says quickly.

"Where did they say the bombs were?" I ask dumbfounded that some random person could have found these stupid things when I couldn't in four weeks.

"Under City Hall. I am bringing some men there with our bomb squad and then this will all be over. You were right man, I'm sorry I didn't believe you."

"It's fine at least we found them. I'll be right over." I say as I hang up the phone and starting packing up my useless papers.

"What did Zeke want?" Christina asks as she fixes the shirt over her slightly swollen belly.

"They got a tip that the bombs were under City Hall." I groan as I rub my tired eyes, "I just wasted a month looking for them when they were underneath me the whole time!"

Christina frowns and I find her expression odd especially since we should be happy that we could stop all of this madness from happening.

"What's wrong?" I ask her.

"Well it just seems too easy. I mean it took you a month to find nothing and suddenly a tip from some anonymous source leads you straight to the bombs. Don't you find that odd?"

She does have a point. It makes no sense to me for many reasons but the main one is how would someone know where the bombs were without being…part of the operation.

"Shit!" I exclaim as I start riffling through my papers and finally it all makes sense. I couldn't find anything because the bombs aren't going to look like regular bombs. They are in an open, public place where it's going to be easy for people who are involved to sneak around when there are millions of people all around. And the only place lately that has attracted that many people is Millennium Park.

"Tobias what's wrong?" Christina asks with a confused expression.

"It's a trap. Damn it how did I not see this. Call Zeke and tell him to meet me at Millennium Park with his men. And stay here. Don't leave my apartment because if something were to happen, you are far enough here to not be impacted. Promise me Christina." I tell her as I get out and grab my sharpest kitchen knife, which is the only weapon I know that will somewhat protect me.

"I-I promise but Tobias-"

"I got to go Christina ok. Just stay here. I'll be back."

"Promise?" she says with tears in her eyes and my heart breaks a little. I hate seeing people cry but I hate seeing Christina cry because she is worried about me.

"Hey." I tell her as I kneel in front of her and she hides her face. "Christina it's going to be ok."

"I'm just worried for you. I don't want to lose you. You are my best friend and I need you around to be the godfather for my baby girl."

I smile as I realize that she just let that slip out and I take her hands in mine and say with a huge grin on my face, "I am so honored Chris. I would love to be your little girl's godfather. And don't worry you are not getting rid of me that easily. I am going to be here a long time just so I can annoy the shit out of you."

She hits me lightly with a smile and says, "Fine get out of here you ass."

I stand up and go to the door and just as I am about to walk out I turn to tell Christina, "Hey. You are my best friend too."

She smiles and says, "Just come back in one piece ok?"

I nod and leave my apartment building. I rush down to hail a cab and I pray that Christina calls Zeke sooner rather then later. I have no idea what the trap is and I hope it doesn't involve blowing up City Hall.

When I pull up to the park, I throw the money to the driver and run towards the old concert center where I took Tris. This has to be where they would hide a bomb, it's public yet private enough where you could hide a weapon of mass destruction.

Pulling out my small kitchen knife, I run down the passage and kick down the door that has a faded "employees only" sign on it. I know full well that there is going to be someone in here but I don't know when they will pop their annoying heads out so I have to be ready for anything as my Dauntless training taught me.

I round the corner and walk into a large open area. There are old couches and a broken TV so I can assume that this once was a holding area or something for bands to stay before their act. In school when I was a boy, we learned a lot about Chicago's history before the war and apparently this whole center use to play a ton of concerts. I look all around and then I finally see the bombs. There is a keypad on a table, which I assume controls the bomb's detonations.

"Freeze. Put your hands up where I can see them." A voice says behind me. I do as I am told and turn to see a group of GDs slowly surrounding me. Great going Tobias.

One of the GD rebels go to the keypad and start to type some code.

"Wait stop!" I call out but I can't do anything and it's too late anyway.

And suddenly the whole room is flickering with red lights and a warning voice calls out, "20 minutes until detonation."

My heart is thumping hard against my chest as I look around the room. Warning sirens are going off as well as the lights, making the room bright with hot flashes. Now the group of GDs has their guns aimed at me. Besides the small knife that I have in my back pocket I don't have much of a weapon. When Zeke insisted I take a gun for protection incase there was any danger coming to the city like a group of GDs led by my dad for example, I refused because maybe this doesn't need to end in violence. Maybe if I just show these underprivileged rebels the many opportunities that the city has now for them. Or I can tell them I am a GD too, but I'm not going around killing people and blow up a city. Or I can just piss them off and see where that takes me.

"You guys are idiots you know that right? The whole police department is on their way with basically all the city's military forces and they won't have a problem mowing through you guys to turn the bomb off. But none of you will have to die if you just stop the bomb and stop the violence. I mean you can't seriously believe that Marcus will be fair to you guys right? I mean in your terms he is a GP. He could give a shit about any of you. All he wants is control of the city again to reform his precious faction system. And if you press that button and lay this city to waste, he will get what he wants and completely forget about you guys. Is that what you really want?"

"Shut up! Nothing is going to stop us from destroying Chicago and resurrecting the faction system where there was equality for everyone!" one rebel yells at me.

Well I guess talking it out really does work. Because while I was explaining to them why they shouldn't trust Marcus, I was looking at the keypad and figured out that there was a similar one in Dauntless that we learned to disable. But how will I get over to the keypad. Well unfortunately I know how but it's going to be very risky.

I snort as I answer back, " Equality? There was a whole faction that was basically homeless and shunned from society because they couldn't conform to the faction's ideals. What makes you think any of you could conform to the ideals of bravery, intelligence, kindness, selfless and truth?"

Slowly I reach into my back pocket and in a swift motion I throw my knife at the rebel in front of me. The knife hits his hand and sticks him to the wall where the rebel writhes in pain.

I duck and roll to the floor while I sweep another rebel's feet out from under him and his head hits the floor hard. In his moment of confusion, I steal his gun quickly and fire at the other four rebels. I miss two and shoot one dead. The other is on the ground sobbing because I shot his kneecap. Quickly, I roll behind a desk and engage in a firefight with the other two rebels that I missed. In a couple of minutes both are either dead or injured but I don't care. All I care about is disabling the bomb. I stand up and I almost at the keypad when suddenly a hard fist collides with my jaw and I collapse in pain. I look up to see my father standing over me and this scene seems somewhat familiar.

"Well it took you long enough to figure this out. Guess you aren't as smart as you think you are." He sneers down at me.

I glare up at him and realize that I have better things to do then to engage in this again. I have a city to save and thousands of innocent lives are counting on me. This is the choice that Tris was telling me about. This is my destiny.

I don't even think about it as I kick Marcus's knee in and watch him fall to the ground. After he is on the ground and defenseless, I punch him square in the face, which cause him to howl in pain and roll around. I rush over and quickly begin typing on the keypad. Suddenly the lights go back to normal and I click a couple of more buttons to stop the annoying sound of the sirens. When I finally finish the job, I smile a little bit to myself and think, "You were right Tris. Thanks for the heads up."

When I turn around, in front of me is the bleeding rebel that I thought I already killed. I freeze and then realize he is pointing his gun at me, and in a second there is a loud bang and a sharp shooting pain that starts growing quickly across my chest. The rebel flops down to the cold floor and finally dies.

"Tobias!" my father yells from the ground.

I look down and blood is already spreading across my t-shirt. I can't breathe and I can't think as my body drops to the floor and my body is crying out in pain. But every breath that I breathe out is met with a loud groan and a painful wheeze.

My body is starting to feel light and I don't even notice my father kneeling at my side.

It feels strange to see him hurriedly looking around for something to save my life. He keeps muttering to himself that I'm his son and I am going to survive but I can already feel my body become lighter. And for the first time in three years I feel great.

"Tobias push through the pain. Be better then this. You are better then this. Fight it son!" He screams at me as he shoves my body a little. But I can only tell that he did so because of his arms moving in a shaking motion. I can't feel anything and my vision is starting to fade.

"Tobias you are not allowed to die to you hear me!" my father looks down at me and I laugh which is basically wheezing more because the oxygen is slowly escaping my lungs. It feels like someone is draining them out because I can't breathe.

But I don't want my last moments to be looking at my father's face so I turn my head away. He snaps it back to him and shakes me again.

"You are NOT dying do you hear me!"

I know I am though. I feel light but my whole body is crying out in absolute pain. I don't know how that is possible. Everything seems to be turning white as I stare shakily out in front of me and then I finally see her.

Tris is smiling down at me and she holds out her hand as she says in a far away voice, "I told you I would be seeing you soon. Come on Tobias, it's time to come home."

She isn't in her white dress as she usually is in when she appears in my dreams. Instead she looks like how she was the last time I saw her alive. But nothing matters now because she is here and she is beautiful. And finally I can go home with her.

I take her hand and she pulls me up. I smile as I kiss her lips lightly and below me I hear my father cry out for me as he realizes that I just passed. I look at his mourning figure carefully. I just can't understand why he treated me so badly but wanted me to live. He held my hand as I was dying and was comforting me. A man who I thought was hopeless was trying to find some inch of salvation in my dying eyes. Was this his messed up form of an apology?

Tris laces her hand through mine and I smile down at her. For the first time since she has died, I haven't been happier then I am right now with her. All along I have been struggling to get to closer to her. Whether it was going to the Ferris wheel, trying to be as selfless and brave as she is or in my own dreams. Now my wish has come true I am with Tris once again. And now nothing can get in our way. Nothing.

She pulls me along towards a bright light and I happily step forward towards a better life. A life with the girl that I love and will love until the end of time.

PLEASE DO NOT HATE ME. It was always my intention from the beginning to kill off Tobias. In the Allegiant ending he was just so healed and I always wondered if his true happiness would come from reuniting with Tris when he has died. And he dies a hero just like her. I am sorry if you are upset but this is the best ending for Tobias because he is happy once again and Fourtris is united! The next chapter will deal with the aftermath.