AN: Wow really has it been over a month since I updated? I am soooo sorry. I had this chapter for a couple weeks now, haven't been on the computer at all really. Anyways oh my gosh I can't believe I took a whole month to update. SMH. Well, I'm not exactly sure how confident I am with this chapter. But it's been too long and I need to update. So leave a review and let me know what you think.

Dr. Lee started talking. "If you could open up your things and hand each suitcase to me. I'm sure one of the staff will be coming in soon as well to help."

I did as I was told and he started to look through everything when some woman came in.

"Dr. Lee," she spoke, "sorry I'm running a little late."

"No trouble at all."

She turned to me and smiled. "Hi. I'm Sienna. I work here. If you have any questions about anything I'm the person you want to ask."

She bent over next to Dr. Lee. "Right now I'm just gonna help him look through your belongings to make sure you didn't accidently leave anything that will counteract with your recovery."

I nodded and just watched them search. They didn't find anything drug related. And so I was feeling proud of myself when they finished.

"Now," Sienna held out her hand, "I'm gonna need your phone, charger, any electronic devise that you might have. You're not allowed to have those things here."

"You're kidding me." My phone?

"I'm sorry. Those things are really distracting for people. You are here to focus on nothing else but yourself. We don't need anything from the outside world to influence you right now."

I didn't want to give her my phone. "I have to call my wife."

"That's fine. We have phones here that you can use."

Well fuck. "If you have phones I can use then why can't I just use mine?"

"Please just cooperate. This is for your own good. I understand you don't want to give up your phone to us. But it's just too big of a distraction. Eventually though you can earn cell phone privileges but it will still be during certain times and someone needs to be monitoring the conversation.

I sighed and pulled my cell out of my pocket, pressing the shut off button before handing it to her. "Here." I said with a pout.

"Thank you Inuyasha." She took it with a smile. "You are now one step closer to your victory."

I gave her a small fake smile.

"Now I really hate to do this to you." Oh great. "But we are going to also need to search you as well."

I sighed again. What is this jail?

"Now," she said, "if you feel more comfortable with Dr. Lee searching you just let me know."

"Its fine," I scoffed. I ain't gay, "You can do it."

"Alright." She walked over to me and patted my down gently; at least it wasn't like some vicious police search. She dug her hands through my pockets and pulled out my pack of cigarettes and lighter. "I'm gonna need to confiscate these."

My eyes went wide as saucers. "You're joking."

"I assure you I'm not," she answered, "addiction is addiction. Whether it may be from alcohol, to cocaine, to nicotine."

"I've heard about rehabs where they let you smoke."

She tilted her head. "Yes some places do, but I don't think it really makes much sense."

I sighed. I came to the wrong fucking place.

She continued her search and checked between my arms, had me do a couple of squats, made me shake my hair, open my mouth and say 'Ahh,' and lastly had me take my socks and shoes off for her to check.

When we were done she handed me my shoes. "All done." She nodded to the doctor.

"Well then," he said looking at me, "I'll be off for now. Sienna will fill you in on everything else now."

"Okay. Thank you."

When it was just the two of us Sienna looked at me.

"Inuyasha if you just leave your things in here we'll go put your phone in the safe and I will give you a tour."

"Do we really have to? I'm starting to feel sick."

"No." She looked at my sympathetically. "I'll go ahead and do it for you. If you want to just go ahead and lie down. The bathrooms are at the other end of the hall by the stairs. I can also bring you up a bucket just in case you throw up."

I nodded and sat on my bed.

"Just relax." She said. "I will have someone call your family and let them know that you made it and that you aren't well enough to talk yet."

"Okay," I lied back on the bed, "thank you."

With that said she left my room and I turned to rest on my side, facing the door to the balcony. I closed my eyes and tried my best to fall asleep. I knew that whenever I wake up I'd be feeling horrible.

I woke up to someone knocking on my door. I told whoever it was to come in. It was Sienna.

"Hi Inuyasha." She walked over to me and handed me a cup of water and some pills. "Here, take these they will help with some of the withdrawal symptoms."

I didn't bother asking what they were simply because I did not care. My body was starting to ache already.

"I called your wife and let her know that you are here. Whenever you would like to call her just go down and talk to the receptionist."

I nodded my head and told her thank you. Then she left my room. I laid back down and felt my eyes water. I felt like I just got beat up. My muscles hurt badly. So did my head. I didn't move to much and eventually fell back asleep.

That night even the medicine couldn't help me get to sleep. I had the worst insomnia. I stayed up the whole night just miserable. Everything was hurting. My anxiety was through the roof. My eyes were watery, my nose runny, and my whole body hurt. My hands were held in fists across my chests, as I laid in the fetal position. I never wanted to use so bad in my life.

Detox was terrible. It was terrible just fucking terrible. For however many days I'd been in my fucking room. Only leaving to use the bathroom, but I was constipated so I could only piss. My head felt like it was literally going to fucking burst.

I wanted to use so bad that it pissed me off. I just wanted to end this torture.

I rolled to lie on my other side. My bed was soaked from me sweating, but I was having chills at the same time.

I groaned as another wave of cramps hit my abdomen. It hurt so much. I felt so miserable.

I just want to use! Just a little, just enough to make this hell go away.

The medicines they were giving me weren't doing shit. They had to come in twice a day and wake me up to give them to me and change my bed sheets. I barely had the strength to turn over and let them do that.

"Inuyasha." Sienna held out my meds.

"Sienna," I slowly sat up and wiped my runny nose with my arm. Once upright a few tears fell from my eyes. I took the pills and water, swallowing as fast as I could for some relief. "These aren't doing anything."

"Yes they are." She placed the cup of water down on my nightstand. "You just don't realize it because they can't make you one hundred percent better. But it would be a lot worse without them."

"Trust me." I said sarcastically. "They don't."

"Would you like me to stop giving it to you and find out?"

I shook my head. "Nope."

She smiled. "Exactly."

I sighed.

"Do you feel any better at all Inuyasha?"

"I feel worse."

"I'm sorry." She frowned. "Well that means you are getting closer to the peak, and once you make it there things will start to get better. You have to just stay positive."

I nodded and lied back down. I felt my leg spasm as I kicked at the blankets. This is fucking stupid, this whole damn situation is fucking stupid!

"Is there anything I can get you?"

"Yeah, some fucking drugs."

She glared at me.

Fuck I'm irritable, don't ask me such a dumb question. What do you think I want other than that? I did feel a little guilty for snapping at her.

"Just kidding." I grunted out.

"Sure, very funny." She rolled her eyes. "You must be feeling a little better. You've got a sense of humor now."

I let out a breath. "Hmph."

"Well I've got to get back to my rounds. You try to feel better."

I didn't say anything and she left the room, closing the door behind her.

I groaned and wiped some new tears off of my face. "Fuck!"

I hate this.

I finally opened my eyes to look out the window. I felt like I had a snapped my leg in half but all over my body, and with no pain medication at all. If that makes any sense.

I hadn't slept, I couldn't fall asleep. I would just lay there, with my eyes closed tight and a grimace on my face. How long had I been here? I didn't even know. It felt like forever. I've just been here, miserable; wanting to die. I'd rather be dead than go through this. Why am I even sticking it out? This is hell.

"Inuyasha." Sienna was standing in front of me. "How are you feeling this morning?"

"I want to die."

I woke from a horrible nightmare, sitting straight up in my bed. "Fuck." I said aloud.

I took a deep breath and looked around. The door was shut and out the windows it was dark. What time was it? When did I even fall asleep? I had no clock.

I reached over to my nightstand where a cup of water was sitting. It wasn't that cold but it felt good on my throat and mouth.

I couldn't believe it but I was feeling a little better. My eyes weren't watery, my nose wasn't runny. I still felt my body tingling but it was bothersome, not excruciatingly painful.

Finally, it would get better from here. I lay back on my bed. The sheets were damp from the sweat. I thought of Kaiya.

My beautiful daughter. I wanted to hold her. I wanted to snuggle her so much. Kiss her chubby cheeks and tickle her so I could hear her laugh.

When I make it back home will she be able to talk? Will she be able to walk? Will she even recognize me? I was barely around before I left. Fuck, I was a scummy dad.

My own father was always gone when I was growing up. Shit, at least he was working, doing something good for the family. I would leave just to make everything worse.

I miss Kagome. I wonder if she misses me. How does she even have feelings for me after all I put her through? She is an amazing woman. An angel. Accidently knocking her up was probably the luckiest thing that ever happened to me. I hope I can make this up to her.

I slowly sat back up and moved my feet off the bed. Then I stood and walked out of my room. The hallway was brightly lit, waking me up a little more, bringing a swollen feeling to my head, and burning my eyes.

I tried to hurry to the bathroom, but I was probably walking slowly anyways. I felt weak.

Once in the large room I walked past the stalls and towards one of the doors that lead to a small room with a shower. This would be my first shower in... Well I don't know. In a long time. I probably stank like hell.

I took my clothes off and stepped in the stall. Then I turned the water on.

Holy wow. It felt amazing. The stream felt so good on my body. I could feel the sweat and grim across my skin and to wash it off felt so good. I didn't have any soap or shampoo. I'm sure I'd get it if I ask, I just didn't think too. It didn't matter. I could just rinse off for now and enjoy the feeling.

I don't know how long I stood there, but I got out when my fingertips started to look like prunes.

I grabbed a towel and dried off, and then I realized I didn't bring any clean clothes with me. Oh well, I thought as I put my dirty ones back on.

I went back to my room and noticed that someone had come in and changed the sheets. Good. There was also a cup of ice water and a cup with my medicine sitting on my nightstand. I took the pills and drank the whole cup of water.

Then I went to my suitcase and found some clean clothes to put on. A pair of sweatpants and a t shirt. I laid down and waited for the meds to kick in and help me fall asleep.

It's supposed to get better now, right?