My mouth seems to just run without my consent. I keep accidently telling bits and pieces of my past.
Anyways, this chapter gets dark and will almost be like my back story chapter.
But this is not just my backstory.
This is…
Adventures of the Slash Fan Avenger!
-Spades-
I listened quietly to their talk, and made sure to really listen.
Especially since this is my favorite Stanner moment.
"Meg, what does this look like to you?" Bruce asked, pointing to the screen in front of him, after the 2 had finished speaking.
I stood and walked over to look at the screen.
"No!" I cried once I realized what that was.
I… built the machine that leaves this trace.
"What, does this look familiar to you?" Tony asked, coming up behind me.
I breathed deeply, scowl on my face, before turning and walking briskly to my room, beckoning them to follow.
They did, and I started to explain.
"You see, I dabble in building things, chemistry, almost everything. That signature is from my portal machine."
"Portal machine?" Tony asked.
"Yeah, I created a real life portal gun from the game. I was bored one day." I shrugged, then grew serious.
"With the Tesseract and the Iridium, they could make portals to other worlds, go anywhere they want." I grimaced.
"If it's not in my room that means someone stole it. It's not ready, however, and extremely dangerous to test. I threw a pillow in one and it did not come out of the other portal." I said in a dark voice.
"What would happen if they used the Tesseract with that?" Bruce asked.
I looked down.
"Really bad things."
I kicked my door open in a BAMF way and looked around my room.
"Where did you put it?" Tony asked.
I shrugged. "I did drunk science yesterday- it could be anywhere."
"Wouldn't that have broken it if you were drunk?" Bruce asked.
I quirked him a smile. "It takes the edge off of things and helps me focus. I just don't remember the formulas the next day."
Tony chuckled at me.
"It's not here!" I huffed, frustrated.
The other 2 had started helping me a few minutes ago.
"Hey, what's this?" Tony asked, holding up my Oryx, the equivalent of the Tesseract I had started making after watching the movie the first time while I was in my world.
It was a purple cube with a black center that glowed in his hand.
"That's the Oryx." Suddenly I remembered Fury.
"Do not tell Fury!" I said, snapping to look at him with wide eyes.
"Why shouldn't I?" He asked, smirk on heavy.
I growled in frustration.
"If he finds out I made that, he'll take it away and I've worked hard on it! It's my most prized possession, I've been working on it for 2 years!"
Bruce looked up at us and grabbed the Oryx.
"This looks almost like the Tesseract." He said, in a mumble that meant he had been talking to himself.
"Well, duh, it's fashioned after it." I said, pulling a trunk from under the bed.
"The Oryx should have been in there. Did you take it, or was this drunk science?"
"Drunk science." He immediately said, and my eyes narrowed at him, before I grabbed it and locked it in the trunk.
"We have to tell Fury about the Portals." Bruce suddenly said, standing.
"No, he's just going to try and use them as weapons." Tony argued.
"Exactly. Which is also why he will never find out about the Oryx. Right?" I asked, watching them.
They relented and agreed.
We made our way back to the lab and I sat on my still very broken couch.
"I need a new couch."
-Spades-
"As soon as Loki took the doctor we moved Jane Foster. They've got an excellent observatory in Tromso. She was asked to consult there very suddenly yesterday. Handsome fee, private plane, very remote. She'll be safe."
Coulson told Thor, and I sat still at the table behind them.
"Thank you." Thor said quietly, and I gave a sad smile.
I ignored them after in favor of the woman beside me.
"Agent Hill?" I asked, and recoiled slightly at her look.
"What?"
"I think I have something to talk to Fury about."
"You think?"
"I know."
Fury stood in his office, giving me a look when I got in the room.
"What is it, Meg?"
"I have 2 things to say. 1 for me, and the other about the bad guys."
Fury stared at me. "Tell me, then."
"First, my superhero name is Oryx."
He rolled his eyes.
"And second… someone stole machinery I built from my room, and its purpose could be refurbished to use with the Tesseract."
Fury looked furious. Well, there's his name.
"Meg, go. I'll check to see who stole it, if it's a double agent, and where they went."
I quickly left.
"Hey, Meg Spades, right?" I looked over to see Wade, I think grinning at me. I can't tell with the mask.
"Yeah."
"I'm bored. What's your superhero name?"
I chuckled lightly. "The Oryx."
"For reallsies? That sounds cool!"
I suddenly realized that another of my ships was on this Hellicarrier.
"Let's go see Loki if you're bored."
-Spades-
Oh. My. God. I. Can't. Stand. This. Any. Longer!
I should have left an hour ago, they've been talking for so long it's not even funny.
"Oh, just kiss already!" I yelled.
"We can't. He's in the cage." Was Wade's answer, and I was about to yell at him again, but stopped.
"You would actually kiss each other?"
They looked to each other, then to me.
"Yes." Was their answer, in unison.
"You film that, I need to watch that."
They chuckled at me as if I was a child. Well, damn them.
"Alright, Wade, Loki, I'm leaving. You call me if you need anything, ok?"
They nodded to me and I ran off.
"What were you doing down there?"
I jumped when Natasha spoke to me.
"I was showing Loki to Wade. I think they really hit it off. I mean, REALLY hit it off. LokiPool just became truth."
Natasha's face showed me that I confused her.
Wade ran off between us, yelling something about grabbing chimichangas for him and Loki.
I decided to follow Nat and hid behind her like I did with Tony.
"There's not many people who can sneak up on me." Loki said, causing me to hold on to Natasha tighter.
"But you figured I'd come." Natasha answered, and inwardly I started fangirling. I loved this part so much!
"After. After whatever tortures Fury can concoct, you would appear as a friend, as a balm, and I would cooperate."
"I would never let anyone torture you." I had to cut in, looking at Loki with a caring face.
"Or you. You seem more of the friend type."
"I want to know what you've done to Agent Barton." Natasha cut our chat short with her dark voice, and I hunched more to hide behind her.
"I would say I've expanded his mind."
These are the moments where my love for Loki would be faced by the truth, that he's still another super villain.
An insane super villain.
Natasha stepped forward with me still hooked onto her.
"And once you've won, once you're king of the mountain, what happens to his mind?"
I shivered slightly.
"Oh. Is this love, Agent Romanoff?" Loki asked.
"Love is for children. I owe him a debt."
Loki walked back.
"Tell me."
Natasha watched for a second, then sighed through her nose, turning to walk to the railing beside her.
"Before I worked for S.H.I.E.L.D. I, uh…"
She sat on the chair Wade had occupied before and I climbed up fast to the ledge I had sat on.
"Well, I made a name for myself. I have a very specific skill set."
I shivered again, this time more noticeably. This was an intense part of the movie, and now I'm watching it in real life!
"I didn't care who I used it for, or on. I got on S.H.I.E.L.D.'s radar in a bad way."
I gave a shaky breath. No way. This conversation is really making the shivers move down my shoulder blades in double time. Get the reference?
"Agent Barton was sent to kill me. He made a different call."
"That is a big debt."
Natasha's glare shut me up.
"And what will you do if I vow to spare him?" Loki asked.
"Not let you out." Natasha said.
"No, but I like this. Your world in the balance, and you bargain for one man."
"Regimes fall every day. I tend not to weep over that. I'm Russian. Or, I was." Natasha answered.
"What?" I asked, my best Cinema Sins what laugh put on.
She ignored me.
"And what are you now?" Loki asked.
Natasha stood.
"It's really not that complicated. I get red in my ledger, I'd like to wipe it out."
I couldn't stop shivering. This conversation was dark, deadly, ad so tense I could cut it with a knife.
"Can you? Can you wipe out that much red?"
I had to get away. I jumped off and ran.
I ran as fast as I could, remembering the rest of the conversation from the movie.
"Barton told me everything."
"No." I growled. I had to get away from that conversation. It reminds me too much of…
"You're ledger is dripping, it's gushing red, and you think saving a man no more virtuous than yourself will change anything?"
My hands gripped the Oryx before I could even think.
"This is the basest sentimentality. This is a child at prayer."
Suddenly it was gone, pumping through my veins.
"Pathetic!"
-Spades-
"Meg, are you ok?" Bruce asked, looking up at me.
I'm shaking.
'You lie and kill in the service of liars and killers.'
"I'm fine."
So this is fear?
'You pretend to be separate, to have your own code, something that makes up for the horrors.'
"No, you're not." Tony said worriedly, guiding me to sit down as both stepped to look over me.
That's good then.
'But they are part of you.'
"Let's get a blood test, alright?" Bruce asked, taking a blood sample through a needle before I could object.
I had forgotten what it truly felt like.
'And they will never go away.'
I gave a few shaky breaths, pushing the rest of the conversation away.
"Loki means to unleash the Hulk. Keep Banner in the lab. I'm on my way. Send Thor as well."
I cursed silently.
"What the hell…?" I heard Banner, and I looked up.
"What?"
"You're blood."
"Alright, she isn't human. Take the organic out and see if anything was added." Tony said, and I watched them work.
Every now and then Tony would press something on his decryption thing.
"What are you doing, Mr. Stark?" Fury asked, scaring me.
Pain flared for a split second in my blood before it subsided just as fast.
Bruce's face told me that flare up was connected with the blood he had as well and it showed something.
"Kind of been wondering the same thing about you. And we're trying to see if anything's wrong with our dear Meg."
"Dear Meg?" I asked flatly, an eyebrow cocked.
"You're supposed to be locating the Tesseract."
"And instead I located the Oryx." Bruce said, looking over at me with a dark and worried face.
"What?"
"You absorbed it. Or ate it. Or in some way got it in your system."
I stopped a moment. "If I can do that with the Oryx, I can do that with the Tesseract, no?"
"No, it could kill you with that much power in one body. This is killing you, try to stay as calm as possible. Any spark of strong emotion could trigger something. And Fury, the model's locked and we're sweeping for the signature now. When we get a hit, we'll have the location within half a mile."
"Yeah, then you get your cube back. No muss, no fuss." Tony's attention was brought to the screen.
"What is Phase 2?"
A slam from behind me caused me to jump, the pain spiking up again.
"Phase 2 is S.H.I.E.L.D. uses the cube to make weapons." Steve answered.
"Sorry, computer was moving a little slow for me."
"Rogers, we gathered everything-!"
"Don't even bother lying, Fury, I can tell when people lie."
"It also helps that I have this." Tony showed him the file he had just decrypted.
"I was wrong, Director." Steve said.
Thor and Natasha came in, and I looked over at them slightly.
"The world hasn't changed a bit."
"Steve, it never changes. There is still violence, war, blood, pain, rape, torture, and I don't think that will ever change." I said darkly, watching him sadly.
"Did you know about this?" Bruce asked Natasha.
"You wanna think about removing yourself from this environment, Doctor?"
I stood abruptly.
"I'm sorry, but you're the one who pulled him into this situation, I doubt you should be the one to give him 'friendly advice'." I put air quotes on the last words.
"He was in Calcutta. He was pretty well removed." I added snarkily.
"Loki is manipulating him."
I stepped back when Natasha stepped forward until I was next to Bruce.
"And you have been doing… what? Keeping him calm the whole time?"
"And what have you been doing?"
"I've been trying to help all of you! Don't you think it's a little hard for me to look for the Tesseract, try and get info from Loki, trying to get people together, trying to accumulate nonviolent weapons, trying to get Bruce to have something, love, so his anger is not unleashed. And you. You've been sneaking about, doing all Fury's been telling you like the little lap dog you are!"
I felt anger and all other emotions start to push against my mind.
"The world's filling up with people who can't be contained, that can't be controlled."
I started shaking as the words started swimming, and I only got a few words.
"You people are so petty, and tiny."
I gave a small mewl of pain.
Everyone went quiet.
"Meg…" Someone breathed.
Pain spiked again, and it stayed for a few moments before going down to a dull ache.
"Miss Spades, please put the scepter down."
My eyes widened slightly, and I looked to my hands.
"How did you change?" Thor asked.
Tony held up a mirror.
My hair was straight, long, and black. My eyes glowed purple, and I now had my pupils back.
"The Oryx…" I breathed.
I saw Natasha and Fury go to their guns.
I remembered the regenerative powers I had suddenly.
"It was you. The monster that Loki talked about." Natasha breathed.
Monster? I froze, watching her silently.
"Monster? Don't grab your guns. That's why you had a gun when you were at my house, then? What, did Fury secretly tell you to kill me?"
"The guns were just in case-!"
"In case you needed to kill me. But you can't, I know, I tried, everyone tried."
I breathed deeply, looking away from them slightly. Their faces told me this was wrong.
"When I was a little girl, I thought I saw a monster on my dad's land. It growled at me, and before I could look at it, my instincts kicked in and I ran. I ran all the way home and slammed the sliding glass door shut behind me. My father yelled at me for slamming it, and I told him about the monster. He laughed at me and shoved me outside, even though I was scared. I… I found a piece of glass and started slitting my wrists. When I awoke I had scars, even though that had been only hours before."
My grip on the scepter got tighter.
"And I'm not a monster. I don't care what anyone tells you, I'm not." My voice cracked on the last word, and I cleared my throat, furiously wiping at my eyes.
Natasha moved her hand away from the gun, but Fury just started to take his out slightly.
The computer beeped, signaling that it found the Tesseract.
"Look, it's over." I said, putting the scepter back slowly and feeling myself turn back to my regular appearance. I already missed the surge of power, but I was happy the dull ache was gone.
"You located the Tesseract?" Thor asked, and I followed Bruce to the screen.
"I could get there fastest."
"The Tesseract belongs in Asgard. No human is a match for it."
"It's in Stark Tower." I stopped. This is the part of the movie where…
"Everyone go!" I yelled, and pushed most of them out.
Sensing my urgency, most of them listened, but Natasha and I were too late.
"Duck!" I yelled to her, pulling her under a table before the whole side of the ship exploded.
Nat and I were sent flying, and I rolled to take the brunt of the impact.
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