Fear keeps us focused on the past or worried about the future. If we can acknowledge our fear, we can realize that right now we are okay. Right now, today, we are still alive, and our bodies are working marvelously. Our eyes can still see the beautiful sky. Our ears can still hear the voices of our loved ones.

But this is not a story of quotes.

This is…

Adventures of the Slash Fan Avenger!

-Spades-

"Miss Spades, are you alright?" I heard Nat ask.

I pulled myself off the floor and looked to Nat.

"We're okay."

I felt the pain of the Oryx start, and heard her say, "We're okay, right?"

I groaned in pain as I tried to get up.

"Spades?"

She tried to get up and I cried out as my eyesight flooded with purple.

"Meg? You got to fight it, you know as well as I do that this is what Loki wants."

I gave a cry of pain as my hand reached out to clench a pipe, which crushed under my hand like a tin can.

I saw fear spark in her eyes before she said, "We're going to be okay. Listen to me, Meg, we're going to be just fine. Everyone is going to be just fine."

"Are you hurt?" I heard someone yell, but Natasha waved them off and I heard them run off.

"It hurts, Natasha. I don't think I can stop it."

"Meg, you're going to be fine. The Oryx isn't going to take over. We're going to be okay. Alright?"

I groaned in pain as my hair straightened, went long, and turned black.

The skin on my back felt like something was ripping through.

"I swear on my life, I will get you out of this, you will walk away, and never, ever have to hurt anyone."

She did care, I realized, and I think this thought, those words brought the calm. The Oryx's hold started to slowly go as my hair shortened and turned dark blue, the things that tried to cut through my skin starting to stop and go away.

"P-pr-promise, N-Nat-Natasha?" I stuttered, feeling drained already.

"Yes, I promise." Was her answer, and my arms and legs seemed to die under me, as my whole body fell to the ground with no support.

"Come on, Meg." Natasha said in a soft, soothing voice.

She helped me up and put my arm over her shoulders, holding me and helping me away from the rubble.

"How did you get up?" I asked.

"It's just a little pain, you know." Was her answer, and I leaned into her.

"Pain is a funny thing, you know. But few of us can laugh. For most of us, ourselves is the deepest secret of all." I answered, looking up at her with tired eyes.

"How long has it been since you've slept?"

I shrugged.

She gave me a worried look, then helped me to the next room. We both limped our way up the stairs.

We finally made our way to my room, and I pulled her in, dropping to snatch the trunk underneath my bed.

"What's in there?"

"Everything important I own. Except the Oryx, which I have absorbed accidently."

Silence filled the room after that as I started taking the stuff out and putting it in my bigger-on-the-inside backpack that I had been given by Alice when I first came here.

"I'm sorry about calling you a monster."

"It wasn't you, it was Loki."

I went to my closet and started putting all my clothes in there.

Natasha followed me slowly.

"Meg…"

"Natasha, I thank you."

She went silent.

I looked to her through the corner of my eye.

"It's the very least I could do."

I slung my backpack onto my shoulders.

"Let's get a move on then, shall we?" Natasha gave a small nod, and we left my room.

Now that we had a rest, we ran to the next room, before finding Thor and… the Hulk.

"Shit, we gotta move. I thought if I got them out he wouldn't become the Hulk…." I grabbed Nat's hand and pulled her with me to run.

"Hostiles are in S.H.I.E.L.D. gear!"

I heard crashing, and cursed, before turning back and going to the Hulk.

I turned just in time for the pilot to start shooting, and I put up a shield with the Oryx power.

Hulk turned and watched me silently, before slowly turning into Bruce again.

And then his pants dropped.

"Whoa! Please find clothes, Bruce, I did NOT need to see that!" I cried, turning away immediately.

When he got clothes on, I turned back.

"I'm sorry…" Bruce apologized, giving me a sad look.

"You just needed someone who cared." I answered, looking over at Natasha.

"That's all I needed."

Thor, Nat, and Bruce smiled softly and I followed suit.

Then I went serious.

"I have to go, get to the bridge. And Nat, please watch my backpack." I gave it to her.

"I trust you won't show Fury."

I discreetly stole Natasha's ear piece and hooked it to Alice.

"It's Barton. He took out our systems. He's headed for the detention level. Does anybody copy?"

"This is Oryx, I copy." I said roughly.

"Meg? No, Miss Spades-!"

"Call me Oryx." I crushed the Bluetooth and threw it.

"Time to get to work, Miss Spades?" Alice asked, and I nodded.

"Time to save Clint."

But can I save Coulson as well?

-Spades-

I dropped behind Clint and grabbed onto his bow just as he shot.

I wrenched the bow out of his hand, threw it over the banister thing, and knocked his head against the rail.

That got him out of it, and I slammed his head again to knock him out.

"Was that cause of the Oryx or because I'm just that good?" I asked Alice.

"Because of the Oryx, Mistress."

I rolled my eyes and ran to Loki's room. Deadpool met with me and we ran together before he disappeared at the door.

I turned to where real Loki was just as he was going to stab Coulson and kicked him.

Loki's magic stopped and he snapped back, before looking up and glaring.

"Ow! I thought you were on my side!' Loki yelled.

"What do you mean?"

"Oh, you're Meg. Not the Oryx. But you are the Oryx at the same time. This is where you start?" Loki asked.

I glared and rushed to the console, before Loki pushed Coulson over and he fell to the wall.

Loki and I fought for control over the console before his hand slammed onto the button that let go of the cage.

"NO!" I screamed as the cage dropped.

I growled and kicked him in the head before he grabbed my arm and pinned it behind me, pressing hard.

"You're going to lose." I growled at him.

"Am I?" He pushed his hand into my spine.

I fought him off in a panic and pushed him away.

"It's in your nature. Evil cannot flourish. That is the rule of this world."

We glared at each other.

"The heroes are scattered. Your flying fortress falls from the sky. Where is my disadvantage?" He asked, and I smirked.

"You talk too much."

Coulson shot the gun and Loki cried out, ramming into the wall.

"So that's what it does."

I turned to look at him and grimaced when I realized his spine was fractured.

Using some of my regenerative energy I fixed it and sat on my legs.

"You ok?" I asked him, and he nodded.

"Good. I have more work to do." I quirked him a smiled and ran off to help Steve and Tony.

"Cap, hit the lever."

I heard, and I immediately went to the lever.

"Tell him I'll hit it!" I yelled to a dangling Steve and hit the lever.

Tony flew out of it and I dodged bullets while helping Steve up.

Tony hit the guy that was shooting at us as I fell into Steve.

"I have done so much today… it's not even funny…" I slurred out of sleep.

"And I haven't slept since you took me from my mansion."

"That was 3 days ago!" Steve cried in surprise.

I felt unconsciousness edge at my mind, but I shook my head and stood.

"I need to stay awake."

It didn't work, and I fainted, falling into Steve again.

-Spades-

I awoke in a cold sweat, shivering and in pain.

"The Oryx is killing her, we need to find a way to get it out of her."

"How are we supposed to do that?"

"I don't know, that's what we have to figure out."

I sat up in the bed and winced.

"Oh, Meg, you're awake. Good." I looked up silently to see Tony, Bruce, and Steve in the room.

"Did you find Thor?" I whispered hoarsely.

"No, we're still looking." Bruce answered.

"I tried to stop Loki from dropping him and the cage, I really did."

"I know." Tony answered solemnly.

"Hey, if I die, may I see you and Bruce kiss before the fact?" Bruce blushed, but Tony gave me an almost caring glare. If there us such thing.

"You aren't going to die. We're going to save you."

I gave a sad smile.

"Me absorbing the Oryx is what Loki wanted. We gave him what he wanted, now we must accept it. Now I must accept it."

"You're an Avenger." Tony suddenly blurted, and I looked at him in shock.

"… What?"

"You can't die, you're an Avenger. You need to save everyone from the alien race that is here."

I looked at him shocked, then a small smile started on my face.

"Now. May I meet Clint Barton properly?" I asked.

-Spades-

I sat watching Clint groan as he awoke, sitting beside Natasha.

"Clint, you're gonna be alright." I heard Natasha say, and I waited for Clint to really wake up.

"You know that?" He chuckled. "Is that what you know?"

He threw his head back as Natasha stood.

"I've got no window. I've got to take him out."

"You got to level out. It's gonna take time." Natasha answered, and I watched curiously.

"You don't understand." I looked to Clint.

"Have you ever had someone take your brain and play? Pull you out and stuff something else in?"

He turned to look at me, and we stared for a moment.

"I was afraid."

What? He didn't say that in the movie!

I said the first thing that came to mind.

"Fear keeps us focused on the past or worried about the future. If we can acknowledge our fear, we can realize that right now we are okay. Right now, today, we are still alive, and our bodies are working marvelously. Our eyes can still see the beautiful sky. Our ears can still hear the voices of our loved ones."

He quirked a smile. "Thich Nhat Hanh?" He asked, and I nodded sheepishly.

"Yeah, it was the first thing that came to my head."

"Why am I back? How'd you get him out?" He asked me.

"I hit you on the head. I also took your bow and threw it hundreds of feet down, so you're lucky we got it back in 1 piece." I answered, giving him another smile.

"Thanks." He said, and I watched as Nat left the room. He noticed but didn't make any move to stop her.

"You're Clint Barton, yes?" He nodded. "I don't have the same pleasure of knowing your name."

"Oh! Yes, Meg Spades." Clint gave a sound that meant alright.

I went over and started to take the wrist cuff things off of him.

"Meg… How many agents did I-?"

"Don't do that to yourself, Clint." I chided like a mother.

"That was Loki, monsters and magic, it wasn't your fault or anything S.H.I.E.L.D. trains their agents for."

"Did Loki get away?" I hesitated, then nodded.

"I don't suppose you know where?" I asked, and shook his head. "I didn't need to know. I didn't ask."

Clint moved so his legs dangled off the side and I readjusted my legs.

"He's gonna make his play soon, though."

I looked to him.

"Today."

My eyes widened slightly. "We have to stop him."

"Yeah. Who's 'we'?"

"Me, you, Nat, Tony, Steve, Bruce, and maybe Thor and Wade, if we find them. Though I think Wade went with Loki, and Thor fell from the Hellicarrier in a glass cage." I shrugged. "Whoever's left."

"Well… if I put an arrow through Loki's eyes socket, I'd sleep better, I suppose."

I pursed my lips slightly and then let them relax.

"Now that sounds like a S.H.I.E.L.D. agent."

"You don't sound like a S.H.I.E.L.D. agent."

I looked at him a moment.

"I expected something different, I suppose."

"Well, I am a S.H.I.E.L.D. agent. What had you been expecting?"

I shrugged.

"I don't know."

"You don't sound like you want to fight though." Clint said, looking at me with kind eyes.

I've learned not to trust kind eyes. But this is Hawkeye we're talking about.

"I don't. But I will, if I must."

-Spades-

I sat outside on the deck of the Hellicarrier and watched the clouds wisp towards me.

They know where to go. Stark tower.

Well, it's time we leave. Finally, I did tell them.

"Meg!" I heard someone yell and I turned.

Tony stood there, hand out to me.

"You were right, it's time to go to my tower!"

I smiled.

And this is why I love this movie.

Almost done with the movie, yeah! Anyways, I have a surprise that will happen to Meg!

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