Feels by Latiwings
I am the sand in the bottom half of the hourglass
Hiro feels very strongly for Tadashi.
There is simply not one word that can encompass all his feelings.
It starts with love and it's not even one kind of love, it blends in with every love he knows and he thinks it's ridiculous that he can say 'I love you' and mean a hundred different things in one statement.
It blends into friendship and they are friends for life and he knows that there will never be another best friend that can replace his brother, ever. A friend that is there, walks every difficulity with you and stay by your side. A friend that laughs with you at the peak of life and a friend that cries alongside at the worst, willing to bounce back together.
It dips into brotherly, because that's their essence and it's beautiful, it's gorgeous and it's blinding. They have each other's backs and they could be blind for all they care but Hiro knows who has hiss back and it's stupid to assume anyone else.
It melts into a feeling harder to describe other than saying it's a warmth in the heart, in which Hiro knows he needs Tadashi regardless and he can't picture a world without him, because there will be no Hiro without Tadashi and he finds that he doesn't mind, doesn't mind that his existence depends on one person and he would not wish for a another one.
And it always ends back with love, love that cannot explain all that he feels and it's still stupid that he could mean a hundred different things with one statement, but the love he feels run deeper than siblings, wider than family, piercing sharper than romance. It's the kind of love that you cannot describe, because love like that exist and leaves you hollow when you are left with nothing but one
and Hiro doesn't mind, because he feels strongly for Tadashi.
Tadashi feels strongly for Hiro.
It starts with love, because it always does and for every 'I love you' he meant nothing but the best for Hiro, because his little brother deserves all the gifts the world can give him.
It blends into protective, because they lost their parents too early and while Aunt Cass is their guardian, he had swore, both consciously and unconsciously, that he will protect his little brother for the rest of his life, until his final dying breath. His protection comes in so many different forms that it lasts even after his life has ebbed away, and he thinks he has done a decent job.
It dips into brotherly because he is that, first and foremost, to Hiro though he thinks he had gone further than that. He will be Hiro's everything if his little brother allows, he is his brother's sword, his brother's hands and feet and everything he could not do with that brain of his.
It melts into a feeling that lit a fire in his chest, sharp and ready to lash at every single person that dared to hurt Hiro. It's a kind of fire that is both tame and wild and it's almost unbelievable that he has it and wields it to a scary degree. It's a feeling where his entire world is Hiro and if there is no Hiro the world is nothing, and he thinks that this kind of existence is alright, because he would rather have Hiro than anything else.
And it always comes back to love, love that cannot cover the range of his feelings and the kind of love that allows him to breathe, to live, to have his heart beat, all for the sake of one person and it runs deeper than any bond in this world and while he regrets severing it too early, he does not regret having it
because Tadashi feels strongly for Hiro
If we meet forever now
Pull the blackout curtains down
We could be Immortals
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A/N : Experimental-ish sort of writing. Also a little confusing because my focus was all over the place, but that's how feelings usually are, aren't they?
Also, I somehow picture them in an hourglass like relationship (barring the song influence). In which for every sand that ticks down they would willingly turn it and be the bottom one, willing to be the one that drowns in the sand, but they are immortals because the sand never truly finishes touching one side because none of them wants to bury the other fully, nor allow that to happen.
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And then one died and the hourglass stops turning and eventually the other will stop too. Okay, to clarify, this is not Hidashi. Nothing against the pairing, since I'm fond of that pairing as well, but I want to illustrate something deeper, far deeper that any bonds that usual words can't describe. There is a beauty in a kind of relationship that you can't really find a word for, that in a way runs harder, more loyal, more trust than romance could ever take you, a lot of a lifelong bond thing. Technically, it's a feeling of sorts. I hope you guys got that. :P