A/N: Hello again folks. So I decided to give our lovely ladies another chance because let's face it they are so f*** adorable together. So yeah let's get to this. Hope you guys like it. Let me know. Kisses. :*

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"…This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction…Hush baby, speak softly, tell me I'll be sorry that you pushed me into the coffee table last night so I can push you off me. Try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me; Run out the room and I'll follow you like a lost puppy. Baby, without you, I'm nothing, I'm so lost, hug me then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me…"

"Trina can you get my phone for me please?" - I ask and surprisingly Trina does get it

"You having doubts aren't you?" - she knows me so damn well

"I just need to make a call...that's all." - I say trying to convince her but we both know is in vain she knows me to well.

"That's bullshit and you know it." - she sighs - " We both know what will happen if you make that call and I just have one thing to say to you..." - she give a dramatic pause - " Is about damn time." - she smiles at me and walks to the door - " I will bay you some time okay." - she says and leave

Sometimes it really surprises me how well she knows me. We never were the best sisters, but I always knew I could count on her to anything. But back to my phone call. I have no idea if she will pick up so all I can is pray that she will.

Beep. Beep. Beep.

"What do you want Vega? Weren't you supposed to be getting married right now?" - she says and I can the hurt in her voice and it breaks me to know that it was me that caused it.

"I was supposed to be happy right now, right?" - I ask laying my head in the wall in front of me

"Is what is expected of the bride on her wedding day." - she says coldly

"So why am I feeling like I'm about to get my head cut off? Why do I feel like I'm making the biggest mistake of my life? Why all I can think about right now is that it was supposed to be you waiting for me out there?" – I whisper closing my eyes

"I don't know. You were the one that got away. And I truly believe that you the only one that can answer those questions." - she sighs

"Jade..."

" Your bride awaits Tori. Make a decision now. Because neither of us can wait for you forever." - she says and hanging up

You know she's right, is not fair to either of them what I'm making them go through. I'm hurting Jade, I'm hurting myself and if things continue like this Cat will get hurt too.

I just don't get why I having doubts now. Five years later. Maybe is because I always imagined that Jade would be the one waiting for me out there. Or maybe I'm feeling guilty for the way a ended things with her...or this is just the way my heart found to tell me that I still love that scary scissors lover...I don't freak know.

My relationship with Cat is as perfect as one can be. She's sweet, and innocent, she's beautiful, she's always by my side, we never fight...NEVER. She's just perfect. Yes, she makes me happy and she loves me.

When I was with Jade it was like live in that "Love the way you lie" song. We fought all the time, she would yell at me; I would throw a vase at her. I would scream "I hate you!" and she would back me up against the wall and whisper "I love you too!" before kiss and carry me to our room and make love to me the whole night saying sweet nothings between kisses and touches.

I guess that's why I fell so hard for her. She pushes me and I push her back. We made each other better. She had her flaws, but she loved me very much. Yeah, she really knew how to push my buttons, but she also knew me inside out. She knew when to hold me and when to let go of me. She knew how to make me laugh and how to wipe my tears. She knew where to touch me and how to make beg for that special touch that would take me to cloud nine. She knew how to love and how to hate me. How to fix and how to break me. Funny, our relationship was just as crazy as it seems.

With Cat isn't and will never be like that. She will always be my perfect everything.

And I really don't know if that's what I want, because I'm a fucking masochist. I need someone with a dark side to make me better. I need that little pain that keeps us all going...I need Her.

TBC…