I knew why Dean Kissed me, he was sad. I knew dean better then any one else I knew he wouldn't cry but he would do some crazy thing to make others scared or worried. I honestly didn't mind that he kissed me, I was more upset that he didn't just tell me he was upset. It was okay, he wzas still worried about me, and my dreams. Zoe knew about them, but not about who they were for. It's obvious that i'm Bi, or that's what people think at least. When I was younger I was in a public school, I was openly Gay, I have no affection for Women, I still don't, but I tell people I'm Bi. First of all, so I don't get as much criticism about it, and second of all so if I were to meet a girl that I had feelings for people wouldn't mad at me. I'm more concerned that it slipped out that I liked a boy. Not really liked, but more loved. I would never tell him.

But what gets me is Dan doesn't think I know he sneaks into my room, I remember the night I told him to stay, but ever since then he's been sneaking in some nights he comes in to kiss me on the forehead others it's to comfort me, but either way I love it. I always slip out that I love him. But I know he only loves me as a friend, and he's just there to help me after that night. But I didn't want to move into the big house. Our rooms are so far away from each other. I was hoping I would still get the late night editing sessions but he had to buy me a Mac so I wouldn't have to. And worse then that we each have our own offices so I won't even get that much time with him.

In the car I stair out the window "So Phil?" Dan asks I wanted to just tell him about the dream about him and me my wishes but my mind wanders to Dean. "Dan I don't want you to get Dean to back off or anything" Dan's eyes widen like I was reading his mind "What do you mean?" It was obvious that I was right that he was going to talk to Dean "I know you were going to talk to him, he knew I had a bad dream on the way to the new house, I don't want you to blame it on him" Dan pulled over to the side of the rode "I won't on one condition" I didn't care what the condition was as long as he didn't hurt Dean, or even yell at him would break my heart " You have to tell me who you like" I froze I didn't want to tell him, or anyone for that matter. I had to make up some lie. If I said Chris it would be okay right? I mean Chris is Bi, he just won't tell the internet, and he likes Pj so he wouldn't even come after me "Chris" I say trying to sound as realistic as possible. Dan new something was up, I didn't him to know who it was. "We better get back before your live stream that would be two weeks of missing it" I said starring at the rode. I don't ever want to respond to Dan and his silly ways of asking who I like, but right now he's eager, to know "I don't care about my damn live show I just want to know if it's-" He pauses, What? If it's who? He begins to drive again "Dan! If it's who?!" that was the first time I yelled at him in a month I feel so bad, I don't want to hurt Dan I never did but if he's pushy, I'm pushy... I don't know why "If it's..." He pauses again "Some one I know"
"Really you big twat, that's all it is" I say just wanting to get out of this care. "Yes, just don't respond, i'd rather you not it's obvious it's not who I think it is" Who do you think it is Dan? I just want to hug him and tell him the truth, but I van't, he might hate me. I sit back in my seat, I hate when Dan is more concentrated on his thoughts then me. I always just want him to be well. Finally we're home.

I walk into the open space. It doesn't feel like home, I fear it may never will, but one day hopefully, I walk into my room, pull out my phone and get onto the whisper app, my friend in America told me about it, she said "It's like a psychiatrist but no one knows your name." I begin to type 'I'm in love with my best friend and I won't tell him because he lives in the same house and it mig-' I look up to see the time '19:37' I have to take a shower I can finish this latter.