I open my eyes to see Tanya was sitting on my stomach, and me her hands were next to me shoulder as she was slightly leaning down on me. I looked at her to see she was smirking at me. What is this woman going to do with me now. She begin to take her sweater off.
"Tanya, what are you doing?" I asked I was starting to panic. I've only every saw her in her bra before and it was hot but I have to stop thinking in that direction right now.
"Tanya remember we wanted things to go-," she cut me of with a kiss and then goes to my neck. Her body was now fully on top of me. I could feel all of her, and I couldn't think straight anymore.
"Tanya please, my dad is in the room next door," I said my body was betraying me as it was not denying her.
"Shh… little one let me do all the work," Tanya said I felt her voice tingling next to my neck.
She began to unbutton my shirt, running her cold fingers to my stomach then to my chest in a sensual motion. My body got chilled. I couldn't deny I wanted it. She was like a magnet to my body. She begins kissing me on my stomach and my body was feeling the heat. Her hand suddenly began taking my shorts off.
"Tanya please..." I said struggling with my own body for wanting it.
"Little one let me show you how much I love-" Tanya whispered but was cut off.
Somebody was shaking me. I open my eyes and find Tanya fully clothed looking at me with a worried face.
"Are you okay?" Tanya asks.
I was sweating. I was hot. It must have been a dream since I was still fully clothed. I needed cold water to calm me on what just happened.
"Yes, I'm just going to the bathroom," I sad standing up my clothes were wet from all the sweat.
"Your body is warm you are sweating. Are you having a fever? Don't you think it would be better if we call a doctor," Tanya said from the bed.
"No I am really okay," I said hurriedly. I was embarrassed. I got in the bathroom and closed the door. I looked around trying to find a way to cool off my body.
"Little one, what happen did you have a bad dream?" Tanya asks through the other side of the door, I wouldn't exactly call it a bad dream.
"Not exactly," I murmured to myself and I forget that she has a strong hearing.
"What did you dream about?" She asked with curiosity.
"Nothing," I replied fast I hope she stop asking to know what happened.
"Come on little one, we promised to tell each other everything," Tanya said, apparently she isn't going to give up until she knows.
"I'm tired now, I'll tell you tomorrow okay," I splashed some cold water on my face. Maybe it would at least help me cool off n a little from the dream if I take a shower Tanya would become suspicious.
After a few minutes I went back to Tanya, and I knew I wasn't going to sleep after a dream like that.
"Tanya… Are you okay with not having sex?" I asked since I wanted to know what she thinks about it, maybe that's probably why I had that dream.
"Yes I am, I mean we want these relationship to go slow get to know each other and then when your ready we will do it but I hope you are not planning to do it in the next ten years," she said playing with my hair as she was sitting on the bed and leaning on the wall.
"No of course not, I'm not Edward," I said as I just stared at her and she was humming quietly probably to help get me to sleep again.
"When you were dreaming I heard you calling my name then I hear you moaning ,what happened in the dream?" She asked.
"Nothing happened, can we not talk about this right now," I said turning on the other side of the bed. This was the first time that I had a dream like that. I guess its because I want her so much. I don't think this is such a healthy feeling to have for her.
"You had a dream about me and you in a heat of a moment…?" She said with amusement.
I put the pillow over my head and groaned.
"So how was I in your dream?" She said while her fingers were traveling on my body. I pretended that I was sleeping.
She tickled me, "Come on tell me if you had a dream of me like that, I deserve to know what we were doing"
I didn't say anything even as she continued to tickle me, "Okay stop, I give up," I said through my laughter.
She stopped "Tell me you don't have to be embarrassed about it for having that sort of dream of your girlfriend unless its with another woman," Tanya threatened me and here we go again.
"You were seducing me and we nearly had sex," I said looking across my room as I was still on my side with my back turned to her.
"Okay I don't see why you are so worked out about it," Tanya said.
"Its just that its the first time I didn't have any control of my body, I always had control of my body in situations like that this time I couldn't control it. I never felt this much passion for a person before…" I explained.
"That's what mating is about, you don't have control over it," Tanya replied while forcing me to face her.
"It's hard to get used to this," I said sadly, I like being in control and sometimes it's hard for me if I'm not.
"You are not the only one that it's happening to," Tanya said as a sort of comfort.
"Now go to sleep little one," she said after a minute.
I nodded at her before I put a pillow between us and turned on my side.
"Bella I am not going to attack in your sleep, I am not that desperate to have sex with you," Tanya said annoyed and rolled her eyes.
"Just for the safety…" I was still shaken by the dream, as it felt so real.
The next morning my alarm clock woke me up. Tanya had her hand around my hip and the pillow was no longer there.
"You asked me to hold you in your sleep so do not complain," Tanya said.
I turned my alarm clock off, "Okay sorry " I said standing up from the bed.
"You know I have been thinking, maybe I could come here more at night," she said with a smile from the bed.
"Yes but in one condition don't wake me up for something that can wait the next day," I replied.
I jumped over the bed and came to her preparing for my morning kiss but she held me back "Not until you brush your teeth," she playfully said shaking my nose off.
I pouted, "I thought we should accept each other no matter what"
"Don't misinterpreted things that I say little one," she said with the authority she has in her voice.
I decided to take a shower. When I got back to my room Tanya was on my phone looking through my messages with a frown on her face.
"What are you doing?" I said trying to take my phone out of her hands.
"Leah has been texting you," she with looking at me with a raised eyebrow.
"Yes but its not a big deal so can you give me my phone back," she still had my phone in her hand.
"Is it wrong for your girlfriend to check into your phone unless you're hiding something," Tanya said with a frown.
"I am bothered because you went snooping in my phone without my permission if you had asked me instead I would gladly give it to you," I replied.
"Okay sorry, I will do that next time," she said giving me the phone back.
"Tanya remember what we talked about trust in our relationship," I said putting the phone in my pocket.
She nodded, "So your planning on going to La Push," Tanya was near the window looking outside, I don't know what she was looking for.
"Why are you worried about me going to La Push?" I asked.
"Those people are dangerous they can hurt you," She said turning around to look at me.
"Why are they so dangerous Tanya?" I asked.
She didn't answer meaning she didn't want to tell me, "If you are not going to tell me what is wrong how am I going to understand you"
"I better go your dad is going to wake up," Tanya said trying to escape from our conversation.
"My dad got today off he is not going to wake up early, so you can stay," I said to her as I crossed my arms in my chest, I am not going to let her escape from this conversation.
My dad got today off he is not going to wake up early, so you can stay," I said to her as I crossed my arms in my chest, I am not going to let her escape from this conversation.
"Look, I am saying this for your own good. Stay away from them, just please do me this favor," she was literally begging me to stay away from La Push.
"Tanya I am not going to stay away from my childhood friend without an explanation," I replied not giving up to just do what she wants.
She sighed, "Bella they are not human like you their different I can't tell you what they are because it is their secret but what I can tell you is that when they are angry they are very aggressive," she said with exasperation.
It was the La Push secret and clearly Tanya is not going to say much. What I am going to do with this, I've never thought Jacob or Leah and the other guys as dangerous people before.
"How about I hangout with them where you'll be able to see me and if you are worried about something you can call me anytime," trying to find a solution.
"Why can't you just stay away from them…" she murmured.
I looked at the clock, "I have to go now but I promise after school we will talk," I replied.
"Okay do you want Kate or Irina to drive you," she asked taking her phone out read to make a arrangements for my chauffeur.
"Not today, I'm going to drive myself and it has been days that I wished to drive my truck again," I said my mood was better. My truck brings a sort of happiness in my life.
She rolled her eyes at the way I was acting because of the truck.
"Okay I will call you later," she said opening the window.
"Remember that we have to talk with my dad," I said.
"Yes, of course," she replied and disappeared from the window.
I got out of the house and I found someone took me by force and kissed me realizing it was Tanya.
She stopped, "I forget to give you a good morning kiss and good luck at school," she said quickly running off.
I stayed there stunned, this is what you get when you have a vampire girlfriend.
Later at school, I didn't see Edward that day at all.
I was walking with Angela and Alice came to us.
"Hi Bella, how are you?" she asked.
"Good as always," I replied.
"I was thinking of doing something together you never have time for me anymore, we could go to a café that will have my favorite band playing this Thursday," she said with enthusiasm.
I saw her plan, it was to not let me go hang out with the guys of La push, "Alice I don't know..."
She interrupted me, "You can choose to come with someone as well if you think it'll be boring"
"Alice I am not going to be bored by you off all people," I said to her I know that since me and Tanya became partners I didn't have any time to hangout with other people.
"So well what is the problem?" She asked with a smile.
"I can go with you any other day but not Thursday I am busy," I said to her.
"So you prefer some others guys over your best friend," she said with a frown.
Angela cleared her throat, "I am going, we will talk later Bella" Angela said walking away, letting me deal with Alice alone.
"Look Alice I know Tanya put you up with this so that I won't go to La push," I replied.
Alice had a death glare that moment I finished speaking, "So apart for not having time for me you think I have bad intentions. I thought you consider me a friend but I was wrong," with that she walked away from me.
"What the hell is with this vampires…" I murmured.
"You hurt her you know," I jumped when someone suddenly spoke up beside me. I turned to find Jasper next to me.
"What?" I asked after recovering from my surprise.
"You are Alice's first human friend who accept her the way she is, your important to her. She doesn't remember her human life so having a human friend is like a human experience for the first time in her life right now," Jasper replied.
I never knew that, I thought I was just important to her cousins that is why she always wants to hang out with me and talk to me, "Okay I will talk to her later. Thanks Jasper," I said.
"I am sorry about Edward yesterday," Jasper was walking with me but it felt like he kept his distance.
"It is not your fault and by his age his actions are his own responsibility," I replied.
"I know but we made a promise to keep you safe from Edward for Tanya but we failed,"
"You know Jasper the way you talk sometimes it shows that you didn't grow up in this generation and with your accent its a total give away," I said to Jasper.
"I hear that you and Miss Tanya are going on the second base already," Emmett suddenly appearing behind us, putting his hand around my shoulder.
"None of your business Emmett," I said. Do all of them open up about their sex lives?!
"Bro's tell each other these things," Emmett said not giving up.
"Emmett you are making her uncomfortable," Jasper said he was always such a perfect gentleman.
"Sex is normal Bella it is something special with your partner where you and your partner are taking your love to a whole other..." he stopped when he noticed Rosalie watching us in the corner. She smiled teasingly at Emmett.
"We will talk later but know I have things to take care off," Emmett said with a grin walking a way with Rosalie.
"Aren't they too old to be acting like that?" I asked watching them and knowing their age, it's quite interesting.
Jasper shakes his head, "Love never gets old Bella,"
The bell rings so jasper and me went our separate ways. Finally it was lunch and I got a chance to meet with Alice.
"Are you still mad?" I asked Alice.
"No, I understand why you doubted me. I mean we don't know each other for long and Tanya told me about you going to La Push earlier today but I planned this since yesterday," Alice said to me, she wasn't as happy as she usually did.
"Look Alice, I shouldn't have assumed like that and for Thursday I will make time to accompany you. We should get together more," after I said that Alice hugged me so strongly.
I saw Jasper watching us from their table," Alice I think your husband is getting jealous,"
She let go of me, "He knows that he is the only one I got my eyes on," she said taking my hand to guide to their lunch table.
Finally after school, I found Tanya in my car waiting for me. I got in the car.
"How was your day at school?" she asked.
"Good," I said starting the car.
"I have been thinking, it is clear that I cannot stop you from going to La push and I am okay with that," she said.
"You sure?" I couldn't believe what I was hearing.
"Well you promised me I can call anytime to check on you," she replied to me.
"Okay but don't go into extreme and call me every 5 minutes," I know Tanya.
"Why would you suggest I would do that…" Tanya murmured.
"I know you good enough," I said and wee finally got away from the school parking lot.
"So confident just what I like," she said as she husked in my ear.
"Stop do you want me to have an accident," I exclaimed at her.
"Of course not it is not my fault that you're crazy about me," she said innocently.
"With having a woman like you how could I not fall in love with you?" I smiled at her.
The weeks go by and I was falling more deeply in love with Tanya. I was now working in the bookstore with her sister. Irina is like a big sister to me, she helped me sometimes with my studies and looked out for me. I knew not mess with her or Kate, it's not like when Tanya gets mad and you think she is funny for getting her hyped up or you wanting to make out with her even more but when Kate and Irina gets mad its better to stay away from them. Kate became nicer to me but she is still a bitch when she wants to be.
My relationship with Tanya was getting more intense everyday. I asked her on dates, and she enjoyed every attention I gave her. We talked about the confidently our relationship is going to last and I knew that in the future I had to leave Charlie And Renee.
Charlie liked the Denali sisters I think even more than the Cullen's since Tanya's sisters would take the time to talk to Charlie when they're visiting at my house. They make him feel less lonely.
With Leah, I came to see a friend in her. The trouble with her sometimes is her mood swings. She can be happy sometimes and then be rude the next, she didn't really tell me much about the guys of La push. I knew she liked to hang out with me and sometimes Jacob came with us.
Tanya didn't complain to me about hanging with them but I know she wasn't happy with it.
I have not heard from Edward since Tanya dealt with him. When we were with the Cullen's mentioning Edward was like a taboo.
Esme, Alice, Emmett and Jasper sometimes came to visit Tanya when I was at her house. Carlisle was always at work and Rosalie I know avoided me for some other reason.
I was now in the store with Kate.
"You know, why do I always have to do the tough job by staying here alone with you," she said with a frustrated sigh.
"It's not you only you that is suffering," I replied to her. I can not put up with Kate for more than 1 hour.
She glared at me and stood up as she came up to me, "What do you mean by that because I think you just offended me," she threatened me but I knew she was not going to hurt me.
"I meant that I am suffering by my own present," I said sarcastically.
"Watch your back kid just because you are my sister's mate doesn't mean I cannot hurt you," Kate replied.
"Look what happened to Edward, he tried to hurt me "I said.
"Edward was weak," Kate shot back.
"Why can't you trust me enough to stay alone," I said sitting on the counter table.
"Because you are not old enough kid to take these kind of responsibility," Kate said.
"When I am a thousand years old like you guys, I am old enough?" I asked sarcastically.
Tanya always hates it when me and Kate bicker, she always likes to insult me but now I came up with my own comeback.
She didn't say anything and walked towards the door and looked outside, "Don't tell me you invited the dog here," she gritted out through her teeth.
That was their first rule, do not invite the any of the La Push guys to the store.
I stood up from the table and saw what she was talking about, Jacob was a block away across the store.
"I didn't invite him, let me go check if his okay," I said walking out of the store.
"See that's exactly why we don't trust you with the store," she shouted at me when I was out of the store and a costumer had come in.
I approached Jacob and he seemed to be talking to himself, "It is their fault why I am like this," He threw his fist to the wall, "Those leeches are going to pay for this,"
"Hey calm down Jake you're attracting attention from other people. You don't want them to think something is wrong with you," I quickly told him.
He stopped his trance like state, "What did you say?" He asked finally having his attention on me.
He was acting very strange, "Look Jake calm down," he took me by the arm pulling me closer to him.
"Did they tell you about me, did they say that it's their fault I became like this?" he asked.
I pushed Jacob away from me and pulled out of his grip, which was surprisingly strong. I noticed he was becoming strong everyday.
"Firstly don't do that again if you weren't my friend you wouldn't want anything to happen to you and lastly explain yourself I don't know what you are talking about," I sneered at him.
Leaning against the wall waiting for him to explain himself.
"I am sorry but please stay away from the Cullen's and the Denali they are dangerous," he said looking at me to see my reaction.
I rolled my eyes at him, "You know don't you and you're still with them, tell me you aren't with them because you want to," he said blocking my path.
"Look Jake I don't know anything and you are making a scene here!" I said, maybe he knows about them being Vampire's but I am not going to tell him, Tanya trusts me with her secret.