Micayla had been married to Carter for six months. They'd been trying to have a baby with no luck. Micayla was miserable. Carter thought it was because she hadn't gotten pregnant yet. That was part of the reason. The other part was that she missed John. She thought about him every day. Carter was leaving on a business trip for two weeks. He was getting ready to leave. Micayla walked him to the door.

"Have a good trip." Micayla said.

"I will." "Don't you worry." "We'll have a baby soon enough."

"I know." They kissed.

"Bye."

"Bye."

The next afternoon Connie came over to Micayla's for coffee. They were at the kitchen table.

"Any luck with the baby?" Connie asked.

"Not yet."

"Give it time." "I'm sure it'll happen when you least expect it."

"I hope so."

"You'll make a great mother Micayla." "See?" "Aren't you glad you made the right choice?" "Now everything will be perfect."

Later that night Micayla was in bed. She was tossing and turning. She was thinking about John. She turned on the light and looked at her cell phone on the end table.

"I just want to hear his voice." She thought. "I miss him." "I can't." "It'll be to painful."

She turned off the light and cried herself to sleep.

A week later it was nighttime around nine o' clock. Micayla was in her pajamas watching TV. The doorbell rang. Micayla got up to answer it.

"Coming." She said. She opened the door. She couldn't believe who it was. "John." She said surprised. "You can't be here." "You have to leave."

"I needed to see you."

"Well you saw me." "Go back to your hotel." She went to shut the door. He put his hand on it.

"Is he here?"

"No."

"I need to talk to you."

"Go back to your hotel John."

"No." She walked away from the door. He went in closing the door behind him. They went into the living room. "So where is money bags?"

"My husband is on a business trip."

"Of course he is." "Why would he want to spend any time with his wife?" He said sarcastically.

"What do you want John?"

"I miss you Micayla." "I can't do this anymore."

"Do what?"

"Stay away from you."

"You have to."

"This is killing me."

"Don't you think I know that?" "Try being trapped in a marriage you don't want." "This has been hell for me." "Whether I like it or not I'm married now." "We're trying to start a family." "That's only light at the end of the tunnel for me now." "Now you're here as if I don't think enough about you already." "All I want you to do is hold me and tell me everything's gonna be ok but we both know that's a lie." "Now I have to throw you out." "I don't want to but I don't have a choice." "I- I just…I can't take anymore." She put her hands to her face and started to cry. A few seconds later she felt John's arms wrap around her. She held him as close as she could.

"Shh." "Don't cry." "It's ok."

"No it isn't." She said tearfully. "It'll never be ok again." She looked up at him with tears running down her cheeks. "I tried to get out of it." "I tried." "The night before my wedding I told my mom about you." "I told her I loved you and I wanted to be with you." "I begged her to let me out of it." "Like she always does she guilted me into doing what she wanted me to do." "I didn't want to."

"I know baby."

"This isn't fair." "You holding me like this is the first time I've felt safe and comfortable in months." "I don't want you to let go."

"I don't want to let you go." Slowly he pressed his lips into hers. She kissed him back. They moaned into each other's mouths. Micayla broke the kiss and took John hands off of her. She turned away from him.

"What am I doing?" "This is over." "I can't." "No."

"Yes." John said as he started kissing the side of her neck.

"We can't do this John."

"Why?"

"I told you once I was married- mmmm." She moaned. "That we couldn't-

"Ssh." He turned around to face him. "Kiss me." She kissed him. He kissed her back. It quickly became passionate. She took off his jacket. They broke the kiss and started going upstairs. John turned her around in the hall. They kissed again. He took off her pajama top. She took off his shirt and undid his jeans. He stepped out of them. They went into the bedroom and got on the bed. He laid her down under him. They kissed. She moaned as he slowly kissed her down her neck. Her hands were on his back. He continued down her body he lifted his head a little once he got to the center of her chest. He looked up at her. "Tell me what you want baby." He said. He started kissing the center of her chest. "You." She moaned. "I want you John, so bad." "Ohhh." After a few minutes he came back to her mouth. "Yeah?" He asked as he kissed her. "Mm-hmm." She mumbled against his lips. He took off her pajama bottoms. He slipped inside her. They kissed and started moving slowly. "Ohhh." She moaned against his lips. She broke the kiss and looked at him. "I love you." She said. She kissed him. He looked at her. "Say it again, mmm." He moaned against he lips as he kissed her. "I love you." She mumbled against his lips. "I love you too." "I miss you so much, mmmmm." She moaned. "I missed you to." He started moving faster. "Ohhh, god I forgot how amazing this is." She moaned. "Baby." John groaned. "Oh yes, John, ohhh yes, John." She moaned giving in. "Micayla." John groaned giving in.

He was holding her. She smiled and kissed him.

"Wanna stay over?" She asked.

"Yes."

"So now what?"

"You could always get a div-

"Before you even finish that sentence, you know I can't do that."

"Ok." "Then we'll have to see each other in secret."

"You really wanna do that?"

"If that's what it takes for us to see each other yeah." "I can't stay away from you Micayla." "I won't." "I love you to much."

"I don't want to stay away from you either." "I'm miserable without you." "I've been back to the bridge a lot." "I thought about doing it, killing myself." "The only reason I don't do it is because of you."

"Promise me you'll never go back there again."

"I promise."

"If anything ever happened to you, I don't know what I would do."

"I know."

"I love you."

"I love you too." They kissed. "Goodnight."

"Goodnight."