Hey guys, it's been a long time huh?
I would just like to say that I am very, very, very sorry and I feel like the worst person in the world. I have been putting off doing this for awhile now and I thought maybe I could just sneak on by without you guys noticing, but that wouldn't exactly be fair to you. I recieved an email yesterday telling me someone had left a review on MIWR5 and it just kind of made me heart clenched and I realized that I owe you guys an explanation. I have so many PMs that I haven't responded to. I feel awful. I just couldn't bring myself to do this, but I know now that I have to. It's only fair to you guys.
For the past year, my life has been nothing but writing fanfiction, and reading fanfiction, and just Austin & Ally, and Auslly, and Raura and all of it. The whole nine yards. But about a month ago, I realized that I wasn't as excited about it as I used to be. I watched Last Dances and Last Chances, and I thought it was adorable, but for some reason, I didn't feel like I was as excited about it as I should have been. I don't understand it really. Why does something that use to captivate us, used to be all we could every think about, something that consumed our every waking moment just stop being important to us? I guess over time I just started watching different TV shows and getting obsessed with different things. Things like Austin & Ally, Raura, and Laura Marano, and R5 (things I used to obsess over) were suddenly just things.
I've moved on to different fandoms now I guess. I've found new interests. It's really sad because Austin & Ally was like my first real fandom. It was my gateway fandom I guess you could say. It's what kind of brought me to being a fangirl. Obviously it's always gonna be special to me and I'll probably catch a few episodes now and then, but it won't be like it was.
So, now the part that you guys probably actually care about: Where does that leave my fanfictions?
I have spent the past month thinking about this. I thought that maybe I could finish them. Most of them are half way over with anyways. But considering I haven't even touched my fanfics since over a month ago, and who knows how long it would take to finish all of them especially since I'm back in school, I just don't think i could force myself to go along with that. I loved writing fanfictions. I did it because I enjoyed it, but I just don't enjoy it that much anymore. I feel so stressed about it because I don't want you guys to hate me but you have to remember that I am a real person and I don't want to continue to do something that doesn't make me happy.
I thought about giving them over to someone else. Someone who would carry out my story ideas like I had originally planned. I know that people adopt stories from other authors and I've actually gotten a few offers in the past, but I was so sure that I was gonna be the one to finish them that I didn't bother with it.
However, I started to realize that I wanted to be selfish. These stories are mine. I wrote them, I came up with the ideas, I spent a year on these stories and part of me feels like if I'm not the one who finishes them, then they shouldn't even get finished. Do I really wanna just hand my stories over so easily? I'm still very attached to them. I can remember the first time I published a fanfic. I was so scared and nervous and excited. I hoped that someone -anyone- even just one person would read it and like it, and I got way more than that. And it meant the world to me. I had really shitty days were i just wanted to give up on everything, but then someone would favorite or follow my story or send me a review and I would smile and it would make my whole day better. I was sure i didn't want to give my stories away.
But then I started thinking about you guys and how awesome you guys have been to me. You deserve for these stories to have an ending, even if it's not written by me.
So, heres the deal. I'm still not one hundred percent for sure I want to give my stories up, but I am willing to consider. If you are interested in taking over either one of my stories (Celebrity Status or Moving In With R5) send a PM my way, I will take a look at your profile, read some of your stories if you have written any and if I find someone I feel comfortable giving my story to, then I will.
I AM NOT GIVING AWAY AND ANOTHER FELL DOWN OR VIGILANTE. Vigilante wasn't that popular and plus I am in love with the plot and maybe if I every write fanfictions again I'll use that story for another fandom. I will be finishing And Another Fell Down. I've got half the chapter written and its the last chapter so I figured I could at least get that done. Plus, I really liked that plot too. I felt it was very original and I had a lot of fun writing it because I got to do something a little bit different.
So, if you are interested in taking over Celebrity Status or Moving In With R5, please let me know in a PM and I will check out your profile/ stories and make a decison. All I ask is that if one of you do end up taking over either of my stories, you give me full credit for the original idea and the chapters I wrote.
So, I guess this is kind of goodbye. God, ugh, I feel absolutely horrible about this. I really am sorry guys, but it's just something I have to do. I hope you understand. Thanks for everything guys.
Kthanxbai
Morgan :)
