The doors opened and they all walked out. Immediately Jace turned and asked, "What the hell are we doing here?" he didn't seem upset, he just really wanted to know, and so did I. I stepped away and let them talk; I walked around looking at the room. The elevator opened up to a platform, there were steps that went down to a living area with a couch. The platform also stretched around the room to a kitchen and had stairs coming off of it to another level above us. But the best part about the entire room was the view. The entire wall was a window, and we were so high up. We could see all of Brooklyn. We had the best spot and perfect timing; the sun was about to set.
"Clary!" I snapped back into reality when I heard Izzy calling my name.
"What?" I was surprised, everyone was in the kitchen, and apparently I had missed the talk about why we were here. I walked over to the kitchen, grabbed a chair, and sat with them. "I want to watch the sun set." I was as surprised about saying that as they were. They looked at me like I was crazy. Obviously I had missed something.
"Did you hear anything that I said?" it was Alec talking this time. I shook my head. He shrugged as if it was something he did not want to explain again.
"Sorry, I didn't hear anything." I just looked at him and waited until someone started to explain it again.
"We are here because some potion made you and I all horny and we kind of did stuff and shit, so we have to make sure that it's worn off so that you and I aren't down each other's throats the second we are alone." Jace just spit it out and we all looked shocked. I couldn't speak. I couldn't imagine kissing Jace, although I wanted to, it would be like kissing my brother. I get chills and just stared at them.
"Did I hear him correctly? Did I actually kiss…. That?" I point at Jace's face to insult him. But I could feel my cheeks start to burn up and can tell I'm blushing.
"Well according to your cheeks, you look like you enjoyed it." Jace smirked and blew a kiss at me. I could hear Izzy kick him in the shin under the table. All I could do was get up and go look at the sunset.
"You know I'm only joking right?" Jace came and sat next to me, he sounded almost like he cared. I couldn't help but think he was gorgeous. He just couldn't be anything but perfect. I wanted to know what kissing him felt like. But all I did was nod.
"I know." I leaned back into the couch, the sun was almost about to set and I just wanted to watch it; I wanted to watch it like I used to with my mom. I sighed and looked over at him. "I'm just confused. I don't know what's happening and honestly, I don't really want to know."
"Do you really think it would be that bad to kiss me, or Like me?" I looked up at him, perplexed. What did he just ask me? He asked again, "Am I that horrible? Is it impossible to like me?" his voice was soft; he almost gave the impression of vulnerability. I didn't know how to respond.
I didn't know how to tell him that he could never be horrible, that I couldn't stop thinking about him, and I wanted to be with him more than anything, but all I could say was, "You aren't horrible, at least not all the time." I could feel my face get warm and I knew I was blushing. I tried to look away but he beat me to it.
"I think you're wonderful, Clary. I think about you all the time and I don't know how to tell you." He was so comforting; his voice made me feel like I was safe and that he was all I needed. I didn't know what to think.
"Tell me what?" I could tell my face was red, But I didn't care, not anymore.
"That I am always thinking about you." He moved closer to me, "That I think you are the most beautiful girl I have ever met." He looked me straight in the eyes, "That even though you are like a sister to me, I think I'm in love with you." He was so close to me, He was almost leaning over me and I couldn't help but smell the cologne he was wearing. His words melted into me and made me want to jump up and kiss him. I wanted to feel him. I wanted to be with him. But he was right.
"You are like my brother, Jace." I looked at him, into his eyes. "I have known you for so long, I know almost everything about you, and you know almost everything about me. But I love you. I have loved you for so long. I don't remember what happened the other night, but I now that I have felt like this for a lot longer than two days. You are perfect. I want to know what it's like to be with you. I want…" I found myself lost for words, and I found myself leaning close to him. Our body's touching, our faces so close to each other's.
"What do you want, Clary?" his voice was light. I got chills and answered.
"Jace. I want you"