~Chapter 13 - Forget how to sing~
"You and I,
We're like fireworks and symphonies exploding in the sky.
With you, I'm alive
Like all the missing pieces of my heart, they finally collide.
So stop time right here in the moonlight,
Cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes.
Without you, I feel broke
Like I'm half of a whole
Without you, I've got no hand to hold
Without you, I feel torn
Like a sail in a storm
Without you, I'm just a sad song
I'm just a sad song
With you I fall
It's like I'm leaving all my past in silhouettes up on the wall
With you I'm a beautiful mess
It's like we're standing hand in hand with all our fears up on the edge
So stop right here in the moonlight,
Cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes
Without you, I feel broke
Like I'm half of a whole
Without you, I've got no hand to hold
Without you, I feel torn
Like a sail in a storm
Without you, I'm just a sad song
You're the perfect melody
The only harmony
I wanna hear
You're my favourite part of me
With you standing next to me
I've got nothing to fear
Without you, I feel broke
Like I'm half of a whole
Without you, I've got no hand to hold
Without you, I feel torn
Like a sail in a storm
Without you, I'm just a sad song
Without you, I feel broke
Like I'm half of a whole
Without you, I've got no hand to hold
Without you, I feel torn
Like a sail in a storm
Without you, I'm just a sad song
I'm just a sad song"
As the last tone from the song went silent, I tilted my head upward and stared at the stars. Tiny rain drops fell onto my face.
"It's been a while; I thought you forgot how to sing." Levi's voice echoed through my ears.
At first I thought it was my mind playing a game with me, but when I turned around, I saw Levi's serious face meeting mine.
I forced a smile. He noticed. Levi walked up to me and surprisingly, he wrapped his arms around me.
This is one of the traits I loved about Levi. He didn't need to hear you say how you felt, he just now it and he'll do anything to get what you needed the most at that time.
What I needed at that time was someone to comfort me and listen to me when I talk. And that was exactly what he did.
As soon as his arms were wrapped tightly around my waist, tears were building up with incredible speed. I bended down slightly, due to my tall height, and placed my face onto his shoulder. Within seconds, shirt got wet, but he didn't complain. He just held me tightly as I cried and cried and cried until I had no tears left to shed. But the emotions and guilt where still trapped inside. I decided to open the cork to my overly filled emotion jar and spill everything to Levi.
I told him everything I had in mind.
I told him about me feeling disgusted with myself that I this morning even felt excited to leave the wall. How could I feel excited to go see people getting eaten alive by human-looking giants?
I told him about me not being strong enough to help the 3 soldiers that obviously needed help.
I told him about me not helping those in need and how selfish I was to only think about my own safety.
I told him about how it was my fault that they were dead and that they would probably be alive if I had done something.
I told him about how the horror that were shown on their faces just seconds before they were devoured haunted me each time I shut my eyes even if it was just to blink and that the sound of their horrible screams have been ringing through my ears ever since I heard them.
Levi listened; he didn't interrupt at any point claiming that it wasn't my fault, which would be something normal people would have done. But he waited until I had no more words to speak before he opened his mouth.
"No matter what kind of wisdom dictates you the option you should pick, no one will be able to tell if it's right or wrong till you arrive to some sort of outcome, resulting from your choice. The only thing we are allowed to do is to believe that we won't regret the choice we made."
~(Songs: Sad Song by We the kings featuring Elena Coats)~