I don't own Merlin sadly. It belongs to the BBC.
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Summary: Arthur and Merlin have been together for ten years, married for eight years but in the last year they have become strangers to each other, fed up, Merlin wants to know why Arthur is pushing him away.
Warning: malexmale, mpreg
This story will have four chapters. A chapter a day :D
I apologise in advance for any mistakes I may have made :D
That evening Merlin stood and watched with a smile on his face as Arthur knighted the ten men and gave his speech, congratulating them before announcing there is now a celebration to welcome Camelot's newest knights.
When people started to move about and collect their drinks from a nearby table Merlin started to walk around, shaking hands with the newest knights congratulating them.
"Hello again."
Merlin turned and smiled when he saw Gwaine stood there. "Sir Gwaine, congratulations again."
"Thank you. Will there be dancing at this celebration?"
"There usually is."
"Will you dance with me?"
"That depends."
"On what?"
"On if you are hoping it will lead to more."
"Would it be so bad if it did? I mean you are a lord and I am a knight so it is allowed."
Merlin laughed. "Yes it is, it is also allowed for a servant to have a relationship with a Prince and then marry him once he is King and go from servant to Lord."
Gwaine looked Merlin up and down and then to Arthur who was making his way over. "You are married? Thought you just used to date."
"Yes we are married." Arthur said. "And I don't take too kindly to people hitting on my husband."
"Sorry sire. Now I know you have nothing to worry about, I will simply set my sights elsewhere."
When Gwaine walked away Arthur turned Merlin to face him. "Will you dance with me? You don't have to."
"Arthur it has been thirteen months since I have been in your arms why would I say no."
After a few slow dances in which Merlin kept his arms around Arthur, his head on the King's shoulder they had parted and Arthur went to talk to his newest set of knights while Merlin spotting Morgana made his way over only to be stopped by Gaius.
"Seeing you both dance m'boy, it is so wonderful to see you happy again."
"We still have a long way to go Gaius; we still need to talk,"
"But he held you Merlin, that is a start."
"It is."
"I need you to tell him to take his potion and rest for tomorrow Merlin, all this dancing and walking about and then the training this morning, he is going to pay for it and probably have a bad night with it."
Merlin frowned. "Gaius, what potion?"
"The potion for his leg Merlin."
"What about his leg?"
"Oh dear."
"Gaius please, what about his leg?"
"The battle he went into last year, when he was on bed rest for a month," Gaius sighed. "It is best if he tells you m'boy." he said placing a hand on Merlin's upper arm.
Merlin took a deep breath and nodded and gave Gaius a small smile. "Where is this potion?"
"It is in the cupboard I keep locked at all times, remember that potion you picked up a while ago, the sickly green coloured one?"
"Yes."
"That is Arthur's; he is to drink all of the vial."
Merlin nodded. "I will go and get it and please Gaius, do not tell Arthur what you have told me."
"Okay m'boy."
After the celebrations Arthur walked with Merlin back to the chambers and stopped outside Merlin's door. "Good night Merlin."
"Good night Arthur."
"Merlin can I k-"
"Don't you even finish that question Arthur, I am your husband, you do not need to as-hmmph." Merlin ended up moaning as he was cut off by his husband's lips on his, he wrapped his arms around the Kings neck and pushed himself closer to the blond, only parting when air was needed. "Oh I have missed you Arthur."
"And I you. I have nothing planned for tomorrow, can we talk, it is well overdue."
"Of course Arthur, we have a lot of talking to do, you more than me probably. Good night." and with a small kiss to Arthur's lips Merlin walked into his chambers.
Once the door was closed Arthur let out the breath and sagged against the wall, holding onto it as he made his way to his chambers, he knew he had pushed it too far with his leg.
As soon as Merlin heard the door close to Arthur's chambers he walked out of his own and made his way to Gaius' quarters to collect the potion, he heard Arthur when his door closed, he knew his husband would need his potion tonight, and he was going to be the one to give it to Arthur, in more ways than one.
Arthur took off his top and chucked it to the nearby chair before dropping onto the edge of the bed and wincing as he took off his boots and breeches, once naked Arthur stood up and hobbled over to the tall mirror and using the light from the candles in his room he sighed as he looked at what was giving him pain, from the top of his leg near his groin going all the way down past his knee was a thick scar, looking closely he saw it outlined in red where he knew it was hurting.
Wrapping a sheet around his waist he hobbled over to the door and opened it calling a servant, once he asked him to tell Gaius he needed a potion to help him sleep he closed the door and limped over to the bed and collapsed on it.
Merlin was just about to go into his chambers when he saw the servant walk away from Arthur's chambers. "Euan?"
"The King has asked me to collect a potion for him to help him sleep."
"There is no need for that Euan, I have the potion here, I will see to my husband, go to bed."
Arthur looked up when his chamber doors opened and saw his husband come in carrying a potion. "That was quick. I only just told Euan to get it for me."
"No you asked Euan to get you a potion to help you sleep. This potion I have does nothing of the sort; this potion takes away the pain in your leg. The pain you have because you have been on it too much, the pain you have which you have had since that battle last year, the pain you have gone through and not allowed me to help!"
"Merlin love -"
"No Arthur." Merlin marched over to the bed and pulled the sheets back which showed Merlin his husband's naked body. "This is why you have kept me at arm's length for thirteen months?" he asked pointing to the Kings scar. "This is why you never asked me back to your bed? Why you hurt me more than anyone could? Why I have been crying nearly every night, thinking my husband no longer finds me attractive? No longer loves me?"
"Merlin I love you more than life itself, I love you so much it hurts but look at me, how can you love me, how could you want me how I look, I have this on my leg I have an even bigger one on my back I can't train as much as I used to and would like. After a couple of training sessions and dancing with you and I am in pain, I now have to send my men into battle and stay here, do you know how much that kills me?"
"About as much as it has killed me for my husband make me think he no longer finds me attractive or loves me. Arthur you know how strong my love for you is do you really think so low of me that you thought that I would seek another because of what battle has done to you?"
"No of course not but you know me Merlin I am stubborn. I saw what that battle did to me how I looked I looked at myself and do you know what the first question was that came to mind? 'How could my husband love me looking like this' I knew you would but me looking like that I was hating how I looked and I actually got myself believing that everyone else would once they saw the scars."
Merlin sighed. "Turn over and lay on your front."
Arthur did as he was asked and closed his eyes when he felt his husband's hands running up his back. "This scar on your back Arthur... why did you have to keep your mouth shut about it." he asked, close to tears.
"I'm sorry sweetheart." Arthur turned his head to the left and looked at Merlin as best he could from that angle. "I am ashamed of my scars; to me they show I am not as good a fighter as I hoped to be."
Merlin rubbed the salve into the scar, his eyes glowing gold smiling at Arthur's sigh knowing his magic eased the pain more than the salve had done. "On your front."
When Arthur turned over Merlin looked into his husbands eyes. "You are wrong." he said before focusing his attention on the long scar on the Kings leg.
"Wrong?"
"Yes. To you these scars show that you are not as good a fighter as you hoped you were. To me they show that my husband is a brave and strong man, a man who will go into battle knowing he could end up with a lot worse than these scars. To me these scars show just how brave you are, that you are the bravest man I have ever known that you are the best warrior who just got caught off guard, if you have all those men on you like I saw Arthur then even the greatest warrior which is you would not be able to defeat them and come out of it with no scratches."
"I hate them; because of them I have pushed you away, away enough for you to actually welcome compliments from another man."
"I did enjoy the compliments I will admit, but only because I have missed receiving them from my husband."
"Do you still find me attractive Merlin?"
"Now what kind of stupid question is that? Of course I do, you are as handsome and as gorgeous now as the day I first laid eyes on you, I have only loved you more each day." he finished rubbing the salve on his husbands leg and once again his eyes turned gold.
"Oh that's better than any salve."
Merlin smiled and moving up the bed he placed a kiss on the tip of Arthur's cock before moving up further to kiss his husband on the lips. "No more separate beds Arthur."
"No more separate beds. But if I am going to sleep naked aren't you?"
"Slow steps Arthur, just talking for now."
"Just talking? Merlin you kissed my cock."
"I know I did, do you know how long it has been since I have seen it. I have missed it."
"You can have it now."
Merlin laughed and stripped to nothing before blowing the candle out and tucking them both in with the covers and snuggling up to the King. "Go to sleep."
The next morning Arthur woke and smiled when he saw his husband laying flat on his front fast asleep, he had missed this too much, how could he have let his stubbornness stop him for waking up to this view every morning.
Pulling the covers back Arthur placed his hand on the back of Merlin's neck and slowly ran his hand down the spine, smiling when he heard the brunet moan in his sleep, using his finger he tucked it into the sheet and bit his lip, it had been well over a year since he last saw his husband's arse. Him seeing Merlin step in the bath the day before he only caught a glimpse of it before his husband sat down. With that thought in mind he moved his hand down, his finger tucked in the sheet pulling it with it and revealing his husband arse.
His eyes widened at what he saw. "Oh fuck Merlin." from the top of Merlin's left arse cheek and running down the cheek stopping at the top of his leg was a scar, next to the scar was another scar that showed that he had been burnt badly and it had healed.
"Scars are nothing to be ashamed of when you get them for bravery Arthur." Merlin said making the King jump.
Arthur looked up and saw Merlin's head raised slightly looking at him.
"I know that."
"Apparently not when you let yours get the better of you which made us sleep in separate beds for over a year."
Arthur threw the covers back and stood up. "I thought we were fine now Merlin." he said as he pulled on his underwear and breeches.
Merlin sat up in bed. "Just because we slept in the same bed for the first time in months doesn't mean we are okay now Arthur, we have to talk."
"We did that last night Merlin. I told you why I did what I did and admitted it was foolish of me but you know how I am."
"Yes I do and I still married you."
"Will you be staying married to me?"
Merlin threw the covers back harshly and got out of bed. "If I wasn't I wouldn't have spent the night with you." he said as he walked over to the door that separated their rooms. "Fool." he said and walked through them closing the door behind him.
Arthur sighed and ran his hand through his hair. "Why do I always do it?" he asked himself, jumping when a knock sounded on the door before opening. "Euan?"
"Your breakfast my lord."
"Um, yes, actually I wish to bathe first can you take this back and do me a bath please?"
"Of course my lord."
"Do not chuck that food away."
"Then what shall I do with it sire?"
"The lower town, give it to those who are hungry."
"Sire." Euan bowed before leaving.
When his bath was ready Arthur stripped and was about to step in it when hearing Merlin cough in the next room stopped him, he walked over to the door and knocked.
Merlin got out of his bed and knowing it was Arthur didn't bother to dress as he walked over to the door and opened it.
"You know you ought to be careful, what if it wasn't me knocking?"
"Then I would have given someone something to look at wouldn't I."
Arthur frowned. "I don't want anyone but me seeing you naked."
"Even though you have let your stubbornness stop you from doing so for over a year." Merlin stated.
Arthur sighed. "Yes."
"What is it you want Arthur?"
"I asked Euan to do me a bath; the water is nice and hot."
"Then why are you here?"
"Isn't that obvious?"
"Yes but I am doing nothing until I hear you say or rather, ask."
"Merlin I have a bath that has just been done, the water is nice and hot a bath would be nice this morning but better if you were to join me. Will you take a bath with me husband of mine?"
Merlin smiled. "Yes."
Arthur smiled and led his husband towards the bath. He got into the bath first and held his hand out, helping the brunet in, kissing the globes of Merlin's arse when he stepped into the hot water. "View I have by all means take your time in sitting."
Merlin laughed and sat down sighing as he leaned back against his husband's chest, "waters nice and hot."
Arthur hummed in agreement and picked up the washcloth and rinsed it with excess water before rubbing it over Merlin's chest and stomach, pausing at his navel. "May I go lower?"
"You may." Merlin sighed and let his head drop back onto his husbands shoulder, moaning when he felt Arthur's fingers wrapping around his cock. "Where is the washcloth?"
"Are you really bothered?"
"No."
Arthur smiled and kissed his husbands neck as his hand that was holding the brunets cock got slowly faster.
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