" Aphrodite ? " ...
My heart jumped out of my chest the moment I noticed that this wasn´t the regular Aphrodite .
This was far from being Aphrodite ...
She was wearing a black long dress and had all her body covered in a stream of sadness and grief
Grief ? ...
I looked deep into her eyes and what I found there was a terrifying blank .
My mind had started to play a series of many reasons why she was all torn down
All of them leading to one ...
My thoughts were stopped in the middle the moment I heard her shattered velvet voice ...
She spoke in such a quite way that I barely heard what she said .
" Why Xena , please tell me why ? "
I was speechless ...
Though I knew what she was talking about ...
" I don´t understand , Xena . I really don´t . We were always there for you . HE was always there for you . Holding you in his arms all those sleepless nights , when you couldn´t sleep , because of your painful memories . This is how you thank us , this how you thank HIM !? "
Her voice was full of rage now
I lowered my head till the only thing I could see was my bare feet
She just stood there , her tears were running down her cheeks like rain drops , her hands were folded around her waist , she looked like a lost , helpless child ...
As for me ...
My soul was already ripped into tiny littly pieces seven days ago ...
I was dead inside ... Dead ...
Clouds had started to replace the brightful sun , making it more diffucult to cope with all this dirty mess that I had no idea how I got into in the first place ...
I didn´t dare to raise my head , I prefered to hide in the shadows , instead
Several minutes passed . Silence was filling every corner of the room .
" I wanted to run away from all those emotions he had planted inside of me . I wanted to prove to my self that I didn´t need him or love him . I wanted to return to everything he banished me from ... "
I finally spoke . I needed to get this out of my chest . I couldn´t hold it anymore . I couldn´t sleep , I couldn´t eat or drink , I couldn´t breathe , GODS I couldn´t live without HIM !
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
The desire of screaming until it hurted , until my lungs started to bleed was more tempting than ever . I really curse myself for falling in love with HIM .
For falling into his little trap called love ...
For tangling into his cobweb ...
She was just staring at the sallow sky .
I did the same .
Night had fallen . We were still in the same position . Stuck in the darkness . Drowning in the storm of thoughts .
When she finally looked back at me , I felt invisible .
So much disgust in her gaze , it made me swallow hard .
I´ve never seen her like this . What hurted the most was that I was the one responsible ...
For all this mess .
She turned around , obviously ready to leave
" Aphrodite , wait ! "
She stopped but didn´t turn around
" Is ... is ... he alright ? "
My insecurities took the best of me and despite myself I let a single tear to roll down on my face
She didn´t answer , though , she just left in a trace of nothingness ...