I wrote this story because in the FT series it doesn't really concentrate on the characters feelings, and so yes, this book is mainly about how Levy feels towards Gajeel and vice versa.
And if you've read this before and noticed this is only a quarter of the story you should have technology punched me, I was writing in third person even though there was clear changes in POVs…haha, I'm fixing that now oh and splitting the story into four parts.
One-Shot
LEMON WARNING. (Won't be happening for awhile) SWEARING WARNING.
Don't own Fairy Tail, Hiro Mashima does…Lucky Man.

Levy McGarden

The park seems to come alive, the sea of blue covered in waves of white. The sun served as lava flowing and illuminating my presence, I remained beneath the cold shelter of a branch of the tree reserved in the middle of Magnolia park. My hand sharply scribbling over my paper.

I finished the letter with a 'Thanks You, Master Makarov, for everything.' before folding the letter placing it back in the envelope sealing it with a flick of my tongue.

My eyes caught sight of the book I had put down before writing the letter; I picked it up once again skimming through the pages.

Being in love with a man is infuriating, why him? Why me, why couldn't I love the boys who take notice of me, and appreciate me?

'And they kissed till the sun fell from the sky and now drew them home where they lived, loved and thrived,'

I flipped through another page of my favourite romance novel, the sappy ending put me on a low buzz, it made me more anxious for my own…and it may not be with the person I want.

Gajeel Redfox-just his name thought by my own brain sent thrilling shivers down my spine.

Everything about him called to me, to connect with the burdened soul. Yes I have well in fact accepted my own feelings for the man who continuously grows arrogant; it's been long! Too long, and I am not getting any younger, if I had never met Gajeel I could be with Jet or Droy, but maybe even then I had a little doubt about a relationship with either of the two. Even though they used to show constant affection for me, I couldn't return it. Not after the red eyes I fell and drowned in.

How could love be this cruel? Such a burden?

It hurt me, physically! My heart would race when he looks at me, my voice would drown in shyness, and I would get weak knees for crying out loud! And yet he rebukes it all, no response, no emotions.

And it's about time I moved on.

Mind you I shouldn't be so upset, it's not my fault Gajeel hasn't been seen for two months, he hasn't contacted anyone and I guess that was my own push-

'So don't leave my side,' he had said gruffly standing over me looking our enemies in the eye, his stance prepared to protect, to defend me. The Grimoire heart beasts laid their cold eyes on the us who conversed strangely, when obviously it was meant as our last conversation before death, the lover's spat had made them wait with curious faces.

My only response was an 'okay' before I shakily brought myself up on two feet.

I tried so hard to think that he was telling the truth, that I would always remain at his side…but that was until he had willingly walked away.

Now I am here, furthering into a cool wind that lies in bound by the Guild. I would watch the clouds crawl across the sky like horses galloping across a field, I had always imagined these scenes, especially after reading a tale of a knight and shining armor who had his horse prancing into battle.

Except my Knight in Shining armour preferred baggy clothing, the armour already have made its way through his digestive system, where girls would swoon so would I, but now it's time I let go. My feet picked me up and steadily treaded across the streets directly into the sight of the Guild.

"Oh Gray-sama will you be my date to the parade this evening?" I watched the two converse and it doesn't surprise me to watch Gray reject the young water mage very easily…it does happen very often.

"Juvia, me and Erza are going on a mission," Juvia's face had dropped in disappointment, but nevertheless in a few more minutes it will harden with determination.

She grumbled something about Erza being a love rival before storming off. Everyone knows about Juvia's fondness, and his lack of response. Her dedication is admirable but her desperation isn't. I don't want to be like that…

Following Gajeel around like a sick puppy.

Not to mention he is pretty sure about his opinion of the me. Weak, small, annoying, pitiful, and nothing to admire.

I joined a grinning Lucy and an unhappy Erza at one of the tables.

"Hey, what are you two doing today?"

They shrugged their shoulders in response, "I'm meant to be heading out at dawn on a mission with Gray to chase away unusual species of rabbit in Omnibus so we shouldn't be more than a day," I could practically feel Juvia's hateful glare, knowing Erza would spend more time with her precious Gray.

"Nothing much, me and Natsu are going to the parade this evening so I was just going to relax a little while and then get ready…perhaps write another chapter in my novel," Lucy grinned her dazzling brown eyes hiding her marvelous soul, but only Natsu could see the true light it beholds.

I'm very excited to read Lucy's novel, I had hovered over her since she released it, and our common interest in reading was just the start of our sisterly bond.

"What about you Levy?" knowing I had nothing on my agenda since my team has been distant since the Eclipse mission we had decided to relax awhile, no doubt pursue all dreams we have before our Guild ends up in another life threatening situation.

"Read some more books," probably mope some more since a certain Dragon Slayer isn't back yet- a cheeky voice in my mind relieved my hidden feelings.

"Is that so?" Cana the bare bikini wearing mage asked with an amused voice.

I nodded, "Yes, I believe I have nearly finished the historical section at the library." To this their faces showed complete shock.

"Levy! What the hell? Have you done anything fun for the past week?" I shook my head at Cana's demanding tone.

"No I haven't and it is none of your business," I said irritably obviously drawing a crowd, amazed that I was drowning myself in a life of books.

Well a life of books doesn't sound too bad; I mean do my books leave for weeks without contact?

Suddenly there was a laugh, a very familiar one, "Shrimp-come on-let me mind your business for a bit," hearing my own reflection of the words I had once said to him made my stomach twist like a pretzel, Gajeel isn't there.

And he still won't be. My future crushed and buried.

Shrimp.

I'm all that I am to him, shrimp. Small and insignificant!

What could I do to prove herself worthy? God why is my love life so complicated? I turned eighteen yesterday!

A year where some girls would swoon for excitement; since it's an age worthy of marriage, well I'm going to be…a virgin forever aren't I?

And that brought other thoughts to my mind, a family, children and love. In the course of her existence I have had near death experiences that could rival Juvia's love for Gray (and that's saying something).

Life is too short, and I am spending way too much time moping over a man who doesn't want me back.

It's not fair.

The fates had worked against me, to pursue a life of sadness and loneliness.

"If you would excuse me I have something to get from the library," they nodded as I dashed out of the guildhall uncomfortable with more questions I don't want to answer. I had stumbled upon an ally way when it happened.

A scent wafted up my nose but I refused to let it familiarize itself with me, I can't bear the knowledge that its only false hope.

"Hey Levy," a loud rambunctious purr interrupted her.

I looked at Lily through the corner of her eye, if he is back…so is Gajeel.

He sucked the kiwi juice eagerly; I smiled at his appetite especially since he was dragging a cart with ten more smoothie filled cups stacked in the cart.

"Hey-hic-Lily," I wheezed through the pain.

He looked worried as he approached me.

"Are you okay?" I nodded; time is up.

For my happiness to be with the man I want, it's not even funny that Lily managed to see the script mage before his partner; it infuriates me.

"Yeah just tired that's all…I was helping Mira with onions so I guess I needed a break."

He nodded rolling his cart until they both stayed at myside.

"How are you? I mean your back…after two months," I grumbled quietly.

"We went undercover, and a short vacation it was, humbling. The Guild is quite…rowdy and life threatening, it was a holiday away from destruction as you can say," he grinned wider, it made my heart shatter, Gajeel's holiday away from me, the annoying girl.

"Well its great that you two came back unharmed," I smiled the corners of my lips faltering.

Just then they heard, "Gihee!" I panicked, he is the last person I want to see, I don't want to explain why there is tears running down my cheeks, or why my shoulders were shaking like I were moments away from a hysterical break down.

No.

I don't want to see him.