A/N: Here's Kensi's POV. I'm not going to lie, I'm so sure how I feel about this part so I would definitely love to hear your feedback. I found Kensi a lot more difficult to write just because I want the writing to make her seem in character. Anyway please enjoy and review (:

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Dislcaimer I forgot: I am in absolute agony that I have no claim on these sweet babies.

-Nids

I watched Deeks as he rushed toward the center of the rink, dodging and gliding in between skaters.

Wow he really does have a great butt. Damn it Kensi. Focus. You're ready for this. You want this. Breath. I took in a breath.

"Deeks!" I heard myself call out. When did that happen? How did that happen? Oh shit.

He started toward me. Actually he charged toward me, stopping just shy of railing. I jumped a little.

He gave me a toothy lopsided grin. "Go for Santa!" His voice was playful.

"Uh-hm." I cleared my throat. I looked down. I smiled at him apologetically. This was going no where. And fast. KENSI. STOP STALLING.

Before I could get myself to not be an incoherent mute, Deeks spoke, his face now contorted with, of all things, apprehension.

"What's going on? You're freaking me out."

"Oh my gosh." I answered without much thought. Nice Kensi. Just keep filling space with useless exclamations.

"You plan these things to say and when the time comes you can't say them." His face is still contorted. His swimming blue eyes filled with anxiety. Those eyes. That starts my day, looking into those eyes.

"Um..." My words seemed to leave me again. The sentences my brain formed were unable to reach my mouth. So smooth Kensi. I looked out past Deeks. You can't back out now. Breath.

I took a quick breath in and let my mouth go. I could feel the desperation for him to understand coat my voice.

"You and me." Decent start. "Kensi and Deeks, Deeks and Kensi."

I started to feel more urgent. All I wanted was for him to understand. His brows were furrowed in such confusion. "A-Alone, we're bold, we're brash — we can move mountains." My voice started to lose urgency. Come on Kens. Pick it up.

I bit into my lips and then continued. "And...together we're..." I searched for the words. I struggled to just make him see. "Um..."

His eyes turned hard as he filled in, "We're safe." My heart dropped. He can't reject me. He can't. I need him. I need him so much.

Unsure of how to respond I simply agreed. My tone became flat and uncomfortable. "Yeah. We're safe."

He answered in kind. "Yeah, I know." No. He didn't know. In fact, I hardly knew. And dammit, it was time to find out. I closed my eyes. I am going to find out.

I opened my eyes to look at him, my hope and determination reignited. "I want to be bold, Deeks." With you. With you. Come on Kensi, Say it.

He blinked at me.

I shifted forward, forcing myself to show him what my mouth couldn't tell him. I slipped my long fingers underneath his calloused palm. Gently, I lifted our hands together. Palm against palm. Me and him.

I looked at him, keeping my face open and sincere. For the first time in our partnership, I was going to offer myself fully to him. No mask, no games. Me and him. Together. I felt ready. After so long, I felt real. "But I want to be bold with you."

He looked down at our hands, still tentative. "So no more games then?"

I smiled, shaking my head. "No more games."

He became more frank. "Chips on the table?"

I let my grin go. "All in."

His lips twitched upward. "All in."

Tonight?" The playful question in my voice was not lost to him.

"Tomorrow." His voice held finality.

I continued, "And the day af—"

His warm salty lips pressed hard against mine, effectively cutting me off. I didn't mind. His hands encircled my face, cupping my jaw and cheeks. The kiss wasn't overly passionate, but it was intense. In that moment we both just needed contact. Some physical reassurance that this was all true. I returned the kiss with an all but bruising pressure.

We pulled apart and it left me slightly breathless. I let out a whispery sigh and looked up at him through my lashes. So beautiful.

He smiled. So did I. He leaned in. I tilted my chin up. My lips met his parted ones. We found our lock. Our frozen lake may or may not crack. But right then, I really didn't care.