A small update for you guys as I seem to have enough spare time to update at the moment, so I'll make the most of it.
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Caroline poured the last of the wine "thank you for tonight Kate this has been lovely, is it awful that I'm dreading going home". Kate shook her head "no I can understand, it must be difficult at your house. But it's the summer break next week maybe, we could go away or something". Caroline cocked her head the butterflies erupting in her stomach at the simple idea. "Umm sounds wonderful" she muttered before looking up to see Kate's amused face watching her, "well have a think then I was planning on going to scotland to see my mum, maybe we could go there pop in and have lunch then do whatever. I mean no pressure it's just an idea" she babbled before returning to Caroline's warm smile. "Yes let me check the diary but sounds perfect, perhaps we could even go skiing" she suggested timidly "ooo yes I love to ski, I haven't been in years mind you".
The wine was finally all gone and Caroline tried to push the feeling that was rising in her stomach down, she berated herself it was just because she had to go home. Not because she was dreading being apart from Kate she told herself.
"Caroline is everything ok, you've been somewhere else half the night" Kate stroked her arm kindly "umm what um yes sorry" Caroline sputtered. "it's just something Gillian said it's made me think, that's all". "Well I know we said we weren't going to talk about important stuff, but if you want to we can" Kate smiled gently.
"Kate I think Im confused everything I'm feeling is all mixed up and I don't know whether it's to do with John or if it's just timing or if it's just inevitable. I don't know what to do I don't know... " she shook her head.
Kate moved closer on the sofa "slow down ... What is because of john or not?" She watched Caroline shuffle a little uncomfortably. "I'm scared incase I get it wrong" she looked up at those dark brown eyes, so sensitive so caring so beautiful. She had never really had friends was she feeling this way because Kate was kind to her, or was it the other thing. The thing she had buried for an eternity denied so ferociously, what if she was wrong what if it ruined everything. She could feel Kate's breathe upon her cheek, the amazing feeling of her thigh against her knee, "tell me Caroline" she whispered.
Kate felt the goosebumps erupt over her skin she ran her tongue across her lips to moisten them, her mouth dry her body tense. Caroline's eyes mirrored the movement of her lips "I... I... Can't" Caroline whispered "yes you can you might be surprised".
kate moved an inch closer she could see the confusion turn to desire the longing, "it's not the right time it's not me" she sighed as Kate stilled. "what if I told you I thought I knew what it was" she spoke softly.
Caroline's eyes met her wide in surprise she couldn't really know could she, if she did she didn't seem appalled at the idea. Her mind swirling of all the ifs the buts the whys the howS, before she pulled away and sat up straight. "Forget it I'm being silly" Caroline muttered a fake laugh emitted from her rosy lips, she turned to face the clock "god is that the time, I should be getting home. Do you want to meet up tomorrow?" The words left her mouth before having time to register them "ooh yes definitely" Kate's husky voice replied. Caroline paused she had heard something in her voice was it want, desire or just enjoyment at the suggestion. Her chest became tighter she needed to leave, she needed some space before she said something she shouldn't. Her head felt fuzzy but then the recollection that they had drank 3 bottles of wine between them, she'd have a hangover tomorrow for sure. "Ok well I'll ring you tomorrow" Caroline suggested and stood "I'll walk you to the end of the garden" Kate suggested standing too.
Caroline pulled on her coat followed by Kate who walked her to the end of the garden "I really end to put a light out here, make it easier for you to pop over". Caroline couldn't help the smile that absorbed her at the idea of the need for a light because of their frequent lunches, dinners. "Caroline mind the step" Kate called too late as Caroline learched forward loosing her footing, Kate grabbing her and rescuing her at the last minute.
Their faces close their eyes connected, their bodies pressed together, without thinking Kate leant closer tilting her head slightly "well that was a close one, ok an outside light is a must" she giggled. "Good save" Caroline chuckled sliding a leg over the wall followed by the other, Kate leant in and kissed Caroline's cheek, "thank you for tonight". Her soft lips pressed against Caroline's cheek but in the dark she miss judged it slightly catching the very edge of her mouth. "Sorry" she pulled apart embarrassed "don't worry" Caroline smiled " right well night, see you tomorrow" Caroline called as she headed up her garden path. Caroline reached the house and leant against her back wall her breathe raged her body tingling, she composed herself and headed inside.
Now to say she was a little more than confused was an understatement.
Caroline opened the back door tripping over the mat "nice time" John called from the sofa where he was on his laptop. "Yes thank you" she slurred as she edged to the fridge grabbing the half opened bottle of wine. "Do you think you need any more Caroline you seem rather drunk", Caroline swirled round to face him "yes I do not that I give a flying fuck what your opinion might be" She kicked her shoes off and half crawled up stairs.
John sat in shock not entirely sure what he had done, he had thought he had been nice about it, but nothing ever did please Caroline.. "Bloody impossible woman" he grumbled. Reaching her bedroom door she opened it falling to sit behind it, the tears now rolling down her face. God why was everything such a mess, she hated this feeling of being so out of control and she just wanted to slap him every time he opened his mouth. She knew one thing she couldnt keep pretending for much longer before she had a meltdown, he would have to go!
kate kicked herself what a prize idiot, yes it was accidental but she had most probably been flirty most the night. Yes she was drunk but not so much so she hadn't noticed she had been rather suggestive Half the night. Yes she had thought Caroline might have been hinting at it, but she didn't look overly thrilled when you kissed her Kate, she yelled at herself.
She's married for fuck sake shes straight, she took a breathe yes I was married and no I'm not straight but that doesn't mean Caroline isn't.
Great made a new friend and possibly got a job and could have blown it all in one night, fab work That's impressive even for me. She sighed heavily well there wasn't much she could do now, she would have to wait until tomorrow and see where the dust had settled.
Kate poured herself a brandy before bed as she climbed in she knew she wasn't likely to sleep well, all she could think about was Caroline. What if she had lost her friendship... yes they were both drunk, they could laugh it off forget about it. But the worst thing of all there was no point denying it now after that half kiss, just being that close she knew she wanted Caroline and well in truth she thought the woman was bloody magnificent.