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Caroline ran her hands through her hair as she stood pacing in the kitchen, Gillian was due any minute. It had been a long day at work with budgets and disciplining students, and she was more than ready to forget the day and right it off completely. Had it not been for that brief moment this afternoon when Kate had come to drop some grade predictions off, their eyes locked in combat both daring the other to close the gap which neither did. Silently taking each other in, the warm smiles exchanged and light banter spoken before departing, which had made her day.
Caroline hadn't been sleeping well even more so after having dinner with Kate last night, feeling how close she was, she could smell her Devine scent. It had driven her senses to a state of real arousal which had taken over her consciousness And subconscious. It surprised her but scared her mostly she had always been a little bit conflicted, she had friends who had come out as lesbians at university or those who she always placed as greedy liking men and women.
She had always put herself in the straight but curious category, she had always looked at other women remarking on how striking they were. But she had never so much as had a fumble with a girl yes she had kissed a few of her girl friends when under the influence, but that hardly counted. She had struggled with her male counter parts and had little experience, until she had settled for John. It had been a decision to make life easier, it had been expected get married have children and so she had conformed, rather than challenge it. Caroline had done her best to ignore the intense feeling in the pit of her stomach then, but now it was there once again more powerful.
Her denial running out of steam the more time she spent with Kate the more she wanted to touch, caress get lost in those deep brown eyes that engulfed her. She ran her hand through her hair once more, she had been relieved when Gillian had rung to say she was dropping a ram off near by, and could pop in for an hour before heading back.
Caroline needed to confide in somebody and her mother wasn't the right person she was so conflicted it pained her. Her brain screamed at her, be sensible for Christ sake she was 46 she couldn't suddenly shack up with a women, decide she liked women like that.
She didn't find Kate attractive it was just she enjoyed her companionship, and Kate's caring and thoughtful nature that was all. But her body betrayed her making her heart rate rise, her breathe quicken her cheeks flush at the mere thought of her. The urgent need to touch, kiss, caress and the heat and wetness that pooled between her thighs when their proximity increased.
The dull ache that only grew with each time she had spent time with Kate and ignored her body, she was a scientist for god sake she knew about biology. She heard her body she knew what all this meant in a chemical and scientific sense. But in an emotional sense it was entirely different, and she had to admit she was petrified to admit it, even to herself inside her head she couldn't commit to how she felt.
The lack of sleep hadn't helped she hadn't slept since that night of the accidental kiss, she had seen Kate yesterday and they had enjoyed each other's company. But every so often she would catch Kate's eyes and a small smile, and wonder if she felt the same magnetic pull she did. Whether Kate was internally having the same battles or if, or if she was completely wrong. Either way it had been exhausting to pretend to deny what she was thinking, ignoring Kate's kind friendly gestures and touches.
Caroline had awoken in a hot sweaty mess last night, she had been glad John had been away. She was a mess no other way to describe it, she needed some sense talking into her, to reassure her. That she hadn't swapped sides and decided she liked the female sex in that way, that she was labeling feelings she had incorrectly.
That she had been deprived of sex for so long that had been the reason she had awoken, hot drenched in sweat after a dream of Kate ravishing her to an inch of her life.
It was a physical need not emotional that lead to her hand dipping under the sheets, delicately parting her nether lips. As she rubbed over her slick centre gliding over her enflamed clit, desperate for pressure as she rubbed gently at first. Her eyes tight shut taking in the sheer pleasure it created Her mind alight with images of her.
Caroline's head rolling into the pillow her toes curling Until her need increased, her desire for release instructive as she became more forceful. Arching her back thrusting her hips, before dipping her own fingers into her wet warm opening. Her legs spread wide her pelvis dipped as she bucked against her own fingers desperately, violently as Kate's face flooded her brain sending her over the edge ..hard.
A soft warm satisfied haze descended over her and she had finally slept a little, awaking even more confused this morning. Dreading going to school and seeing her but also desperate to see her face feel her gentle touches as they walked and talked.
She was at a crossroads in acceptance and she needed guidance, she had never felt so ill equipped for an experience in her life. She was Caroline Elliot unflappable, always calm and prepared, sensible organized and very few things had ever thrown her off kilter.
But Kate Mckenzie was one of those things and she needed Gillian, she paced a little quicker straightening coasters and photo fames on her journey. Until finally the door bell rang, she flung it open and threw herself into Gillian's arms holding her tight.