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It had been a week since the night she had taken the plunge and asked John to leave, but she had yet to muster up the courage to decide and take what she now wanted from life.
She had spent almost every evening on the phone with Gillian, who although made her giggle at her determination and rather inappropriate suggestion. She seemed content in encouraging her to take a leap of faith with Kate. Caroline had been highly embarrassed that night, as she had awoken with both women talking over her sleepy body. She hadn't known what they had spoken about but they seemed to get on so well, like old friends it was reassuring and disconcerting all in the same time. She had hardly had a chance to see Kate alone, she had been working late most evenings making up for her non focused mind during the days. She also had to confess the boys had tended to be out after school for clubs or at friends, and the thought of going home to an empty house filled her with dread.
Caroline knew Kate was around and would happily keep her company but, she had a better idea of how Kate felt, well she thought she did and she really didn't want to mess her around. Kate was such a kind caring person Caroline knew she felt slightly pushed out since the night John had left. Caroline had made her excuses of being busy focussing on the boys. Truth was she wasn't sure she would make a responsible decision left alone with Kate, she made her senses loose control. It was strange but now John had officially left it was as if something inside her had changed. Everything that had held her back from Kate before was no longer so strong, and she was petrified Of herself.
Caroline filled the last of the paper work looking at her watch it was 7.30, she leaned back against the chair in her study. William wouldn't be home from his part time job until past 11, Lawrence was away for the night so "another night alone" she grumbled to herself.
Feeling a little shiver run down her spin as she felt her proximity "it doesn't have to be Caroline". Caroline turned to see a tentatively smiling Kate facing her, "Kate I" she lost her cool. She couldn't help but let her eyes dip down to note Kate's hair skimming across her shoulders, the exquisite dip of her v neck jumper. She could see her nipples beneath the thin fabric noting she wasn't wearing a bra, she couldn't help the excited tingle that spread through her body resting heavily in her stomach at the thought.
Caroline lowered her gaze to see her toned legs surrounded by her black leggings and smart brown ankle boots, she looked stunning. "Hump" Kate giggled trying to regain Caroline's attention, "sorry I was miles away" Caroline apologized a little flushed, and flustered.
Had Kate seen her, this was why she had tried to keep her distance her mind and body were at odds. Was she really ready to accept she thought... Well who was she kidding she thought Kate looked like sex, she was stunning Caroline couldn't draw her eyes away. She fought not to reach out and touch, to reach out and pull her close, her body screaming for Kate's body to touch hers. And yet her mind the logical, scientific aspect of Caroline Elliot held her back, the fears of the repercussions. She wasn't sure she was ready to admit it to herself net alone Kate and then everybody else.
"Caroline have I done something" Kate reached and touched her hand drawing it closer "you've seemed distant, I want to help you through this Caroline". Caroline's eyes transfixed upon Kate's "no Kate it's not you", the remorse flashing over her face.
"What is it? Is it John has something happened or is it just everything?" Kate asked seeing Caroline's hard facade fading, the tears welling up in her eyes. "I'm conflicted, i... Oh Kate ,...", Kate pulled her into her embrace. "You can tell me Caroline, I want to help", Caroline's misty eyes focused on Kate's lips traveling to her eyes, and back to her lips again "kiss me" Caroline whispered.
"Caroline I..." Kate inched forward the desire to take her lips so intense she wasn't sure she could resist if she became any closer. Caroline help Kate and drew her towards her, their lips millimeters apart, "kiss me Kate". Kate could feel Caroline's breathe upon her lips, the sensation more erotic than she could ever imagine. She had dreamed of this moment and yet it didn't seem real, she needed to be clear on what Caroline was thinking. She didn't want to confuse her already upside down life, and yet her selfishness to feel her lips upon her own even if it was just once, drew her closer.
kates hands wrapped around Caroline's waist she felt Caroline shudder at her touch as her fingers gently lapped the skin exposed from her rising vest top.
"Are you sure this is...what you want", Kate checking scared to take the plunge as met Caroline's pleading eyes begged her to do what she desperately needed her to do.
Kate hesitated she wanted nothing more than to reach out and touch, to kiss, caress but she couldn't. Caroline took the final step their bodies pressed together the slither of light between them extinguished, as Caroline took Kate's lips against hers.
The most erotic sound erupting from Kate's mouth, only drove Caroline deeper into her embrace, the kiss becoming more passionate. The air sucked from the room around them until finally they pulled apart breathless. "You ok?" Kate whispered questioningly "yes, you?" Caroline smiled, Kate nodded as Caroline backed her up against the wall. Caroline's hands finding confidence as they ran up the contours of Kate's body. "Good god your amazing" she gasped as she sucked at Kate's neck, moaning her own legs bucking under her as Kate's hands found her breasts.
Kate pulled back from the kiss, "as much as oh god... As much as I want you" she kissed Caroline's neck pushing her to arms length again, "as much as I do. Believe me! Do you think we should slow this down?, this might not be what you really want, you might regret it".
Kate's eyes sad with the realization that Caroline was very vulnerable at the moment, and this could very easily be her desperation, her need for comfort. Her need for company, and intimacy to reassure her, she might regret this and then where would they be!
Caroline stepped back "you don't want too?" She asked, knowing only too well Kate was as turned on as she was. "I can do slow, I have done I've wanted you since the moment I met you. I've dreamt about you, I wake up and wish you were next to me, I feel safe with you and I've been scared to admit that I may be different. This is scary I've lived my whole life pretending to be something I'm not... That I'm straight, that I'm happy, That I loved John, and to admit to myself alone that that's it was a lie, is hard.
But Kate I can't control it, when your near me all these worries I have disappear and all I can think about is you. Talking to you, being close with you, touching you and I don't care anymore. I threw John out because I'm fed up of pretending who I am, and denying what will make me happy... And that's you Kate. I want you!".
Kate couldn't stand it anymore, as she reached forward pulling Caroline's vest over her head, and cupping her breasts through her pink lace bra. Her lips claiming Caroline's in desperation the desires no longer being held back, she helped caroline lift her own top Over her head. Sinking back against the wall as Caroline's hands found them, caressed them lowering to kiss them sensually. A long drawn out cry from Caroline's lips as Kate's in turn sucked roughly on Caroline's erect left nipple, as her hands caressed across her pale skinned back.
Kate pulled her head away breathlessly "the boys?" She groaned as Caroline's kissed her harder. Caroline's own admissions to herself and Kate of what she desired, had set her free her confidence taking over, her need overriding all other senses. "Out" she moaned impatiently "sure?", "yes, now stop talking and kiss me" Caroline giggled letting Kate take her lips again. "Oh Christ Kate, your amazing" she panted as they familiarized themselves with each other, reveling in the smallest touches.