Deadly Passion Chapter 4, a katekyo hitman reborn! fanfic

I made this whole chapter, then when I was uploading it, it got deleted! I was so mad. Murder the computer mad… so, so mad.

Anyways, I'm going to redo this story, thankfully, half was saved so… at least I don't have to do it all 3. still mad though… I worked very hard on the first part too… not that I didn't work hard on the whole thing but, just harder there…

Guys, this is important. This chapter will be quite depressing compared to the rest of my story. Remember, I did put this as angst and I have done that for a reason. This chapter is just to show how Tsuna actually feels and a little bit into his past and with what happened with his parents. There will be a bit of graphic rape, but not enough to really picture anything happening, it will be cut off. I apologize for those who can't read that stuff. If you can't take abuse or rape, please don't read the dream. The dream with be the part of the story in all italics. Again, I do apologize that this isn't a very happy chapter, not that they were really.

Thank you to all those have have reviewed, favourited, and followed.

Anyways, I'll get straight to the chase and let you read my story…

Chapter 4

Lies

Tsuna's POV

Hello, hello, hello.

Waking up at the start of the end of the world

But it's feeling just like every other morning before

There's this particular song I'm listening to at the moment that goes perfectly with my every day life. Every day feels like the end of the world is coming and everybody just acts normal. There's only a handful of people in this idiotic world, who actually live their lives like they depend on it. those people right there are the smart people. In my line of business, you never know when your life is going to come to an end or when your family or loved one's comes to an end, your entire world feels like it's ending… but it looks like every other morning before.

Now I wonder what my life is gonna mean if it's gone

Was there any meaning to my life in the beginning? I think not. I don't think anyone would care if I was gone, and there would be no significant impact on society. Nobody even loves me… not even my family.

The cars are moving like a half a mile an hour

And I started waving at the passenger waving goodbye

Time moves too slowly during all my agony and just plain life. Some times I wish it would just hurry up so I can die.

Can you tell me what was ever really special about me all this time.

Nothing. Nothing is special about me except my talent for my job.

Infiltration time.

I believe the world is burning to the ground

Oh well I guess we're gonna find out

Let's see how far we've come

I start slicing and shooting, killing my intended targets, not get so much as a single scratch.

Well I believe it all is coming to an end

Oh well I guess we're gonna pretend

That's all my life is. Pretending and lying. I survive by putting on a mask and lying through my teethe.

Let's see how far we've come

I think it turned ten o'clock but I don't really know

And I can't remember caring for an hour or so

I just don't care what happens anymore. Life is such a pain, is it really worth living?

Started crying and I couldn't stop myself

Started running but there's nowhere to run to

I'm all alone in this world. Nobody's there. Nobody's there in my darkest times.

I sat down on the street took a look at myself

Said where you going man you know the world is headed for hell

My world is already in hell, since the day I was born.

Say your goodbyes if you've got someone you can say goodbye to

No one. I have no one.

I believe the world is burning to the ground

Oh well I guess we're gonna find out

Twenty more men fall at my hands, slaying them in cold blood. No regret.

Let's see how far we've come

Well I believe it all is coming to an end

Oh well I guess we're gonna pretend

I'm sick of pretending, but at this rate, it's how I live and the only thing I know.

Let's see how far we've come

It's gone, gone, baby, it's all gone

There's no one on the corner and there's no one at home

I'm all alone in this harsh, cruel world. Sometimes, I miss my family, but I know better… I know better…

It was cool, cool, it was just all cool

The only thing cool is my heart and it's not cool, no, it's freezing.

Now it's over for me and it's over for you

It's time for you stupid, idiotic, ugly humans to die in a place you belong, by one of your own kind. You'll finally feel what I've felt; only you actually have a quick escape. I have to live through this for the rest of my life.

It's gone, gone, baby, it's all gone

There's no one on the corner and there's no one at home

It was cool, cool, it was just all cool

Now it's over for me and it's over for you

Time to die.

I believe the world is burning to the ground
Oh well I guess we're gonna find out

I gathered all the bodies and threw them together onto a pile.

Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come

Well I believe it all is coming to an end

Oh well I guess we're gonna pretend

Let's see how far we've come

I darted around the building, throwing explosives all over the place.

Let's see how far we've come

I threw a few matches, allowing them to catch fire and for the flames to dance as they fed.

Let's see how far we've come

I finally came back to the mass of piled bodies and threw several matches on them, catching aflame quite easily.

Let's see how far we've come

For a few seconds, I took time to appreciate my work.

Let's see how far we've come

Finally, I awoke from my trance and escaped the burning building.

Let's see how far we've come

As I was nearing the exit, I heard several powerful booms. The explosions set off.

Let's see how far we've come

As I looked back to where my job had taken place, I watched as the building crumbled, collapsed, and soon fell to the ground.

Let's see how far we've come

I walked away, headed towards my contractor to get my reward while writing out my report.

Let's see how far we've come

I have indeed come far since then… so very far indeed.

As I reached the meeting place my contractor and I are to, well, meet at, I entered and went directly to my designated seat. I quickly texted him that my job was done and it was time to meet, then put my phone away. About 3 minute later, he had arrived, while I was simply sipping my jasmine tea. It soothed my troubled soul.

I handed over my report and as he skimmed the pages, I laid down, simply tired from my job. When he was done he said, "Well done. I expect no less from the Kitsune. Here is your 60,000 dollars. I actually have one more job for you."

I raised one of my eyebrows at this. I let out a sigh of irritation at the mention of work.

"I'd like you to assassinate Karri Cosou. She's 16 years old and attends Namimori High." My eye's widened at this.

"No." I replied coolly.

"I'll pay you 200,000." He bribed. Poorly by the way.

"No." I stuck with my answer.

"400,000?"

"600,000. Final. It's either that, or nothing." The man huffed before sighing in defeat.

"Deal." He said reluctantly. Wait until I tell the others about this job.

"Can you give me a picture and her file, please?"

"Of course."

"Oh, and please do pay me up front. As in now."

"Ugh, fine." He grunted.

"Don't get snappy with me mister." I smirked, teasing him was kinda fun.

He just grunted in annoyance.

When I finally got home, it was two in the morning. What is with me and late night jobs. I walked up to my room and went straight to sleep, my energy drained.

I opened my eyes only to find I was in a field of flowers. It was beautiful. You could see every kind of flower, hyacinths, roses, sweet peas, and daffodils, just to name a few. All the flowers together made a wonderful aroma. I took a few seconds to just take in the beauty and sent, engraving it into my mind. After a few minutes, I grew curious as to where I was. I was soon walking around to where my heart felt right until I came upon a house. It was old and rickety looking.

I tried looked through the windows to see if anyone was home, but I came to a dilemma. I was short. Now, I was never a tall person, but I haven't been this short since I was eight. I looked at my hands only to see they were small and pudgy, they still had a bit of baby fat to them. I shrugged it off thinking it was my imagination. Even though I was terribly short, I could still see through the window and saw that nobody was home. I decided to be a bit mischievous and snuck in.

I took a look at my surroundings and found a kitchen to the right and the living room to the left, up ahead was a hall with two bedrooms. I opened the one to the master bedroom and saw a king sized bed with a mahogany nightstand beside it, a lamp on top. The carpet was a light beige colour, the walls were a light grey colour. I took a look into the other bedroom only to find out it was a child's room. The walls were a light blue with tan carpet. There were no toys anywhere which was a bit odd if you ask me, but who's asking. The bed was a twin with a dark blue comforter. There was one window in the room and fairly small. Down the hall was a small bathroom. Nothing special.

The only thing was… this all seemed eerily familiar. I just can't seem to think of where I know of this place. All of a sudden, the door slammed open, then shut. A large man thundered in, yelling on the top of his lungs,

"Where are ya, ya brat?!"

Suddenly it all came back to me. This was the house my parents and I lived in when I was eight years old. This was the house I was constantly abused in. This was the house I did my first mission to survive. This was my living nightmare.

I scrabbled to get up and ran into the master bedroom, and flung myself under the bed.

"Come out, come out where ever ya are, ya brat! I know yar there, so don't hide!" I heard his heavy footsteps enter my old bedroom. I was practically shaking with fear. I normally don't act this way, but I have no control over my emotions anymore seeing as I'm in the form of an eight year old.

Foot steps were coming closer, until finally, they stopped. I breathed a sigh of relief thinking I was in the all clear until… his face popped through the space where I crawled under the bed. I scream in sudden fear.

"There ya are, ya little brat." He said with a smirk, but it was soon wiped off his face as he said, "I told you a million times to not come in here. You are not welcome here!" He dragged me out from under the bed, where as I practically pissed myself being as scared as I am. He threw me to the ground and delivered and good hard, well aimed kick to my ribs.

"It is all your fault she died, ya brat!" he screamed at me picking me up by my hair and slamming me into the ground. "If you didn't get sick, she wouldn't have gone out of her way to go gat ya medicine 'cuz ya got ya sorry sick ass sick, better yet, if ya weren't even born, she wouldn't have gotten into a car accident to began with!" He delivered a few more right punches to my face causing blood to drip down from my mouth and nose.

"I loved her so much, but ya had ta be selfish and go and kill her!" He growled. He picked up my limp body and threw me across the room and right into the wall. It caused a hole to be created and my head got stuck. Apparently, dear little daddy didn't like that so he came over to me and ripped my head out of the wall and once more slammed in into the floor.

"Look what you have done now, ya brat!" he grinned to himself as he thought of something that must have seemed delightful to him. All I know is that it's not going to be delightful to me. "Just look at the hole ya created in the wall. I think ya gonna have ta compensate for that, brat." He gave me an evil smirk as he walked slowly over, unbuttoning his panting, then unzipping them. He laid his body on top of mine, and licked some of the blood off my face that was oozing from the cuts and scratches, only to be replaced by more.

He slowly took his pants off to reveal his hidden manhood to the world that no one really wants to see. "Ya gonna enjoy this real good, ya slut." Oh, so it went from brat to slut now, huh? I see how it is. Well, you're a no good, son of a bi-

He rammed himself up my ass so hard that I saw stars. He continued to do this until finally-

I woke up with a start, drenched in sweat. I felt a drop of water drop onto my hand. I looked at it curiously, wondering where it came from. I lifted my hand to touch my face, only to find I was crying. I haven't cried since that faithful day eight years ago. I guess we all need a release every now and then, mine was just eight years late.

I hugged my knees to my chest as I let go my long needed release of emotions. Tomorrow will just be another day. I will put on my mask, and wait until someone will notice me.

I'm all alone in this world. I act like I don't care which in reality, I don't, but behind all that…

I'm waiting… waiting for someone to look past all that…

And come and save me from my living hell…

Because in my life…

My nightmare never ends…

How did you like the ending? I put some real thought into making the perfect ending for this. I would love to hear how you think about this chapter. Again I apologize that it's so depressing.

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Time for song of the chapter

This time you get a cake!

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you