Hey everyone! Here is chapter 2. I'm sorry about the first problems I had with the coding on chapter 1. Anyways this is slightly shorter but I plan on updating frequently so don't kill me. Please please please review or post ideas and tell me your likes AND dislikes. I want to make this a good story and the more you review and help me out the more I'll post. Love you all

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-Z

Felicity had spent 3 months trying her hardest to cope with Oliver's death. She went to the second foundry that Oliver had set up in case the main one was compromised. She remembered him telling her and John that this was where he went when he needed to really be alone and even though he was gone this was the only place she felt close to him. There was a darkness in her now. Something so deep within that she couldn't imagine a world where she would be the same Felicity she once was. She hated herself but she also hated him. She had been so distraught over Oliver that she couldn't handle loving him anymore. She settled for the next best thing. Hate. She hated him for pulling her into this arrow mess, she hated him for always protecting her, she hated him for pulling away after their date and saying he couldn't be with her, she hated him for telling her he loved her, but most of all, she hated him for promising her that she'd never lose him. She sat down, leaning against the same pillar Dig and she had found Oliver sitting back when Slade had come back.

"I don't know what I'm doing anymore Oliver," she started to talk into space. She found comfort in knowing that he was probably, somehow, listening to her. "I don't know how to love, hate, and miss you at the same time. I tried to move on, I really did. But I'm a wreck and everyone sees it. I tried to bury myself in work but Ray kept making me take time off and refused to let me handle my grief that way. Something about how he's done the same thing before and it didn't help him. I've gone to the foundry a few times, mainly to make sure everything is still the way you left it. I know this isn't what you want but you know what?" Felicity's voice began to increase in volume till she was yelling at the space around her, "I'm done caring about what you want! You wanted to keep me safe by not being with me, you wanted me to just except that we couldn't be together all because why? Because you couldn't handle being the arrow and Oliver Queen? You weren't losing your humanity Oliver! And I wish you could've realized that."

At this point Felicity was yelling and crying and she was tired of it. She pulled out her purse and the small bag of red pills in the side pocket. She carefully downed one and just sat in the dark waiting. Waiting to get a glimpse or one more moment with the man she loved.

"I would give anything to have one more moment with you, Oliver. That's how much I love you."

Oliver woke up drenched in sweat, his heart racing. He had a nightmare, or more like a memory of being stabbed and pushing off that cliff during his battle with Ra's. Diggle came out of his room and reassured Oliver that everything would be okay. He looked at the time. It was 8 am. Not an unreasonable time to begin his day, if only he knew where to start. He knew he wanted to see Felicity but Oliver had never been good at saying how he felt and he knew how gut wrenching seeing her again would be. But Diggle kept saying she wasn't the same girl he left behind so he had no idea what to expect.

"Do you want some coffee Oliver?" Lyla asked.

"Uhm," Oliver was distracted, "yeah that sounds great."

"Man, have I missed you. Let's just get some coffee and food into us and I'll take you to the foundry," Dig said. He was happy to have Oliver back. Shocked in fact because he really had thought they lost him. He had so many questions but he was more nervous than anything. Felicity had gone over the edge and him and Roy had tried to help her but nothing worked. She was smarter than them by far so that worked in her advantage.

Oliver and Diggle finished their breakfast and left the apartment. While they were in the car Oliver had a sudden thought.

"Dig, what did you guys tell Thea?" Oliver knew this would be a good one.

"Yeah I hope you're ready to talk about the Andes because we told her you were backpacking in those mountains. We thought that eventually with enough time, once we knew you were actually gone, we could tell her there had been an accident and you never returned. That way she'd have to knowledge of the league or who you were."

"Smart." Oliver had nothing left in him. He didn't have any questions, he just wanted to see everything for himself.

They walked down the stairs of the foundry. Oliver took everything in. Nothing had changed one bit. He looked around at his arrows, his suit, sat down and took it all in. He saw one change though, he noticed there was a bed in a corner. Felicity. He knew she was the only one who was capable of doing that.

"Dig. Where is she?," Oliver asserted.

"Uhm, give me one second. I used to track her by her cellphone all the time so let me see where she is. Wait a second, that can't be right" Diggle was so confused. "The map is showing that she is here Oliver. Hold on let me call her. Maybe she is upstairs."

Oliver pulled up the cameras to Verdant. There was no sign of her upstairs.

"She isn't up there John!"

John started calling her phone and they heard a faint vibrate. The followed it all the way to the fern Felicity had once got Oliver. And there right next to it was a note and Felicity's phone. Oliver opened the note which read,

Dig and Roy,

Stop tracking me using my phone. If I want to talk I'll find you guys.

I'd say I love you but knowing my luck I'd probably lose you two

if that was the case. I'm sorry it had to be this way.

-F

"I told you she wasn't the same girl you left behind."

"We have to find her John" Oliver said sternly. "I have to fix this"