Hey everyone! Here is chapter 3! Sorry to be a total pain in the butt but I'm not going to post another chapter until I get some more feedback. Love you all.
Felicity was there sitting on the floor looking at an old newspaper article that had Oliver's picture.
"Looks like someone misses me"
She knew that voice and turned her head so quickly till she saw him.
"I never thought I'd see you again" she cried.
"Felicity, I'm always going to be with you. I'm always going to protect you. Even when you can't see me," Oliver reassured her.
In that moment she realized the pills had taken effect. She knew this wasn't the man she loved. This was her memory of him. But she had spent months thinking about everything she'd be willing to give up in order to see him one more time and here they were.
"I don't know what to do Oliver. I'm so mad at you and-"
He cut her off, "—hey. Stop. I'm here. But Felicity you know this isn't a good idea. What you are doing is dangerous. I fought so hard to keep you safe. You need to stop this."
"Listen, you aren't real. You can't be my moral compass now. Just talk to me okay? I just need to hear your voice again."
"What do you want to talk about? We've already exhausted every topic of conversation remember?"
She laughed thinking back to their first date. He didn't realize it but that was the moment when she saw their future. Or at least their possibility of a future. Even if he didn't know it yet, she knew for the both of them.
"Hows work?" he asked.
"I wouldn't know. Ray refuses to let me back yet. He keeps talking about when he lost his fiancée and I just don't know what to say anymore to convince people they don't need to baby me or tell me how to feel. I wish I didn't tell him you were probably dead. He is the only one outside of Dig, Roy, and I that knows. He just knew something was wrong with me." She yawned after that last rant. She wanted nothing more than to keep talking to Oliver but she was exhausted.
"You're tired. When was the last time you slept?"
"I'm not. I'm fine. I want to keep talking," she pleaded with him.
"We can keep talking and lay down at the same time" he seemed so real to her.
She had a couple blankets that she laid out. He sat next to her and she layed down and continued to talk about how the past few months had been. She talked about Thea and Malcom and how she had been trying to keep an eye on them. She even told him about how Diggle finally took Sara into the foundry. As she kept talking her eyes became heavy.
"No, no, no-"she was trying so hard to stay awake.
"Hey you need to sleep. Felicity you can't keep taking these pills. I love you, you know that. Please stop this. I'm always going to be with you."
She shut her eyes and dozed off. This was the first time she had fallen asleep in a few days. She had her rough patches when she couldn't sleep because she would have nightmares of Oliver dying or something along those lines. She got so cold that even the two blankets over her couldn't keep her from shivering. She knew this was one of the potential high risk side effects of the new Vertigo she had taken but she had loved every minute she had spent with Oliver. She needed to see him again. Even if it consumed her.
Diggle had left Oliver in the foundry and told him the new codes to get in. Lyla had called and needed John to watch Sara so she could go in to A.R.G.U.S. Oliver didn't know what was going on with Felicity or what to expect or even what to do. He understood that his disappearance must have been hard on her but he never thought she would lose herself because of him. She kissed Ray, he was so sure she had moved on and had given up on waiting for him. He just couldn't wrap his head around any of it. He took a shower and changed into a new pair of clothes. He stood in front of the mirror and stared at the man in front of him. So much had happened in his life, he didn't think he'd ever be able to let someone in and explain his story until he met Felicity. He realized he couldn't find her on his own and reached for the phone Felicity had left behind. He went through her contacts till her found the one he was looking for.
"Hey, it's me. Yes I am alive. Well now that we've gotten that settled, I need a favor. So you'll meet me at the foundry?" Oliver didn't expect this to be so difficult. Why was this happening? "Okay see you soon. Oh and by the way thanks Barry."
Felicity woke up the next morning. Her head was pounding, she felt nauseous. She knew this was all because of the drug. It had so many risks that she was willing to overlook because of the one thing it allowed her to see. She walked over to the table and took a few more pills. She decided to be productive and go home and take a shower. She grabbed her car keys and reached for her purse which tumbled to the floor. She grabbed as much as she could before she stumbled away not realizing the red pill she left on the ground. She got in the car and started driving home.
"We need to stop meeting like this"
She smiled, "or what? What are you going to do? I have a question."
"Go ahead shoot."
"Did you ever think about our future?" she was scared when she asked him this question.
"I started to. I wasn't sure where we'd go when I saw you and Ray kissing and-"
"-wait! You saw that? Why didn't you ever say anything?"
"You know why Felicity"
"Because you wanted me to be happy," she sighed.
She knew all of this wasn't real. But she was addicted. She needed him and he didn't even know how much. She arrived at her apartment and saw her phone had 30 voicemails. She played the oldest one
"Felicity its John. Just checking in. Shoot me a text or a phone call so I know you're okay."
She deleted the rest knowing they were all the same. She remembered when Oliver left and they became worried because he hadn't come back yet. She sat by her phone every night but now she just wanted to cut herself off from the world.
"You should call him back"
"and you should stop telling me what to do. For my own memory you really are a pain in my ass" she laughed as she started a pot of coffee.
"I just care Felicity. Nice Robin hood poster by the way"
"Thanks. I guess I'm just into that sort of thing."
She went to take a shower. The water felt great. She could feel how wiped out her body was since she started to take the Vertigo but she knew she couldn't stop. She spent 20 minutes sitting in the shower crying. It was the only place she allowed herself to really sob because it was her private place. There was something about the water that soothed her. She got out of the shower and wrapped a towel around herself and sat on the couch only to pass out and succumb to the darkness around her. Felicity Smoak had no idea what she had gotten herself into.
Barry ran over to the foundry and hugged Oliver.
"It's so good to see you Oliver. I have so many questions like-"
"-Barry!" Oliver interrupted, "I'll answer all your questions but I need a favor. Felicity, well she seems to not want to be found and she needs to know I'm alive"
"Oh yeah, Caitlin has been trying to get through to her but Felicity stopped answering our calls about a month ago."
"Well I need to know as much as I can about where she has been and who she has been talking to, anything that you can get off of these computers would be great."
"Yeah its no problem" Barry sprinted to the computers and with his speed was able to produce answers for Oliver in a matter of minutes.
"Shes so smart. She's cleared any memory on this drive. The only thing I can do is track her phone's previous locations within in the past few months."
"That may be all I need. I need to know her most frequented location."
"It appears to be a random warehouse." Barry looked at the map confused. He didnt know why Felicity would be putting herself through this.
"That' not a random warehouse. I know where she is." Oliver smiled to himself as he realized Felicity was at his secondary foundry.
Oliver grabbed his coat.
"Barry? I hate to ask this but do you mind helping me on the computer end for a while until I can find her?"
"Of course, I'll go back home but call me if you need anything and I can do it all from over there."
"Thanks," Oliver stormed upstairs and couldn't wait to be reunited with Felicity.