Erza must've been tired. She was sound asleep right away. She held my hand close to her face. It took me a while to start to fall asleep. I was almost asleep at around 11:00pm.

"Go away..." she mumbled in her sleep, causing me to suddenly become wide awake.

She twitched in her sleep and tears rolled down her face. Her breathing became quick, almost like she was hyperventilating in her sleep.

Using the hand that she wasn't holding, I shook her arm. Her panic stricken eyes opened immediately. She scrambled off her bed, releasing my hand, then paced around the room a couple of times. Eventually, she disappeared into the kitchen.

After a moment of hesitation, I got up and went into the kitchen after her. She was sitting on a chair, hugging herself. Her knees were tucked against her chest, with gee arms tightly wrapped around herself.

"Erza," I started, then realized that she wasn't paying attention.

I walked over and sat down on the chair next to her. Around ten minutes after I had sat down, she looked at me as if I had just gotten there. I expected her to either have another panic attack, or to say she's fine, though it's obvious she isn't.

I got neither reaction. She leaned over and hugged me instead. She carefully pulled herself onto my lap and cuddle against me, her arms still wrapped around me. She closed her eyes and fell fast asleep again.

I was still trying to process what had just happened. After a couple of hours, I stood up, picking Erza up with me and carried her back to her bed. After I set her on the bed, I realized that her arms were still wrapped around me. I carefully picked her back up, then sat on her bed, so she was still cuddled against me. I soon found sleep as well.

(Erza's POV)

When I woke up, I was confused.

Did I fall asleep like this?

I sat up and carefully moved away from Jellal. I shook my head. I didn't fall asleep like that. I remembered falling asleep just holding Jellals hand. Then I remembered my bad dream and my panic attack. I also remembered hugging Jellal, then cuddling against him and falling asleep.

I carefully pulled myself out of bed and went into the bathroom to take a shower. I locked the bathroom door behind me, then turned on the water, but didn't take off my pajamas. I leaned against the wall and actually debated about whether or not I should actually take a shower. I walked over to the shower to check how hot the water was. It was very hot. Like, Hell Hot.

I suddenly felt a pair of arms wrap around me. I froze.

"Hello Erza..." Gray mumbled quietly.

I elbowed him in the stomach, causing him to let go of me, and quickly turned to face him. I requipped into my usual armor and I also took out a magic sword. I'm pretty sure that I heard him mutter 'shit.'

"Go away..." I grumbled.

He suddenly smirked, "Okay, you can say goodbye to Jellal..."

I glared at him, "If you so much as go within one mile of him, unless we're in the guild hall, I will engrave this blade into your heart." I growled.

Gray quickly left through the bathroom window, muttering 'bitch' as he did. I knelt on the ground and cried. I ended up not taking a shower. I just simply turned off the water and sat in the corner of the bathroom, crying.

When I left the bathroom, Jellal was in the kitchen getting a glass of water. I went into the kitchen and sat down at the table.

"You okay?" Jellal asked.

"Yeah... I guess..." I responded.

Jellal frowned and took a sip of his water.

"I didn't forget about last night..." I suddenly stated quietly.

Jellal tilted his head in confusion.

"I've always loved you too." I responded and looked down at my feet.

I wasn't good at expressing my feelings with words. It always felt too weird. I heard Jellal walk over to me. He lifted my head do I was looking at him. He smiled at me, then bent down and kissed me. Again, I felt secure and relieved.

"You were acting strange last night..." he commented after pulling back, "You started to randomly freak out."

"I had a bad dream." I replied.

"Alright. Um.. I need to go check in with Ultear and Meredy, will you be fine here alone?" he asked.

"Yeah, I'll probably go to the guild hall soon anyways." I responded.

He smiled, then put on his cloak and left my home.

I suddenly felt two arms around me.

"Change out of your armor." a rough voice ordered.

"No Gray." I responded.

"Do it. Otherwise, it's not too late to hire someone to take care of Jellal for me..." he chanted.

I froze, causing Gray to laugh. I requipped into sweatpants and a T-shirt.

"That's much better..." he breathed, "You know... I've missed the feel of your body..."

I felt a shiver down my spine.

"Gray, why are you doing this?" I asked weakly.

"Oh, can't it just be because I love your body?" he asked.

"No, there has to be a better reasoning..." I responded quietly.

"Shut up already..." he grumbled.

Gray grabbed me by the waist and pulled me up against his body. He slid his hand up my shirt and rested it on my back, then began to kiss me. I pushed against his chest as he slid his other hand up my shirt and rested it on my stomach. He slowly began to kiss down my neck. Eventually, he got bored and pulled my shirt off of me.

He began kissing down my neck once again. Gray soon came across to my chest. I pulled away out of instinct and crouched down on the ground.

"Quit being such a bitch!" Gray growled loudly.

"No..." I wailed, "No... Enough. Please, stop."

"Oh? But I'm just getting started... I still haven't gotten to the good part." he cooed.

I scooted away from him, but he grabbed my arm and shoved me so I was on my back.

My eyes widened as Gray moved closer, a seductive grin across his face. He knelt down by me, hovering over my 'paralyzed' form.

"Erza..." he muttered.

My fists clenched as strength began to build up inside of me. I wasn't going to let him control me. Not again.

The next moment was a blur. He roughly grabbed my wrists and pinned them against the ground, above my head. Then he moved so he was sitting over me. He had one hand holding my wrists and his other hand was cupping my face.

He slowly took my earlobe into his mouth, suckling and grazing his teeth across it.

I inhaled sharply, biting my lip to stop myself from moaning. I refused to let him take pleasure in what he was doing to me.

"Erza, don't you remember what I said?" his hand slowly released my face. "I am the only one allowed to have you."

I gritted my teeth as Gray's hand harshly gripped my breast. "You disgust me," I growled.

Laughter sounded in my ears, "Oh, my dear Erza. You were never a good liar."

I bit my lower lip as my gaze moved to his lips. His face was mere inches away from mine. I could feel his warm breath against my cheeks. He leaned down and buried his face in the crook of my neck.

"You always smelled so delicious," he whispered against my skin.

His teeth lightly grazed my shoulder, and my body tensed up, anticipation coursing through my veins.

Why is this happening to me? Why is my body reacting this way?

I tightly squeezed my eyes shut.

My eyes grew wide as he grabbed my thigh, wrapping my leg around his waist. He gently kissed a path up my neck before meeting my gaze.

"Tell me Erza. How does this make you feel?" he grinned, as he teasingly slid his hand down my pants.

I closed her eyes and tried to keep my face expressionless. But even though my face may have been as still as stone, the rest of my body betrayed me as it lit up in flames. My pulse quickened and warmth began to build in my lower abdomen.

"Are you done yet? You're wasting my time," I growled through clenched teeth.

His hand paused on my upper thigh, causing me to open my eyes. He was staring at me intently with an unreadable expression. He leaned his face towards mine. His lips barely touched mine, "I haven't even gotten started, Erza Scarlet."

His lips smashed against mine and I struggled against him, groaning in pain. His hand found my core, using his index and middle finger to massage my sensitive clit.

I moaned against his lips as electricity shot through me.

NO. I can't do this!

My body betrayed my thoughts.

"Erza," he muttered against me, "You know you want this, so stop holding back." his tongue lightly grazed my bottom lip.

I closed my eyes, trying to fight back the tears. I wasn't sure what was going on with me, but somewhere along those lines everything got hazy. My body was begging him to touch me, but I WAS holding back.

His fingers quickened against my clit. I threw my head back and cried out. I wasn't sure how much more of this I could take.

"Are you done yet?" he growled, "Are you done holding back?"

His mouth smashed against mine once more, his tongue begging for entry. I moaned against him as his tongue invaded my hot mouth. My lips responded to him, my tongue roughly dancing with his. I wasn't as strong as everyone made me out to be. I tried to be, bit in the end, my body failed me.

His hand released my raw wrists and roughly grabbed her hair. My arms wrapped around his neck and pulled him closer, as I rode his hand. His lips strayed from mine, kissing down my neck to my shoulder. His teeth pierced my flesh. I groaned as white, hot electricity shot through me. My arms tightened around him. I cried out, my body quivering as my orgasm consumed her. My world began to spin, and my vision went hazy.

Gray gently unwrapped my leg from around him and pressed his body completely against mine.

A smile grew on his face as he pressed his lips against my ear, "Tell me Erza. Was I better than that Heavenly Body mage?"

My eyes grew wide. Jellal... Oh God. I gritted my teeth. How could I have been manipulated so easily, again? I was so pathetic. Disgusting.

"No matter, next time won't be as pleasant." he roughly grasped my chin, "And I wouldn't suggest telling anyone else about our little...encounters. We wouldn't want anything to happen to Jellal, now would we?"

My vision began to blur as tears spilled down the sides of my face. The noise of an opening window was drowned out by my cries. I sat up and buried my face in my hands.

"I'm such an idiot..." I whimpered, "A stupid, pathetic, idiot."

Pathetic.

Disgusting.

Stupid.

Weak.

Vulnerable.

I cried into my hands for hours, not once lifting my face.