Chapter 3

Lily's POV

Lily walked out of the library, determined to figure out what was going on with James Potter, the supposed bane of her existence. Why is she going after Potter's friends to find out why he is upset? Lily did not know herself. I shouldn't even care what is going on with that arrogant toe-rag. Its not like I'm upset that he hasn't given me any attention, like, at all. I am NOT one of those girls. I refuse to be.

Lily walked past the numerous portraits and up and down several stairwells till she finally reached the Gryffindor tower. As she walked through the portrait hole, she scanned the crowd of people in search of the troublesome best friends of James Potter. As long as Potter is not with them I will talk to them.

Finally, Lily spotted Sirius and Remus lounging on the best chairs the common room has to offer, thankfully alone. "Remus!" called Lily as she hurriedly walked towards the boys.

Remus and Sirius looked up from whatever they were doing and stared apprehensively at the fast approaching Lily. "Yes, Lily?" Remus spoke in a strained voice, as if talking to her was physically hurting him. What is wrong with all of these boys!? Its like they have something going on that is really ruining their mood. Or someone…

"Remus…and Black," Lily added in an afterthought, "I wanted to ask you what was wrong with Potter. He is in such a state. He barely even talks to me… not that I really noticed or cared. Just…what is wrong?"

Remus sighed and looked at Sirius who shrugged and gave a noncommittal jerk of his head. "Lily…James is acting weird because of you." He paused, as if searching for anything significant in her reaction. Lily was stunned, but concealed her thoughts well, a skill she taught herself when being bullied by her sister, Petunia.

"James," Remus continued, "is trying his best to finally get over you, because that's what you want so badly, isn't it? Just forget him and leave him alone. I think that would be best in this situation. I mean, unless you liked him back… but we all know you hate him…" Remus spoke solemnly.

Sirius snorted loudly, "Yea…sure, she would never like James, no offense, Evans, but you are kind of a stuck-up, know-it all, judgmental person who wouldn't give anyone a chance."

Finally, Lily let some emotion break through her calm mask. Stuck up? Know it all? Judgmental?! "Ex-cuuse me?" Lily blinked, trying to comprehend what just happened. "I admit I can be a stickler for the rules and a know it all… but I am NOT a judgmental person!" Remus looked weary as Sirius began to explain exactly how judgmental Lily Evans was.

"Evans, do you even know James? No. Because you never gave him the chance to show you what type of bloke he is!"

"I know exactly what type of boy Potter is! Hexing first-years and bullying everyone, playing stupid pranks, and starting fights with the Slytherins! Lily's anger bubbled and she wondered why she was even trying to find out what was wrong with an insolent git like Potter.

"I don't know if you noticed, but in the past year James hasn't done any of those things." Remus added. "He hasn't even picked one fight with Snape… He changed, Lily. He grew up. For you. And if you can't see that then you definitely don't deserve him…" With that Remus and Sirius left to their room, leaving a confused Lily standing there, trying to remember the last time Potter did something horrible.

Nothing. I can't think of anything. Anything at all. The last time I can even think of was when Sev-no- Severus called me that name… And I suppose he was trying to defend me. He hasn't done anything to merit any of my insults. Oh my god. I am a terrible person. I AM judgmental! Oh no! what do I do?!

Lily ran up to her room, slammed the door, and flopped onto her bed. With her face buried in her hand in shame, she decided she had to apologize to James Potter. It seems like the right thing to do.

Right when Lily began to feel better did she remember the most significant part of her conversation with Remus and Black. "James is trying his best to finally get over you… He changed, Lily. He grew up. For you."

Lily sat up abruptly, thinking fast, her eyes wide. Wait… he is this upset because of me? He must really like me. A lot. I think I have really misunderstood Pot-James.

With that thought, she landed on her bed with a thud, and tried to go to sleep, trying not to think about all the horrible things she said to James in the past year. Tomorrow. Tomorrow I will apologize.

How will James react when Lily apologizes to him?

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