"I'm sorry for the way I behaved at the hospital… Blaine said wanting to say more but thinking became difficult when you had someone such as Kurt staring at you like you were something to be looked at. "I've felt terrible since, and it didn't help the situation by running away" He finally let out as he tried to remain a sense of coolness but polite charm.
"It's okay," Kurt tried but Blaine shook his head "No Kurt, it's not, we both know it. It was a cowards way out, running like that, you should be spending time with your friends not a lonesome like me and to be frank this was a poor way to say sorry. I can't even afford to buy you a flashy dinner and instead had to suffice for a lousy cup of coffee," Blaine said by waving his hands at the coffee Kurt hardly touch. Simply because he had the most beautiful boy in the world in front of him, who could focus on coffee? Kurt liked the Lima Bean coffee and felt defensive.
"I disagree, I think it's the best cup of coffee in the world," Kurt added trying to steer Blaine away from his negative thinking.
"I'm serious Kurt, you hardly drank it for one…"
"So am I, and don't you think it's up to me to decide whose time I'd rather be wasting with? If I want to spend it with you as my…" Kurt interrupted but stopped when realizing he didn't know what they were.
"What are we Blaine?"
Kurt asked with a wave of hope in his voice and fear mixed in at the same time.
Blaine looked down fidgeting.
"What do you mean?" Blaine asked as though he honestly had no idea what Kurt was talking about, but Kurt knew he knew as well as Kurt did and was just trying to change topics.
Kurt sighed dramatically.
"What are we relationship wise? It isn't just me is it? You did say I was beautiful and you wanted to take me out on a date with your friends the other day, I kind of had the thoughts that we were…boyfriends at least or that I don't know friends with unsexual benefits," Kurt stuttered nerves showing in his shaky voice, Blaine slightly chuckled at the last part but it sounded fake.
"I'd really like to be your boyfriend Kurt, but…"
Kurt felt his heart sink, a 'but' was always a sign that it's not what you think.
"I get it," Blaine looked up. "You do?" Blaine tried to look at his eyes but Kurt was looking anywhere but at Blaine.
Kurt nodded; he didn't really want to have a conversation as to Blaine trying to let him down gently.
"It's fine Blaine really, I would just like to go home now,"
"I'm sorry Kurt, I really love being your friend though. I just think this is for the best," Blaine said sincerely but Kurt had taken his hands back out of Blaine's gentle grip and wasn't looking at him.
"Just take me home Blaine." Kurt snapped.
"Why are you getting angry?" Blaine requested looking somewhat defeated as if he had a right to be defeated. Kurt fumed thinking Blaine must turn down prettier boys than him all the time.
"It's alright for you to be all flirty and make me fall in lo….infatuated by you because you say sweet and innocent things like I'm beautiful, and have guys lining up for me and trying to make me feel better or worth something, just to let me down to boost your own ego because you're beautiful and probably had sex already when I haven't even had a first kiss," Kurt failed to see Blaine's gaping mouth an furious shade of red when he said the word sex as he continued to look furious.
Blaine tried to console him "No Kurt…it isn't…I…"
"No! You don't get a right to try and make me feel better, do you have any idea on how that makes me feel? For once I think a guy likes me, and wants to be with me, and you rub it in my face because I'm not good enough, and I never will be because I'm too girly …or a faggot and that's all I'll ever be in this god forsaken ….town whereas you live in Westerville which probably has a gay school for all I know!"
"Will you shut up!"
Kurt looked taken aback as Blaine stormed up out of his seat grabbing his satchel in a rush looking ready to storm out but faced Kurt first.
"It's all about you? Isn't It?"
Kurt still hadn't said anything, having been sentenced to silent at Blaine's shouting.
He had never talked to him like that before.
"How dare you…how dare you use the word fag..got, on yourself," Blaine stumbled unable to say it "For guys like us, and It's not because I don't think you're good enough, it's because I think I'm not good enough, that your dad is right and that you deserve someone who can afford to buy you nice things and show you of in his big fancy car or fancy clothes,"
Blaine said this by raking his eyes over Kurt's outfit. Kurt wanted to object and say he bought them on ebay half price and his dad worked in a garage but he couldn't speak, the sadness in Blaine's eyes overwhelmed him.
"God Kurt, I've had dates before but never has anyone made me feel the way about you in such a short period of time and it scares the hell out of me. I can't afford myself to be infatuated by you as you say you are by me because what if we do become boyfriends and you move to New York where does that leave me if we did become boyfriends? My mum is all I got left,"
Kurt wished he could comfort Blaine but all he could do was sit and stare still shocked by being yelled at.
"My father doesn't give a damn about me. My brother is never around. I won't have anybody when she dies, they gave her 6 months to live, I'm working my ass of just to pay for her treatment at the hospital, I dropped out of school because people like the bullies you deal with drove me away for calling me that god awful word you called yourself only they called me it every day and bashing me to the point where I had to stay in hospital for 3 months. I had to leave all my friends because I couldn't bare to face them with the truth of what happened. They admired me because I was the school's choir lead. I left school so I didn't have to tell them I got beaten because I was just being myself, when that's what I kept telling them to be as they joined the Warblers. There you have your story of who I am, and for your information I've never had sex, I've never even gone to the point of making out, and after this I don't think I'll be able to. I don't care if i never fall for another guy again especially one so selfish,"
Blaine grabbed his coat and bag and left.
Kurt had stared at the door Blaine left and the empty coffee cup Blaine left on the table feeling sick. He stared for half an hour still not moving except for his mouth which started to sing. Words flew out of his mouth and Kurt didn't move until halfway through the song he looked down to cover his shaking hands.
"I long to see the sunlight in your hair…" Kurt thought of Blaine's gelled up hair and smiled. "And tell you time and time again, how much I care," He pictured the way Blaine smiled at him during Zumba. "Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow….Hello, I've just got to let you know,"
His gaze reached the door wishing he could run after Blaine, like Ross did for Rachel in F.R.I.E.N.D.S his eyes grew sad as he thought of their argument.
"Cause I wonder where you are, and I wonder what you do, Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?" I got beaten because I was just being myself
Kurt closed his eyes are he felt some tears escape.
"Tell me how to win your heart…For I haven't got a clue, But let me start by saying….I love you,"
I don't care If I never fall for another guy again especially one so selfish,
"Wow,"
Kurt bit his lip from making loud choking sounds and hadn't known he was crying until the girl from the counter came over.
"You sang beautifully. Sorry for overhearing, you guys were pretty loud, but just so you know I don't think you're what people call you, my uncle is gay, and I'm sorry things ended up so badly today you guys were cute together,"
Kurt hiccupped and let her hold him but then there was a flash of thunder and he shivered at the sound, realizing it was raining pretty hard.
"Do you want me to give you a lift home, or one my managers?" The nice girl asked and he said no quietly but thanked her.
He then realized Blaine was the only way to get home.
"I hope the coffee wasn't that bad, I apologize it's my fault because I'm new here, I just started today,"
Kurt smiled at that and finally looked at the girl who looked so young and was watching the coffee cup on his table with a frown.
Kurt felt bad for the girl.
"Of course not. I just didn't drink it because well he sort of stole my attention and I really do love the coffee here, I come here a lot, it wasn't bad I promise," The girl beamed.
"Will you let me make you another one since that one must be cold? On the house?" Kurt nodded just so he could make someone smile today. The girl skipped back to the counter and he called his dad.
"Kurt?"
"Dad," Kurt choked and instantly started crying heavily.
"Kurt, what's wrong? It's okay." Burt added as he heard another loud sob on the phone. No it wasn't okay. He hurt Blaine badly and he lost him for good he was sure.
"Can you pick me up at the Lima Bean?"
"What happened?" Burt asked, Kurt didn't feel like repeating it.
"Please just come dad,"
"Alright, you just stay calm Kurt, you're okay kiddo. I'm coming to get you, I'll be there in half an hour, traffics pretty bad, you got company right?"
Yeah, Kurt didn't mention it was a 16 year old girl making him another cup of coffee.
"Yes dad,"
"Good, love you son,"
"You too dad,"
As Kurt waited for his father to pick him up and the coffee was being made his phone rang.
Kurt didn't answer.
He looked out the window and saw a bolt of lightning, and Blaine's angry face showed in his mind.
When the coffee came he saw the door open 20 minutes later and looked up thinking it was Burt but then saw Blaine looking flustered and drenched. Blaine ran over to him.
"Oh my god," Blaine looked relieved as he pulled Kurt out of his seat and hugged him. Kurt would have scolded him for wetting his clothes which still costed a fortune if it wasn't for the fact that he was so glad to have Blaine back.
"I'm sorry!" Blaine sniffed in the crook of Kurt's neck.
"Blaine," Kurt said quietly not wanting to argue again so that's all he said.
"I was supposed to give you a lift, and I was so furious…I was driving so fast and it was pouring rain and I almost collided with a tree, and then it hit me that I left you here, when I wondered why I was driving so fast in the first place. I kept thinking the worst that you would try to walk home in the rain, or your bullies from school would show up and I tried to call you but you didn't answer,"
Kurt felt guilty for ignoring his phone.
"Are you okay?" Kurt asked worried as he looked over only to see a scar on the right side corner of Blaine's forehead feeling guilty because he caused Blaine to speed in the first place. "I bumped my head for breaking so fast but I'm okay," Blaine assured as Kurt reached his hand up to touch it gently and Blaine winced.
"Oh Blaine, I didn't mean to hurt you," He whispered.
"You didn't," Blaine said softly hugging him again.
"Don't try to make what I did right. I was selfish, I had no right to judge you, and I was mad because I wanted you to like me so much and I thought you didn't, and I really care about you," Kurt confessed rubbing Blaine's arm soothing him as the boy was still drenched and shaking from the near accident but holding onto Kurt as though he was a lifeline.
"I care about you too. I'm sorry I yelled at you," Blaine leaned his head on Kurt's shoulder who started playing with Blaine's curls.
"I heard you singing when I got to the carpark," Blaine added smiling warmly at Kurt.
"You sounded lovely," Kurt's heart melted as Blaine embraced him again in another hug. "I guess we'll have to do Lionel Richie for our next lesson in Zumba, because I don't want to forget your voice,"
"Do you have a dance for every song out there?" Kurt laughed as Blaine shrugged.
"I practise a lot at home, you'd be surprised by the amount of videos you can find on youtube,"
Kurt smirked. "Are you sure you aren't going against the law by using those videos,"
Blaine's eyes widened.
"Oh relax. I'm just teasing," Kurt giggled and Blaine ran a hand through his hair blushing bashfully.
"They're so beautiful," Kurt said in awe as he noticed Blaine's curls which was free from the rain. "Can I touch them?" Kurt was glad the girl could tell they needed space and had shouted out earlier she was going to make Blaine a new cup of coffee too as Blaine nodded not speaking when Kurt pushed one curl of Blaine's eyes and their eyes met. He reached his hand up to tug at Blaine's hair. "You should leave it out more often," He said as he played with the curls .
"I really did mean it when I said you were beautiful the other day, I wasn't trying to flirt with you," Blaine told and could see the red in Kurt's eyes from crying before and felt terrible. His singing had also caused himself to stop outside the coffee shop for 10 minutes so he could listen to the angel inside.
"You're beautiful too. I'm sorry about your family," He added quietly and then Blaine's hand reached up to cup his cheek.
"I'd really like to kiss you," Blaine told and Kurt laughed after Blaine stroked his cheek making Blaine smile widely as though he accomplished something by that sound looking like an adorable wet puppy. Kurt thought he'd have to make it up to Blaine as Blaine stared at him.
Thankfully there was no one but the 16 year old girl and the manager in the coffee shop since the older couple left during their shouting.
"I'd like that alot," Kurt replied so Blaine leaned down gently and brushed his lips over Kurt's ever so slightly.
"What the hell is going on here?" A voice called both of them having not see the door open and the sound of the bell go of.
Kurt's eyes flew open after having closed during the brief kiss and looked over to the door.
"Dad! "
I'm sorry if it's a little dramatic but it's just kind of how I write, and I really do love that song by Lionel Richie, I tried to find Hello on Youtube but I could find "All Night Long" if you search Tor Zumba Lionel Richie "All Night Long" by Tor Campbell in youtube