Blaine ushered Kurt inside and Kurt took in the place. It was a mess. Tissues were crumbled up right to the tip of the rubbish bin, and a few were on the floor. The couch that the ladies occasionally sat on while they waited for the others who came late was covered in a blanket that Blaine had obviously been sleeping in as it was not tucked in neatly and it was freezing in the big spacious building. Kurt didn't know how Blaine could sleep there.

Kurt watched as Blaine sighed and shut the door. "Would you uh…like some coffee? I don't have any milk or anything but there is a kitchen upstairs and I have some coffee or tea if you prefer," Blaine rambled but still wasn't looking at Kurt and it took him a while before he turned around as though taking his time to avoid Kurt's talk.

"No thank you," Kurt replied as Blaine rubbed the back of his neck and finally turned around to face Kurt's worried face looking uncomfortable and unsure what to say next.

His curls were free from product and his eyes were filled with dark circles underneath and as he heard Blaine's stomach grumble, Blaine self-consciously put his arms around his stomach as though to hide the noise from Kurt.

He had lost weight Kurt noticed. Kurt reminded himself why he was there and figured he should start the conversation because clearly Blaine was waiting for some sort of comment from Kurt.

"How are you?" He asked eventually even though he knew Blaine wasn't fine.

Blaine blinked; his mouth hanging slightly open in surprise. He looked like a mess and as though he hadn't heard him correctly.

"How am I? Not why did you break up with me, no arguments about why I shouldn't have done what I did? Mercedes keeps texting me to say that you're snapping at people but you just ask how I am, when I'm the one that should be snapped at?" Blaine asked for confirmation sounding disoriented. Kurt shrugged with a half-smile at Blaine but nodded.

"Just because you hurt me, doesn't mean I don't care about your wellbeing Blaine, snapping at people is how I deal with life when I'm hurt,"

He watched as Blaine glanced over him and then at Kurt's lips and closed his eyes as though trying not to think about it. He reopened them and looked at Kurt sadly.

"I miss you Kurt. I'm not happy, but I don't deserve to be not after the way I treated you," Blaine said and he rubbed a tear roughly away from his cheek as though ashamed for crying in front of Kurt as it fell down his cheek and Blaine turned around so Kurt wouldn't see him but Kurt was having none of that.

Kurt reached out for Blaine's hand and turned him around so he would face him and without warning Kurt pressed his lips against Blaine's, feeling his heart mend as Blaine kissed back with as much equal force.

Blaine's hand moved to the back of Kurt's head and tangled in his hair and Kurt just wanted to stay here. He wanted to forget everything that happened and move on with this moment, feeling fireworks and warmth as they kissed but the kiss ended all too soon and they were back to reality.

"I don't understand Blaine what happened, but don't ever for a moment think you don't deserve to be happy, even if we're not together, that's all I want for you,"

Blaine sighed. Before he knew it Blaine was holding him tightly and gave him a kiss just below his ear which made his insides tingle.

"I'm so so sorry," Blaine told.

"Don't think I can't be with you because I think you're too young or because I don't think you're good enough for me," Blaine added as they let go after a few minutes.

"I can't understand why you broke up with me still, it didn't seem rational" Kurt confessed.

"I didn't explain that at the hospital and I'm sorry for making it sound like I didn't mean it when I said I loved you. It's been haunting me since that day when you said 'So much for loving me,' because I do .You move me Kurt, you make me feel connected, safe, and so sure of life when I'm with you; so that isn't the reason why I can't be your boyfriend, you have to understand that,"

Blaine then cupped Kurt's other cheek with his other hand, Kurt started to feel vulnerable under Blaine's touch and Kurt looked into Blaine's eyes to see that they had been crying before as he could see red in them.

"I want you to be happy, honestly I do. I'm not breaking up with you to intentionally hurt you,"

Kurt let out a slight whimper "I just want to be with you," as Blaine gently moved his hand through his hand to feel the softness of his perfectly styled haircut. "I want too Kurt, believe me I do but I think that you have a lot more waiting for you. I'm not in a stable enough condition to give you the best of what I believe you should have; I can barely support myself let alone give you everything you deserve,"

Kurt wanted to scream that he didn't care, that all he wanted was for Blaine to love him but he knew Blaine was also persuaded into his actions because of his families thoughts on the situation and not just because of how he saw himself.

"I wouldn't care even if you were homeless Blaine and when it comes to your family it's obviously me that your mother has an issue with and I'd rather be the one that gets hurt than it be you, so in a way even though I'm not happy about not being with you and even though it hurt like a bitch to be told you didn't think we should be us anymore; I'm not that kind of guy who'll stand in the way even though I would have liked my first boyfriend who I care deeply about to give us more of a try but if this is what you want than I won't force you to change your mind."

"You're not in the way," Blaine disagreed but that didn't make Kurt feel any better.

"Maybe one day I will find someone else, they may not be my first boyfriend or my first kiss, but I might get a first well you know with them and maybe that person will be my soulmate.." at this Blaine's face looked distraught and Kurt sort of smiled to see that Blaine didn't want to think about Kurt with other people.

"Maybe I won't ever find someone else, but I hope someday someone can make you happy in the way which will make you want to fight so that your family isn't taking control of your own happiness, and don't let our break up stop you from finding that special person until then…" Kurt brushed a curl from Blaine's right eye.

"Don't lose yourself along the way okay? I can see you haven't been taking care of yourself but you need to take care of yourself. Eat. Sleep, go out with friends, can you promise me?"

Blaine didn't answer.

"Blaine…Please, promise me you'll be okay,"

Blaine sighed. "I'll try,"

Kurt wasn't too satisfied with that answer but secretly he thought to himself that he'll just check up with Cooper on how he's going.

"I don't think we should see each other for a while, because I'm not going to lie but seeing you will hurt, thinking about what could be, " Kurt gave a watery smile.

Kurt pressed his lips against Blaine's cheek lingering there for a while. "I'm never saying goodbye to you. I meant it too when I said I love you Blaine. You've got a heart made of gold which anybody would be lucky to be able to share it with. You know where to find me, if you ever change your mind,"

Blaine looked like he was about to cry and Kurt couldn't stand there anymore. He squeezed Blaine's hand. "I suppose we have to learn to live without each other again, we did it once before…" Kurt then held his head up high as he walked to the door never looked back; because if he did, he knew he wouldn't be able to keep it in any longer and as Kurt got in his car and drove away. Both boys broke down and cried.

Author Note: I realize I've taken so long to update and I'm so sorry thanks for the person via Tumblr who reminded me that I must update. I'll try write more. I've been under so much work load you would not believe it. Another chapter will be coming soon, and more dancing videos too. Don't give up on the Zumba classes yet or our boys (hint hint)