Chapter 17

Wow I've been gone for a while, I'm so sorry guys I'm a dick, I know. But I wasn't about to stop writing, I had so much going on but I decided to update anyway I promise the next chapter will not take this long to be up I'm so sorry guys!

"I'm going to kill you," Jack growled at his brother who was smirking at him.

"Oh Jack don't say things you don't mean." James chuckled as he brought the ice cream to his lips and licked it, "Are you sure you don't want some?" James asked offering Jack the ice cream, Jack let out another growl before reaching over and grabbing the ice cream out of James' hand and throwing it on the ground. James let out an audible gasp as he looked down at the ruined ice cream, "My ice cream." He sighed as his eyes darted back up to Jack, "Now that was just," James was interrupted by Jack's fist. Jack aimed right for his jaw; James staggered back a little from the force of the punch, he reached for his jaw to check if it was broken but before he could reach Jack punched him again. James staggered back again as another punch hit him, Jack's fist were hard and full of the anger he was feeling, Jack grabbed James by the collar of his shirt pulling him close to him. "Fuck your ice cream." Jack growled before kneeing his brother in the stomach, "Fuck your stupid group." Jack cursed before punching his brother again, "Fuck Pitch," he growled upper cutting his brother, "and mostly Fuck you." He spat pushing letting his brother fall to the floor; he kicked his stomach one last time as James began to laugh.

"Wasn't that fun, Jack?" James laughed, "I know how long you've been wanting to do that." He chuckled rolling on his back, "Why did you stop?" he asked still laughing, Jack stared down at his brother and turned away walking towards the room Baby Tooth ran into. Jack walked up to Baby Tooth who was playing with some of Emma's old dolls, he lifted her up in her arms and gave her a warm smile, "Baby Tooth I need you to do me a big favor and call your sister for me, okay?" he asked, Baby Tooth nodded happily as he handed her his phone, "I need you to tell her you are okay and I'm with you and I need you to tell her to bring Bunny to this address," he said pulling out a piece of paper with the address to the cabin, "I also need you to tell her I am very sorry for this." Baby Tooth nodded before kissing Jack on the cheek.

"She'll forgive you, Jack." Baby Tooth assured, "Tooth always says people deserve to be forgiven." She said before Jack but her down.

"Some people do," Jack mumbled as he tousled her hair, "Now go on and call her, I'll be with Jack one, don't come out of this room unless I tell you to okay?" Jack said, Baby Tooth nodded again as she typed in her sister's number into Jack's phone. Jack sighed as he walked out of the room and closed the door behind him; James was sitting against the wall on the opposite side of the room smirking at Jack as he held his stomach.

"What are you going to do, Jack?" James asked staring intently at his brother.

"Nothing," Jack answered sitting down in front of his brother, "I'm not going to do anything to you." Jack continued reaching into his sweater pocket and pulling out the black horse Aster gave him, "Pitch used to call these his fearling right?" Jack asked staring down at the horse.

"Or Nightmares," James said trying to figure out what his brother was planning.

"He used to call his followers that too, right?" Jack asked his eyes slightly shifting to catch his brother's, "His nightmares, his fearling?" he questioned.

"What are you playing at, Jackson?" James asked curiously seeing a mischievous smile run across Jack's face for just a second.

"I'm not playing at anything, I'm just asking." Jack chuckled putting the horse between them, "Remember when you first met Pitch he was the owner of some thrift shop and it was raining and you were mad at me so you ran inside to get away from me and he gave you his trench coat because you looked cold."

"Yeah, I remember." James said his eyes shifting to the horse, "It was the day I stopped feeling so alone, I finally found someone who understood me." He explained reaching over to grab the toy horse. Jack chuckled as he stood up and walked over to the wall James was sitting against and sitting down next to his brother.

"I don't think that's true." Jack sighed grabbing the horse right out of James' hands, "I think you were just lonely and angry so Pitch took advantage of that." Jack sighed.

"That's not true." James spat turning to Jack, "Pitch only had the best intentions in mind for me."

"Was it him?" Jack asked, James looked at his brother with a confused expression before Jack sighed, "Was it him who told you I loved Emma more than I loved you?" Jack asked James was a little taken back by his sudden question; James turned away from his brother and stared at the ground.

"I could see it," James muttered, "You always wanted to be around her, you always wanted to play with her, you always liked her best." James muttered still staring at the floor, "Pitch just made it even more clear, how much you rather be with her than with me, he just made me see it better." James continued, "Pitch told me if I wanted things to go back to the way things were before Emma was around I had to get rid of her." James explained his voice shaking slightly.

"Is that why you let her drown?" Jack asked, an uncomfortable silence feel between the brothers as the question hung in the air.

"Yes," James admitted, "when I saw you and her in the water I knew I could save both of you but Pitch's words were still in my head," James continued his eyes shifting towards Jack who was listening intently, "I just wanted my brother back," James let out in an almost whimper, "but I didn't want to lose Emma either," James continued, "when I realized what I was doing I tried to save her I really did, I spend almost an hour just pounding on her chest trying to wake her up, Dad was the one who finally pulled me off her and took you and called the police." James said as tears streamed down his voice he wiped one of his tears away as he turned away from his brother again, "When I realized what I did, I told Pitch and he was proud of me, he told me I had something great in me something people should fear, and then you wanted to be around me more and more and I figured I did something right." James chuckled dryly, "Then you started drinking and Pitch started talking about really terrible things and I realized what I really did and I just didn't want to lose anyone anymore, so I kept doing what Pitch told me to." James sighed, "I'm a monster Jack." James whimpered out, Jack stared his brother, he knew how good of an actor his brother could be but even during his best acting he couldn't cry but there he was whimpering and crying. Jack didn't know what he was feeling; he knew the brother he remembered from before Emma died was still in there somewhere under the monster James became. Jack stood up and grabbed his brother by his collar forcing him to his feet and he hugged him tightly.

"I don't hate you, James." Jack said still hugging his brother, "I never hated you." He sighed as James began to cry like baby into his shoulder. "I forgive you." Jack said finally feeling a burden fall off his shoulders. James cried even harder as he hugged his brother back.

"I'm so sorry, Jack." James' cried digging his face deeper into his brother's shoulder as his body began to shake furiously, "I'm so fucking sorry," he continued, "everything I've done, the person I became I'm so sorry I couldn't save Emma," he cried clutching his brother as his he would disappear if he let go of him, "I'm a monster, I'm a fucking monster." He cried. Jack held his trembling brother patting his back as he cried. Baby Tooth ran out of the room she was playing in and ran towards the two brothers hugging James by the leg trying to comfort him as well, James only cried more when he turned to see the little girl. James let go of Jack and went on his knees to hug Baby Tooth, she began to pet his head whispering "It's okay, I forgive you, it's okay." Over and over into the man's ear which just made James hug the mall girl tighter. Jack felt tears begin to run down his cheeks as he put his hand on his brother's head tousling his hair slightly.

I hope you guys like this chapter, I thought about it a lot. I love you guys I'm so sorry it's so late. I promise it will not take this long for the next chapter to be up!