This story makes Naruto sound Sadistic, and a Masochist, but love him anyway!
Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN NARUTO, SASUKE, AND MASASHI KISHIMOTO DO. LUCKY THEM. =)
Warnings: Mature material coming up. I don't know when, but soon. Maybe once I figure out how to publish this stuff better. CUTTING, YAOI, SASUNARUSASU, VIOLENCE, LANGUAGE, ETC.
This is my first fanfic ever, so please be nice, and if I do not update that much, it's because my parents are always online. Also, I am old enough to be writing what I do. Do not think otherwise. Thank you. =) I got inspired by my friend ABBY!!!!!! Thanks ABBY this stories for you!
Chapter 1
Why did he feel this way? Why did he constantly have to do this to himself just to feel alive? He couldn't stand the hurt in people's eyes when they found out that he had failed, again. It hurt him too much to see Sakura choking back tears and telling him that he did the best he could do, and there was always a next time. He hated seeing all of his mentors and friends see him as the same old Naruto, that couldn't do anything right, and would never be able to earn the respect of the village. So, this is what it comes down to. Naruto Uzumaki is cutting himself to pay for his sins.
He couldn't help it. He figured that he would rather cut himself, and torture himself, than takt the easy way out and commit suicide. He WANTED to suffer for what he had caused. He had to. For the sake of his sanity, and his well being.
No, Naruto didn't tell his friends that he was hurting himself just to pay for their suffering. He couldn't do that. It might push him over the edge if they found out.
Here, Naruto is sitting in his bathroom, contemplating whether he should just kill himself and take the easy way out or the hard way, for the millionth time in the past 5 years. he knew he couldn't kill himself, he decided. That would be taking the easy way out of things. He took Cutter, his kunai knife, used especially for this, and made a short gash on his arm. He stared at the blood running down his arm and was deciding whether or not to stop the bleeding, or let it run dry. He choose the latter. He then took Cutter again, and used it to continue the gash into the familiar 'S' shape it had been accustomed to carving. As he finished the 'S', he started on the 'A'. Naruto could clearly see where he was supposed to cut next. He had scars upon scars to lead him the way. Each time he cut the name, he had gotten better and better at writing that name on his arm, and each time he liked it more and more.
Naruto watched as the blood dripped out onto the bathroom floor as the feeling of dizziness and nausea wash over him. As he watched the last of the blood drip out and fall on the floor, Naruto fell to the floor unconscious.