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I sat there in my hospital bed confused with all that just happened. Edward was just here, he just kissed me and told me he loved me. I could still taste him and my lips and smell his incredible smell. Surely he couldn't mean that he loved me? How did he know what had happened? Why did he even care? Why would he come here just so he could leave and break my heart all over again?

I couldn't just sit here and let Edward run out on me again, I needed answers, I needed to get out of this hospital. Just as I was looking down at my hands trying to figure out how to take out my IV, the door to my room opened and Charlie walked in.

"Bella, you are awake. Thank God! What the hell were you thinking? What has gotten into? You never take prescription drugs even when you are supposed to, and since when do you drink?" Charlie was rambling on. Did he think I was just took the pills for a high? Did he not realize that I was trying to kill myself?

"Bella I need some answers, what has gotten into you? You are very lucky that hiker found you."

A hiker? I knew after my recent encounter with Edward that it was not a hiker who had found me, it was Edward. That is when I started freaking out knowing Edward was just here, then left me all over again.

"Edward! He was just here, he came back. I have to get out of here, get me out of here. Please, I need to see Edward." I said beginning to cry. It was all hitting me and hitting me hard at that. I needed out of this hospital, I couldn't stay here and let Edward leave me again. Not without some answers this time.

"Bella, what the hell are you talking about. Edward isn't here, he hasn't come back. What is going on with you? Edward and the rest of the Cullen's left two years ago with out so much as a phone call or a letter since. You need to get over him Bella, he is gone."

"No, No, No!" I screamed. I was hysterical at this point. "Edward was just here Dad, he was here when I woke up. He is back, I know he is, I know I didn't imagine this. Now get me out of here now!"

At this point I was losing it and ripping the tape that held my IV to my arm off. The heart monitor was beeping faster then was probably safe for my heart to beat.

"Bella please calm….." Charlie didn't get the chance to finish cause just then the door to my room opened and very familiar face walked in.

"What in the world are you doing here?" Charlie asked, his face turning red.

"Charlie, there will be time for explanations later. Right now we need to get Bella calmed down before she does something drastic." Carlisle said walking over to me. "Bella, you need to calm down, this isn't good for you, you have gone through a lot and your not doing yourself any good by getting yourself all worked up."

I was hyperventilating by this point. I couldn't see straight and I felt like I was about to pass out.

"So if you are here does that mean Edward is back too? Is that why she is all upset?" Charlie asked trying to remain as calm as he could, but failing miserably.

"Yes." Was all Carlisle said.

"I need to get out of here now Dad. Get me out of here, I can't be here please I want to go home now!" I screamed at him.

"Carlisle, I want to take my daughter home. Please remove all these tubes and wires, she is not staying here any longer." Charlie said very firmly.

"Charlie, I don't think that is such a good idea. Bella needs to stay here so we can keep an eye on her for a little while." Carlisle said very calmly.

"No, no I need to leave now!" I ripped the IV out of my hand. It hurt, but I tried to ignore the pain. I moved up to the wires connected to my chest before Carlisle firmly put his cold hand on mine.

"Bella, what are you doing? You made yourself bleed. If you want to leave that bad I will unhook all of this for you. I need to look at your hand now too, you may have done some damage to your vain by yanking the IV out like that." He said looking at the blood pouring from my hand. He pushed a button on my bed while applying pressure to my new wound in my hand.

"How can I help you Miss Swan?" Said a woman's voice coming from the speaker attached to the bed.

"This is Dr. Cullen. Can you please get Miss Swans discharge paper work together please? I will send out Chief Swan to sign everything."

"Certainly Dr. Cullen." Said the woman.

"I am not leaving her, not like this. Look how distraught she is thanks to you and that boy of yours. She was doing better, you should have stayed away."

"Charlie, the sooner the paper work gets signed the sooner you can get Bella home. She needs some time to calm down and I think I can calm her." Carlisle said so confidant it was hard to not believe him. "She will be fine."

I looked at Charlie and shook my head telling him that I would be fine without him. I was still crying and shaking a bit, but I needed to talk to Carlisle.

Charlie hesitated looking between Carlisle and I before he walked out the door. I looked at Carlisle trying to figure out what I wanted to say.

"Bella." He said before I could say anything. "I am not sure why you did what you did. For your sake I told Charlie as well as wrote in your records that you took the Vicodin for recreational purposes. I really think however that you need to get some help. I know.."

"Wait, back up, why did you come back to Forks?" I asked interrupting him.

Carlisle hesitated and looked down at my now bandaged hand. "Alice had a vision a few days ago. The vision changed as you changed your plans, but she saw you write the note to Charlie and that was enough to rush down here to stop you from making a huge mistake."

"Shit, the note to Charlie, I left it on the kitchen table for him to find it. He is going to know that I didn't take those Vicodin for the fun of it."

"The note has been taken care of Bella, Charlie will never know." Carlisle said. He looked like he wasn't sure that was the right thing to do however.

"Where were you?" I asked as Carlisle pulled off the sticky things attached to my chest. They must have been for the heart monitor cause as soon as they were off the monitor made a flat line.

Carlisle turned the machine off then sat on the edge of my bed. "We were in Alaska. At first just Alice was going to come. She didn't tell anyone what she had seen and she was just going to sneak off, but she slipped up and Edward saw her thoughts. He took off before anyone could stop him. Alice and I left just shortly after, the rest of the family is here now as well."

"Are you planning on staying?" I asked not sure if I wanted to know the answer.

"Esme and I are. I am sure Alice and Jasper will as well." He said. He didn't mention the one person I wanted to know the most about. That probably meant he was going to leave again.

As if her were reading my mind Carlisle said, "Bella, I can't speak for Edward, but I want you to know that Esme and I are here for you. It was very hard on us to leave you behind, we think of you as a daughter. We regret ever leaving you and never should have listened to Edward, it was a mistake on my part and for that I am truly sorry."

"Thanks Carlisle. This is a lot for me to take in right now, I just need to go home and clear my head."

"Of course Bella. Go home and get some rest, you have been through a lot. Remember I am here for you though if you need to talk more."

Just then Charlie came in with a wheel chair. Carlisle tried to help me out of the bed but Charlie insisted he had me.

"I have a lot of respect for you Carlisle, but I want you all to stay away from Bella. She has been though enough thanks to your son, I don't want to see her get hurt again, I don't think I could stand watching her go through all that again." Charlie said as he set me into the wheel chair.

"As you wish Charlie." Was all Carlisle said.

Carlisle looked at me with compassion and sympathy, I couldn't stand it so I just looked away. Charlie wheeled me out of the room and out of the hospital. He awkwardly helped me into the cruiser and took me home. to my surprise my truck was in front of my house.

"Dad, how did you get my truck home?" I asked confused on why it was there.

"What do you mean Bells? It's been here the whole time. Where else would it be?" He asked looking confused.

"Oh I guess I am just out of it. I thought I had left it somewhere else." I said knowing exactly who brought it here.

"Bella, do you remember anything? The hiker found you just a little ways into the woods behind our house." Charlie said getting out of the car.

"Uh, it is still a bit fuzzy, I am sure it will all come back to me soon." As soon as I talk to Edward that is, I thought to myself.

Charlie helped me out of the cruiser and up to my room.

"Try to get some rest Bella ok." He said as he walked out of my room. Then he shut my door and left me to my thoughts. Thank God he is a man of little words. I really needed to be alone and didn't need him hovering me.

I hadn't realized I was still in the hospital gown. I must have forgotten to take it off with everything going on, how embarrassing. I decided I wanted to take a shower, I felt pretty funky and I wanted to get the hospital smell off me. I really hated the way the hospital smelled and I didn't want any reminders of being there.

I grabbed my bag of toiletries and headed to the bathroom, I turned on the water and made it as hot as I could stand it. I just stood there for a long time letting the hot water relax my muscles, while my mind whirled with thoughts and emotions.

The Cullen's were back, well at least Carlisle, Esme and maybe Alice and Jasper. Alice had been my best friend before they left, she didn't even call me or write to tell me goodbye or to let me know how she was doing. She hurt me too, not as much as Edward had, but that didn't matter, she was supposed to be my best friend and she just left me. I know she only did it for Edward, but it still hurt.

Carlisle had said that he and Esme thought of me as a daughter, but what did that matter if Edward didn't love me. I couldn't be around them without Edward, that would really hurt. Of course I still cared about the Cullen's even if they did leave me. They left me cause Edward had asked them too. They were a close family, of course they would have done as he asked.

What about Edward? Why would he be back here? Why would he care so much if I killed myself? He left me, he didn't want me anymore. He left me behind because he didn't love me, he was bored with me, I was just another boring insignifigant human.

I hated him for leaving me, I hated him for all the pain he caused me. He took everything with him when he left, my best friend, my family and my future. He left me in ruins. He needs to know what he did to me, he needs to understand that I am not going to allow him to do that to me again.

At this point I was so angry I was ready to tell him off. I wanted to tell him I hated him and that I never wanted to see him again. I wasn't going to put myself through this again, he did too much damage and he needed to hear it.

I had been so wrapped up in all my thoughts that I didn't notice the water turn cold. Cold, just like Edward. Just like the way he left me, cold and broken. I knew I needed to go see him so I hurried and washed up. I dried as fast as I could and ran to my room to throw and jeans and a t-shirt. I put on my shoes and ran a brush threw my hair, I put it up in a messy pony tail not caring that I looked like crap.

I ran down stairs planning not to say anything to Charlie, I didn't want him to try and stop me. Charlie was laying on the couch watching a game so I ran for the door and was outside before he even realized what I was doing. I decided to take my motorcycle, it would be faster just in case Charlie decided to try and follow me.

I was on it and heading down the driveway just as Charlie had stepped out side. I raced to the highway that would take me to the Cullen's house. Part of me hoped he would be there, while the other prayed he wouldn't be.

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