Here is chapter 7. Hope you like. I feel like I have writers block. LOL I had a heard time getting this where I wanted it.
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I saw Jake walk out of the house. I took a deep breath to calm myself. This has been a very long day.
"Hey Bells, Hi Charlie." Jake said as he walked towards us.
"Jake, Bella has been through a lot today, you be easy on her do you understand me?" Charlie said sternly as he walked in the house.
"Yes Sir." Jake said politely.
Charlie shut the door behind him and I was left to face Jake by myself. I wasn't sure what to say to him. Should I tell him the Cullen's are back? Do I tell him I tried to kill myself? How much did he already know?
I barely got all my thoughts out when Jake spoke. "So Bells, Billy told me that you were in the hospital for taking to many pills and drinking, is that true?"
"Yes." Was I could get out while I stared at my feet. I couldn't look at him. I was ashamed of myself for doing what I did, but I also knew how much it would hurt if I did look at him.
"Why would you do that Bella? That isn't like you, I know you better then that. Were you trying to hurt yourself?"
Of course he knew me better than anyone else knew me. I am sure he would see right through me if I tried to lie, so I decided to be honest with him.
"Yes Jake, I was trying to kill myself. Does that make you happy?" I said looking him straight in the eye. Of course it hurt just like I knew it would to look him in the eyes, but I tried to hide it the best I could so he wouldn't see it.
"Why the hell would that make me happy Bella? Why would you do that, are you crazy. Do you know what that would do to me? Do you know how much that would kill Charlie. Why would you do that to us?" Jake asked trying to control his shaking.
"What I would do to you? Are you serious Jake? Do you know what you did to me, do you? So why should I care what I would do to you. Edward may have broken me, but you finished me off. There is only so much heart break I can take in one life time and I had it all." I was screaming now, shaking and trying to keep the tears from falling. Who cares what I would do to him. Of course I cared about Charlie but he would have been better off without having to worry about me.
"Speaking of Edward, your house reeks of vampire. Come to think about it." He paused took a big sniff towards me, then continued. "You stink of leeches too. Is there something you want to tell me Bella?"
"No Jake, not really. It is none of your business. You lost any right to me when you imprinted and left me for that girl! Who or what I smell like is none of your business." I told him the same way I told Edward he had no right as well.
"I think I have a right to know if the bloodsuckers are back. I need to tell the rest of the pack, they have to know too. We will have to pull back to the treaty line. This changes everything. We have to be more alert and we have to protect the tribe."
"Protect the tribe from who, the Cullen's? Please Jake, you know as well as I do they are harmless. Well except for breaking hearts."
"Are you taking him back?" Jake simply asked. I could see the pain in his eyes at the thought of me with Edward, but really it didn't matter. He left me for another girl. I don't care if it was cause he imprinted or not, it still hurt.
"That is none of your business Jake." I said. I had no idea what I planned to do. I know Edward said he loved me, but I didn't know if I even believed him. I don't know if I could ever trust him again. I had a lot to think about.
"Bella, I care about you. I don't want to see you get hurt again. He left you once, he can do it again. Then what will you do, try and kill yourself again?" Jake asked me critically.
"Jake, you hurt me too. Maybe not as bad as Edward had when he left, but on top of what Edward did it destroyed what heart I had left. You have know right to talk to me and be critical of me, you left me too. I don't have you any more either, I have no one." I said tears rolling down my cheeks.
"Bella, I am still here. I am still your best friend. I will always be here for you and I will always love you. Maybe not how I loved you before, but I still love you. I am sorry for everything I have done to you, I am sorry for hurting you and having to break your heart. That was the last thing I ever wanted to do to you. I am sorry that this is who I am. I still want you in my life Bella. I can't not have you in my life. I need you just as much as you need me." Jake said walking towards me.
"I am so sick of hearing everyone apologizing about who they are. Who you are is no reason to break my heart Jake. Who you are has nothing to do with this. You dumped me for another girl. You let this happen. I can't just sit around watching you with someone else, I can't be you best friend. It just hurts to much and I can't do that to myself any more. I am sorry Jake, but I just don't think I can be in your life. Not right now. It is just too painful. I am sorry too." I said taking a step backwards towards the back yard away from Jake. I was trying hard not to lose it in front of Jake. I didn't want him to see me like that. I would wait till I was up in my room alone to let everything out.
"What are you saying Bella, you don't want to see me anymore? Because we can't be together you would simply rather not have me in you life at all, is that what you really want, never to see me again? Jake said tearing up.
It hurt me to know I was hurting him, but I had to do what was best for me right now. I had to move on and I couldn't if Jake was going to be in my life."
All I could say was "Yes."
"So what, you are going to go back to your bloodsucker? Have him change you to be just like him, a leech. Is that what you are going to do Bella?"
"Yeah Jake, maybe I will just to piss you off. What do you think about that?"
"If you become like him it will be as though you died to me Bella. I would rather you just die then have you be a bloodsucker. Oh and of course you can't forget the treaty. If they turn you into a leech, they have broken the treaty and the pact will be broken with the Cullen's." Jake said visibly shaking. He took another step towards me and I again took a step back close to the back yard. I knew he was going to lose his control soon, but I didn't care I was angry.
"Well Jake, I am sorry I disappointed you today when you found out I failed at killing myself. I know how much you were looking forward to not having me to worry about any more. Trust me I tried to kill myself correctly, but apparently I just suck at everything I do. Maybe tonight I will try again, maybe I will succeed or maybe I will call my leech friends and have them just do the job for me. They don't need to even change me. I'll just take death at this point put me out of my misery. How about that Jake, then you won't have to wish I were dead, I really would be." I felt like I was going to collapse. I was so hurt and angry. I hated Jake so much at that moment. I wanted to scream, I wanted to run and never look back. I noticed Jake and he was shaking even harder than I thought possible. I knew he was going to phase if he didn't calm down, I didn't care. He started backing up towards the forest and this time I followed him. I had more to say.
"You dumped me Jake, and no matter what I chose to do with my life from here on out, you have no say in it. If I want to be a vampire, than I will be a vampire. If I decided to become a witch or join the NRA or jump off a cliff or date Satan himself, you can never tell me I can't." I knew I was pushing Jake over the edge and I new I should back off but I don't know what came over me. He had pushed me over the edge and now he was going to hear it. I took another step closer.
"I am so sick of everyone thinking they have some claim on Bella. No one owns me and no one has any right to tell me what to do anymore. Not even Charlie and especially not you Jacob Black. So if you would rather I am dead fine, think of me as dead. Don't bother to ever call me, write me or try to see me again. I never want to see you again. You don't have to worry about me any more. So go on and live your happily ever after with Savannah. I will be dead to you since you would rather have it that way ." We were to the forest line and I could tell Jake was about to phase.
I didn't hear anyone approach so when He spoke I nearly jumped out of my skin.
"Bella, back up slowly and go into the house now.' Edward said pushing me behind him.
I stood there stunned not knowing what to say.
"Now!" Edward growled.
"No! I am not going anywhere." I said. I was so sick of everyone telling me what to do.
"What the hell are you doing here leech?" Jacob said trying to control his shaking.
"Jacob, you need to leave now before you hurt Bella. Don't do anything stupid. Go and try to calm down now." Edward said. He was in a protective crouch in front of me. I was still stunned that he was here. Why was he here?
"I would never hurt Bella." Jake managed to get out. He wasn't calming down at all however and I knew it was just a matter of time before he phased. I was afraid he and Edward were going to get in a fight and I knew that wouldn't be good.
"It seems you already have Jake" Edward said with a sneer.
"Jake, just go." I said trying to keep my voice steady. "Go calm down, we can talk about this later."
"Oh and just leave you here with the bloodsucker. Like that is any safer. Do you know what you did to her when you left leech?" Jake said looking Edward dead in the eyes. Edward staggered backwards and I could see the pain in his face.
"Jake stop doing that to Edward now. This isn't about him right now, it is about you and I." I said walking towards him. I knew he had just remembered the pain he saw me in after Edward left so that Edward would see it too in Jakes thoughts.
"Bella, get back behind me now." Edward demanded.
"Oh shut up Edward, Jake wouldn't hurt me. Well not physically at least." I said walking closer to Jake. "Please Jake, just go home and calm down. A lot was said that we really didn't mean."
"Oh well it seems Jake here meant everything he said." Edward said in a growl.
That set Jake off and he started to phase. He lost all control. Edward was about to pounce but before I knew it 3 massive werewolves came through the trees and knocked Jake to the ground. Edward jumped in front of me again pushing me back behind him. The wolves dragged Jake into the forest. He thrashing and fighting them the whole time until I couldn't see them any more. They were gone, all I could hear were growls and snaps fading as the disappeared.
I was afraid someone was going to get hurt. I didn't know what to do, I was frozen in the spot I stood unable to move. I was shaking and sobbing. I felt my legs give out from beneath me. Before I could hit the ground two strong arms wrapped around my waste to support me.
I looked over and saw Edward looking at me while supporting my weight. Why was he here anyway?
"Bella, are you ok?" Edward asked his gold eyes burning into mine.
"Yeah, I am fine. What are you doing here?"
"Alice said your future disappeared and was afraid that you did something stupid again. I wanted to make sure you were ok. It appears however, that Alice just can't see the wolves. That explains a lot." He said with half a grin on his face as though something amused him. I didn't get it.
"What do you mean my future disappeared?" I asked "Why can't she see the wolves?"
"Well my theory is, and I am sure Carlisle will have one as well, but I believe it is because they are too unstable, too unpredictable. Their futures can change so quickly so it is hard to know what they are going to do and when you are with them, she can't see you either."
"Oh." Was all I managed to say.
"You should go inside. Charlie is wondering where you are. I don't think if he would be too happy if he were to come out here right now and find me here." Edward said with his crooked grin. It still didn't reach his eyes though. He was still looking at with his beautiful molten gold eyes. I still couldn't believe here was here, but I had a lot I had to think about. I wasn't sure what I planned to do about him. I needed to be alone.
Once I regained my composure I spoke. "Right, I am pretty tried anyway. I think I am going to go to bed early. It has been a very long day.
"That sounds like a good idea." Edward said walking me towards my house. "Bella, before you go, I want you to know I am sorry for everything I did to you. I am sorry for hurting it. It was the worst mistake of my existence to leave you. I hope that you can forgive."
I just shook my head yes not promising anything and headed towards the front door.
"Oh and Bella, I love you." Edward said then disappeared behind my house before I could say anything.
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