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I walked into the house and Charlie was laying on the couch asleep. No wonder he didn't hear any of that. He was out to the world. I didn't want to wake him, for one I didn't want to answer any of his questions and also, I am sure he really hadn't got much sleep lately, so I just headed straight up to my room.

I noticed once I got into my room that the sun was starting to set. I kicked off my shoes and just crawled into bed. I didn't even have the energy to change my clothes. I was very tired, but I also had so much I needed to think about.

So much happened today I don't even know where to begin. My thoughts were spinning so fast in my head I couldn't sort them fast enough. First, I tried and failed at killing myself. I wasn't sure how I felt about that, especially knowing Edward and the rest of the Cullen's were back. How did I feel about them being back? I got butterflies in my stomach just thinking about Edward. I did love him so much still, that hasn't changed in the last two years. I just wasn't sure if I could trust him.

I wanted to trust him. There was a big part of me that wanted everything to just go right back to the way it was before he left, but would it ever be the same? Would I ever fully trust him with my whole heart again? I was so angry with him for putting me through that all for the sake of trying to protect me. If that is true that changes everything I had been thinking over the last two years.

When Edward left, I was under the impression that he left because he no longer loved me. He told me he didn't want me any more and I believed he was bored with me. Now he says that those were all lies only to protect me from what he was. Again with blaming everything on what he was. I was really getting annoyed with that.

I knew I still loved Edward, I knew I wanted to forgive him more than anything, but there were things standing in the way. He was still a vampire and I was still a weak human. If Edward wanted to be with me again, he would have to change me. I wasn't going to let him back in my life, back into my heart knowing he could leave me again to keep me safe, I wouldn't allow that. He would have to change me.

I wonder if he would go for that? He wouldn't like that ultimatum too much but if he truly loved me and wanted me, this is something he would do.

I continued thinking for a little bit longer. I planned on going to the Cullen's house in the morning to talk to Edward. I knew I loved him and now that he was back, as much as I hated him for leaving, I loved him even more and I couldn't lose him again. Besides, he said he loved me too. With that last thought I drifted off to sleep.

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I woke up with a start. It was really dark in my room and I couldn't see anything. I wasn't sure what woke me but I had a feeling I wasn't alone. I reached over to turn on my bedside light when I heard his voice.

"Bella, it is just me. I am sorry to have woken you, I just missed watching you sleep. I was going to leave before you woke up. I really am sorry." Edwards velvet voice said. My eyes hadn't adjusted and I still couldn't see him.

"I will just go now, go back to sleep Bella."

"Edward, wait. Please don't go." I said as I turned on the light.

Edward was standing next to the window. He looked breath taking standing there. I really had missed him.

I sat up and I patted on my bed telling Edward to sit with me.

He sat down next to me on my bed. It took me a minute to collect my thoughts, I just couldn't believe that he was here.

"Alice said you were going to come over in the morning. She said you wanted to talk to me, but that was all she would say. I was hoping maybe you would be sleep talking and I could get something out of you that way so I wouldn't have to wait till morning." He said running his hand through his hair nervously.

I blushed of course at the mention of me sleep talking and looked down away from his gaze.

"Yes, Alice was correct, I was going to come see you in the morning to talk to you, but I am glad you are here now."

"Bella, I want to apologize to you for everything I did." He started to say.

I cut him off. "Edward, I don't want to hear it. I don't need to hear any more apologizes. I am done with them. I have made my decision and that is all there is too it. "

"Oh, I see. Well I better let you get back to sleep then. I won't bother you any more." Edward said as he started to get up off the bed.

"Edward, sit back down please and just let me talk." I demanded.

"Oh, ok I am sorry." He sat back down on the bed.

"Seriously, stop apologizing--for everything. Edward, I forgive and I love you too, I always have and I don't think that I ever will stop."

"Really, so will you take me back? Please Bella, tell me you will have me, I want you to be mine again, I can't live without you, I need you Bella, you mean everything to me. These last two years have literally been hell for me and for my family. They all miss you too, but I have missed you the most. I will never hurt you again if you will please take me back." Edward said pleading. I almost thought he was going to drop to his knees and beg me. That would have gotten interesting.

"Edward, I can't live without you. I have tried to living without you these last two years and I was miserable. I can't go through that again, I have to know that you will never leave me again for my own good. I need some guarantee's." I said looking deep into his eyes.

"Anything Bella. I will do anything for you."

"Change me Edward. I want to be like you. It is the only way we will ever work."

"Absolutely not! I will not do that to you. I am not going to kill you Bella." He got up and started pacing the room.

"It is the only way Edward and you know it. It is the only way for us to be together. I am to fragile as a human and you know it. You wouldn't have to worry about me anymore if I was like you." I argued.

"Bella, I can't, I won't do that to you." He said not even stopping to look at me.

"Then I am sorry Edward, then we can't be together." I said tears starting to flow.

"So that's it, change you or nothing?"

"Yes." was all I can say.

He paced back and forth for what seemed like forever. Thinking I am sure about what to do.

"Get up, put your shoes on." Edward said throwing my shoes at me.

"Where are we going?" I asked as I put them on.

"Back to my house." He said as he pulled me onto his back the way he used to carry me when he ran with me.

"Why?" I asked

"You will find out soon enough." He jumped out my window and started running towards his house. It was a nice night, not too cool. It felt good to be running with Edward again, I really did miss this.

We got to his house faster then I ever remembered it taking. He helped me off his back and opened the door for me. None of the other Cullen's were around. He led me up stairs to his room. I was surprised when I walked in and all his stuff was there like he never left. These vampires never ceased to amaze me.

Edward walked to his closet and pulled something out. I couldn't see what it was. He came back over to me and stood right in front of me looking down into my eyes, mesmerizing me with his butterscotch eyes.

"So you will only take me back if I change you, is that correct?" He asked.

"Yes, that is correct." I was clearly confused at where he was going with this. Was he going to change me right here, right now?

"Fine, I will change you, but I have one request first." He said with a huge grin forming on his face.

"Ok, what's your request?" I asked nervously. I couldn't imagine what he would want from me.

Edward got down on one knee. He looked up into my eyes and pulled out what he had gotten from the closet.

"Isabella Marie Swan, will you do me the honor of becoming my wife for the rest of eternity?" He looking intently into my eyes as he dazzled me with his own eyes. I was shocked and didn't know what to say. We looked at each other for a long minute. I knew what it was like to live without him and I never wanted to have to go through that again. If marrying Edward meant I got to spend the rest of eternity with him I would do it.

"Yes, I will marry you Edward." I said with tears streaming down my face.

I heard an excited squeal from somewhere in the house I knew was Alice.

Edward stood up and put the ring on my finger. It was beautiful. So intricate with gold and diamonds. It was one of the most beautiful things I had ever seen, next to Edward of course.

"The ring was my mothers that I had inherited after she died. I have several pieces from her that I would love for you to have. I have given some to Esme and Alice already, but I want you to have the rest if you would like." He said pulling me into his arms.

"Edward it is beautiful, thank you. I love you so much, I am so happy you came back to me. Thank you for saving me again." I said though sobs. I laid my head on Edwards cold chest. Everything felt perfect at that moment.

"I should have never left. I am so sorry Bella, I don't know how, but somehow I will make it all up to you." He said stroking my hair.

"Edward, you just did make it up to me. I will never forget this moment. I can't wait to spend eternity with you."

"Come on, lets go tell the family the good news, they are going to be thrilled to have you join the family Bella."

"Just one thing first." I stood up on my tip toes so my lips were even with his. Before I got the chance to lay my lips on his, he had his on my ravishing them as he never had before. I twisted my hands into his hair, running my tongue over his cool smooth lips. He opened his mouth slightly and let me gain access. I took in every bit of him devouring him as he did me. I never wanted to stop kissing him. It had been too long since I had him in my arms. He was mine again and I never wanted to let go. Sooner than I would have liked however, Edward pulled away leaving me gasping for air.

"Come on love, lets not get too carried away yet, we have all eternity for that. The family is waiting for us downstairs." He picked me up and cradled me bridal style and took me down stairs where the family was waiting with huge grins on their faces. I looked up at Edward and he too and the biggest smile I had ever seen on him. I couldn't help but laugh.

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