I DON'T OWN ANYTHING JUST THE PLOT STEPHINIE MEYER OWNS TWILIGHT!
Chapter 4
We drove for such a long time and I couldn't remember anything we had left behind. I had a feeling where we were going but I didn't know if he would really take me there. It had been months and I could still see the meadow clearly in my head as we drove down the oh so familiar road toward the trees I looked at him with surprise. For once he was staring at the road, with anger and concern on his face. We got there and we got out and started walking.
Even though we hadn't done this in a while we were still so intone to each others sense we both knew where we were going without saying a single word. We got to the meadow and I sate Indian style in the middle as he came and laid a few feet away and was pinching the bridge of his nose.
I couldn't stand it anymore I had to do something he probably hated me right now and only took me here one last time to tell me what we both knew. It was over and I couldn't have him back.
"Edward, whatever Lauren said about my sisters' conversation with me must be a lie. I know we are friends and that we only can be that. We both know that it was never good to be friends though. I guess we should just stop talking to each other all together. I can see if Rose will switch partners with me in Biology and Emmett can be your partner. In English we can just start sitting on different sides of the room…" I was talking so fast I couldn't even stop when I finally did I just sat there and pulled my knees up and rested my head on them as I wrapped my arms around my calves.
"I…am…" I looked at him and he was at such a loss for words I was speechless. "…confused."
"Well…Edward it's simple I know after this that Lauren won't let me 100 yards near you. So we just can't be friends anymore…It's what's best." I put my head back down knowing I shouldn't say anything more. "I just wish……oh never mind."
"Bella I once heard that if there is a bad taste in your mouth you should spit it out, not swallow it back." I looked at him and he was sincere. " Bella you should know that after Alice gave me your note I was heart broken and couldn't even fathom why you could do that to me." He was pinching the bridge of his nose again. " I know you think you don't deserve me I understand that from the letter." He then took out that damned letter from his pocket.
"Why would you keep it?"
"Because it was the last time I remember you loving me."
"You're with Lauren now. I can not be the way of that…honestly, My intentions were for you to get over me and you have and that's great but I have to deal with my decisions."
He looked at me and it looked as if he was going to cry. I didn't understand at all. He loved Lauren now not me why would he feel the urge to cry if he didn't….I understood. He looked at me and I started to sob again. He came over to were I was and sat before me and wrapped his legs around me. I stood up and walked a few feet away. He followed me and grabbed my arm as if I was going to run away.
"Bella, I never stopped loving you I can't. No matter if we're done or not."
"Then how could you be going out with Lauren why couldn't you wait for me to get over my weakness. I had nightmares of when I wrote that letter and the day you missed school because of me. All because of me It would replay my life just to mock me."
He looked into my eyes and said," Lauren told me that you said you said you loved me with all your heart…Is this true? Do you still love me after I ignored you for months? Have you loved me ever?"
All I could mutter was "always." His lips were on mine before I could breath. He put his fingers in my hair and I could feel him pressing himself to me with so much more strength than I remembered. I put my hands to his face memorizing. I had gone to long with out his touch. I felt whole again. His hands when to the small in my back. I pulled him to me knowing that I could only have this for a little longer before I would lose him to Lauren.
We finally took a breath and I looked into his eyes and he gave me another kiss that lingered. "What about Lauren?" He looked amused. "Lauren never meant anything to me at all."
"Then why were you going out with her?"
"Well….because she is the closest thing I could get to being somewhere near you."
"What?"
"I know it's was stupid. But I had to make you think I had moved one. But, now it doesn't matter we're together and that's what counts."
With that he kissed me again more passionately than ever and swept me off of my feet and spun me around in circles like we used to. "Edward, I love you so much."
"Bella, I love you more than life." He gave me another lingering kiss and dazzled me once more. "We should get back to campus before they send the search dogs out."
"Right, what are going to do about Lauren?"
"I'll take care of that in the morning…but Emmett and Jasper promised me that Rose and Alice would be gone out of your room all night. So we could catch up."