Okay, this one's kind of…weird. There's an outtake of New Moon on Stephenie Meyer's website, the one talking about the scholarship, so I kind of…continued on it? IDK. Here it is.
Bella's POV:
After I had thrown the money through the window, I thought that would be the last of it. Unless one of them came back and saw it on the floor, he would never know where it had gone, and I would only have to deal with the 'allowance'. I knew right were it was going too, right through my new drive-up drop box.
A week after my act of vandalism, I saw another box on the porch. It couldn't be from him; he had told Mrs. Gerandy that the scholarship was monthly. Maybe my mom had found something she'd forgotten to tell me about. When I was close enough to see the return address, I thought I was going to be sick.
Pacific Northwest Trust. Those three simple words brought on so many overwhelming emotions. Why was he doing this? He didn't want contact with me at all; did he think I was too stupid to figure out who Isaac Randall really was? I knew the answer before I'd finished the thought. Of course he did. They all did. I was just a weak, clumsy, stupid human plaything to them. My attention went back to the box. I wondered how he explained himself this time.
Miss Swan,
We have been notified that your scholarship was delivered to the wrong address. Please accept our apologies, and an extra $5000 for your inconvenience.
Sincerely,
Isaac Randall
Was he kidding? He really expected me to believe that? That house was abandoned; there was no way he could know that I put it there, unless….one of my earlier theories came to the front of my mind. Unless one of them came back, then he would know. Wait, I told myself. Could I really bear seeing any of them again, especially if it was E…him? If they knew I was there, or knew that they were there, they would leave and really never come back. If I saw them, and they left again, would I go back into my coma-like state? Once again, my mind answered for me. Of course I would go, no matter what the risk, to see them one last time, to apologize for causing them so much trouble. No matter how much it hurt me, no matter if it would truly be the last time I saw any of them. I had to go, even if it was Emmett, or Alice, Carlisle or Esme…hell, I'd go if it were Jasper or Rosalie. I didn't care. I needed to see them. But, how would I know when they would be there? I'd have to move there! Suddenly, that thought didn't seem so crazy. Maybe I was crazy. Maybe my mind had finally snapped. But, it was the only surefire way to make sure I didn't miss them. How would I deal with Charlie? It wasn't like I could waltz downstairs and tell him, "Oh, by the way, I've decided to move into my ex-vampire-family's abandoned house, because I think they're secretly coming back and I'm going to stake it out until I see them again."
I could leave a letter, and hope they would come see me one last time. That sounded like a reasonable plan. But what would I say? I decided to take the opportunity that I'd been denied to say goodbye.
To whichever one of you finds this,
I know you came back because of the damn scholarship. Tell him I don't want it. Look, I know you don't really care, but I wanted a chance to actually say goodbye. Even though the feeling wasn't mutual, I love all of you. What's not to love? Alice, the sister I never had, and my best friend. I would gladly take one of your makeovers if it meant spending time with you again, and you know that's saying a lot. Emmett, my big teddy bear, I miss you beyond words. You always made me smile, no matter how down I was. I will love you for eternity for that, even though it doesn't mean the same thing for us now. Rosalie, you were the only one who didn't try to hide your family's feelings for me. I still can't figure out why everyone else did. Thank you, Rose. Jasper-don't beat yourself up for what happened. I've forgiven you, and your family must be pretty happy with you for giving them an excuse to leave the stupid, clumsy, weak human. I bet you're all happy now. Good. I'm sincerely glad you're happy. Esme, I think you might not have hated me, because I don't think you're capable of hate. Who knows, I endangered your family enough for you to have good reason to. And, Carlisle, I'm sorry for all the times I fell and you had to waste your time fixing me. I'm sure that had to be really annoying. Guess you're glad you don't have to do it anymore. Edward, what can I say, other than I love you more than anything else in this world, or in any other one. I know you hate me, you all do, but I do love you, with all my heart. I'm so sorry, for everything. Goodbye.
I had tears running down my face as I finished the letter. I had never consciously come to terms with all of them loathing me. I sealed the envelope, and drove to the empty house. The window was fixed-they had been here today. I slid the letter under the door, put the box on the step, and walked away from everything I had loved the most in this world. It was over, they wouldn't come back, and neither would I. I would try to do what Edward had told me to do, and move on. There was no point in holding on to something I'd lost forever.
Okay, I have some more chapters I could post, but I need to know if this is too out there to continue. R&R, please?