Sorry I suck so bad at updating....college does that to me I guess. MY BAD!! MY TOTAL BAD! I know its short, I'm sorrrrryyyyyy

A few hours later, Edward and were laying on the couch in peaceful silence. He was tracing slow, lazy circles on my back and I was as comfortable as I had ever been. But something was bothering me; what were we? Edward and I have been friends for years, but tonight we had shared an earth-shattering, mind blowingly wonderful kiss….what did this mean?!! I wanted to just relax and be happy about it, but I just couldn't. Edward must have noticed that I was fidgeting, because he stopped moving his fingers, and sat up.

"Bella, what's wrong?" He asked me, looking worried.

I sighed. "It's just …Edward, we've been best friends for as long as I can remember, and now we're kissing…what are doing?"

He looked down for a minute, not speaking. He was making me nervous to be honest, and I hoped desperately that he would say something. After a minute, he took my hand and looked me in the eyes. He took a shaky breath and slowly started to talk.

"Bella, I don't know how to say this."

Oh god. He didn't feel the same, I knew it. That kiss was a mistake, he regrets the whole thing oh my god! I must have stopped breathing while he said this, because he looked at me, concerned.

"Bella, please breathe. If you pass out while I'm saying this I'm gonna be so pissed". He teased.

I laughed. "Sorry, I'll try to remember. "

"As I was saying, I've been trying to talk to you about this for awhile, but every time I try I just get too nervous and wimp out on it." He laughed lightly, but I could tell he was getting nervous.

"Edward it's alright, you can tell me anything, you know that."

He sighed. "I've been trying to tell you for the past few weeks. It's been going on for much longer, but ever since we came to college, and we've been separated such long periods of time…I can't take it anymore. Every time I leave and go back to school, I regret not telling you all week until I see you again and start all over! "

Now it was my turn to be nervous. What was he talking about anyway? Did he know how I felt? Was all of this just pity? God, if Alice knew what I was thinking she would slap me for being so negative.

"Edward, just tell me, you're starting to make me nervous. My breathing skills aren't very good you know."

"I want us to be more than friends Bella, I've wanted that for so long. I love being your friend; spending time with you, laughing at your absurd jokes, catching you when you fall, everything. But I want so much more with you- I want to be the one to kiss you, brush the hair out of your eyes, fall asleep with you in my arms. "

"I want that too." I said quietly. I was so happy that I started to cry. He wiped the tears from my cheeks and whispered softly, "Will you be my girlfriend, Bella?" I nodded and cried harder. He kissed me, hard, and my arms went around his neck, pulling him closer.

We spent the next hour just kissing and talking about our favorite memories. I didn't want this night to end, but as usual, his school decided to get in the way. He had to be back for curfew, like he was Cinderella or something. As soon as he said he had to go, I had to make fun of him.

"What, is your carriage going to turn back into a pumpkin or something?" I teased.

" No, smarty pants, but they will lock me out and make me do push ups until my arms fall off." He said, getting up off of the couch.

"Oh, just your arms? Well that's ok you don't really need those." I said, pulling him back onto the couch.

"Oh yeah? And how would I do this without them?" He wrapped one arm around my waist, and put his other hand under my shirt, his fingers brushing my skin ever so lightly. "Or this?" His fingers brushed over my breast, and my breathing hitched.

"I guess you can keep them then." I conceded.

"That's what I thought." he said smugly.