ok so i sucK and i know it! im so sorry for not updating and i wish i could give you a better excuse than i had writers block but sadly that's all it was! Again im so sorry but ive got the next ch. half written. You guys have been so gr8 that i will try to get that up by tonight or tomorrow consider it a reward an apology for ur absolute gr8ness!

I'll shut up now so you can read! And please review even if you just want to yell at me!

BROOKE POV

We didn't even make it to the front door before clothes started coming off. It had been so long since I'd felt his touch, so intimate so pure and yet filled with so much pent up passion and emotion. Lucas fumbled for his keys in his pocket and after a good 5 minutes finally somehow managed to get the key in the lock and open the door. We waste no time as he kicks the door shut with his foot never once leaving the warmth of my skin. Hands roam everywhere remembering the contours of each other's body, every dip every curve every muscle. To say i was in a state of pure bliss and ecstasty would have been an understatment. He couldn't even make a complete sentence as he left wet sloppy kisses on every inch of my neck."you..me..bed..now"lucas commanded. My eyes widened in shock. Never once since I had known him had I heard him talk like that. When we were together he would be the one to whisper sweet nothings in my ear, pull me into his arms and lead me into the bedroom. I was always the more forceful one the one in control. but now I can't help but think how things have changed how the roles have reserved. Lucas fumbles for my jacket but became fustrated with the buttons so without even hesitating he ripped it right off of me. I gasp again in shock, and he smirks down at me while I do. He grabbed my hips hard and picks me up. I instinctively wrap my legs around his middle. I dON'T know what has gotten into this boy, but whatever it is, I can't say I'm not enjoying it. He presses me against the wall, his mouth travels lower, exploring ever contour of my stomach. I roll my head back in pleasure, enjoying the feel of this beautiful man's gifted lips. "Okay enough of that" I say bringing his lips back to my mouth.

LUCAS POV

"Okay enough of that" she pants out pulling my lips from that perfect stomach of hers.

There is nothing like tasting her. Nothing in this world is better to me, than her lips pressed to mine, our bodies molding into one. "You..me..bed..now" I saw her face look at me in shock when I said this, and I myself am shocked, I've never talked to her like that. I know she's wondering what has gotten into me, but I honestly don't know. All I know is that I haven't touched her like this in 5 years, and my hunger for her is driving me to do and say things I never thought I could or would. Her tongue teases my bottom lip, her teeth nibbling on it, begging for access and I eagerly allow it.
To say I was in a state of pure bliss and ecstasty would have been an understatment.

With her still in my arms I lead her to my bedroom. She laughs into my lips as I hit a side table. God I love that laugh. God that's going to leave a bruise, but as her hands start to expertly unbotton my shirt, I could have had a concussion and I wouldn't have cared less. I finally make it to my door, silently thanking the Lord up above that it was open, thanking him for not letting me have to leave the solace and the comfort of those lips.

She wiggles out of my arms and stands in the middle of my room. She slowly slides her jeans down her legs and I have to bite my lip to keep from grabbing her and having my way with her right then and there.

I've prayed for this night ever since we broke up, and I don't just mean about sleeping with her, feeling her warm body against mine. No, I've wanted that forever too, but just having her here in my room this close to me is a dream come true. And as she holds out her hand shyly to me, ive never seen her look so beautiful so incredibly cute and childlike. I feel like this is all a dream, an amazing dream "Are you really here" i find myself asking as I take her hand. She smiles and nods and I take that as a good sign. She leads me to the bed and I still can't believe that she's in my room let alone in my bed. I rub her cheek for a moment until she reaches up and kisses me square on the mouth. I roll her onto her back and kiss her right below the ear. I wondered if that was still her weak spot and when a groan escapes her mouth I can't help but smile, it still is.
"Mmmm, I've wanted this for so long" I say trailing my fingers over the curve of her hip.
"Yeah" she breathes out, leaving kisses down my collarbone. I breathe in deeply trying to regain control over my body. She is the only woman i have ever known that has this much control over me. I'd probably jump off a bridge if she asked me to. Suddenly she looks up at me and I brush my hands through her soft brown hair, fingering the ends.
"Are you sure about this? She doesn't answer, instead pressing her lips to mine. I run my hands up her back hesitating as I reached her bra. She looked at me and smirked and I smiled back. "Woah this is a first. Since when does Lucas Scott hesitate to undo a bra? I remember one year in high school you looked at it and it popped off"
I chuckled and shook my head. "Well I guess I just have an effect on them." She just laughs back and I can't help but realize the momentousness of this moment.
"No but seriously, I just want this to be perfect for you. I don't want to rush this"
"Well I think we've waited long enough" she says reaching for my belt." I slip out of my pants and she straddles my leg and turns us over, her on top, 'Apparently the roles have gone back to normal' I think chuckling to myself

BOOM BOOM BOOM

Suddenly the lightning strikes through the window, the thunder rumbling.
"Ahhh" Brooke screams and before I can catch her she's falling off the bed.
"Pretty girl" I immediately scramble to her side of the bed. "Are you okay"
"Ow" she says bringing a hand to her head. "Yeah I'm fine, the thunder just scared me" She puts her head down and even though I can't see her I know her cheeks have turned a darker shade of pink. "God that was embarrasing" she muttered.
"Hey it's okay pretty girl" I rub her arm. "Let me just get the light"
I stumble in the dark to the light switch and turn it on. The light immediately envelopes us. I adjust my eyes to the light, and turn around to walk over to her, but my feet become halted as I see her face. "Brooke"

BROOKE'S POV

"Brooke" he says concerned and suddenly the feeling of embarrasment is replaced with utter shock and fear as reality hits me at what I was about to do. I look around his room and suddenly a million memories come rushing back.

"I want to know everything about you. And I want you to know...almost everything about me."

"Are you breaking up with me?"
"I just think it's the best thing for right now"

"I'd miss the girl behind the red door"
"You did all this for me"
"I wasn't ready to lose you yet."

"Tell me that was a goodbye kiss"
"I want to be with you Brooke "

"I missed you too pretty girl"

"There are 82 letters in here, all addressed to you. I wrote them all in the summer... But I never sent them to you because I was afraid..."

"We're together now. That means everything to me"
"Have I told you how much I love you today"
"Not really"

"I just wish you could rescue me." "Ok then, I will...If you promise to rescue me back"
"I promise"

"It shouldn't be like this Lucas"
"Brooke.."

"I'm sorry I can't do this anymore."

"Brooke"

I'm brought out of my thoughts by his voice. I look up at him and he's standing in nothing but his boxers. I almost laugh at the irony of the situation. In high school this was an everyday thing. Hell one of us if not both were usually half naked, but at this particular moment i've never felt so self concious.

I wrap my arms around my body as he hesitantly walks over to me.

LUCAS' POV

She wraps her arms tight around her body and I can't contain myself anymore as I hesitantly kneel in front of her. Her face is even paler up close. I touch her cheek and I feel her flinch and pull away, my stomach drops.
"Brooke look at me" I say lifting up her chin so I can see her face. She looks right at me but I can tell she is not really seeing me, she's in a completely different world entirely. She pulls out of my arms and is suddenly reaching for her clothes that had been haphazrdly scattered. She pulls on her shirt and I help her stand up but she pulls away, slipping on her jeans. "I'm fine Lucas." she doesn't even look at me as she says "I've gotta go"
"Brooke" she closes the door and walks out. I kick the bed and run my hands through my head in frustration, I let her go again. I lean against the door, trying to catch my breathe. All I could think was 'what the hell just happend.'

BROOKE'S POV

I ran out of there so quick and didn't even turn around when he said my name. I had to get out of there. I felt like I was suffocating from all the memories. I walked out the front door. I exhale deeply and lean against the door. The only thing i could think was what the hell just happened.

Ok so did you really think I wouldn't leave you without a lil angst? Sorry guys but stick in there. This is a brucas story but they still have many things to hash out!

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Til next time, which want be too long! You guys rock my polka dotted ninja socks:)