Chapter 6
Previously...
"Bella, what is going on?" an amused voice whispered behind me, taking me by surprise. I was most diffidently not expecting that voice to be here and quickly turned around gasping at what I saw.
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"Carlisle! I didn't expect you to come... I thought you had to work!" I said, excited wrapping my arms around my father-in-law.
"Good to see you too Bella! The hospital let me off early when they heard that it was your birthday. Mike Newton said that he would cover for me when I asked... god, he's like a puppy dog, he'll do whatever I asked." he laughed "Happy Birthday." I smiled.
"Oh!" I exclaimed quickly remembering Carlisle's original question. "The family was playing soccer and Tyler fell, scraping his knee and he's bleeding... everyone is making a big deal out of it."
"Ahhhh. I should go check that out then." he said walking towards the craziness. After a couple seconds, I followed.
"Tyler let me look at your knee!" Carlisle exclaimed, completely shocked that his grandson was refusing his help.
"I downt want anywon touchin my boo-boo!!"
"Honey, please let grandpa look at the boo-boo!" Rosalie begged
"NO!! ONLY uncle Edward can help my boo-boo!! HES THE OWNY DOTOR I WIKE!!" he screamed at the top of his lungs. Everyone stopped what they were doing and looked at Tyler. Noticing our expressions he teared up.
"Where's Uncle Edward?" he asked looking at everyone.
"Awnty Belwa, where's Uncle Edward? He's not here..." he whispered tears brimming his eyes threatening to fall. I slowly walked toward him, tears in my own eyes also threatening to fall. I couldn't show the others how I feel. If I cry, they'll know that I'm about to fall apart at the seams with the single mention of his name.
"Sweetie, Uncle Edward", my voice came out strangled, " is... he's... he's at work. He's staying at work for a couple of um... months." I whispered, my voice cracking toward the end.
"Why he stayin there for soooo long? Don't you miss him?"
"Yes honey. Every second of everyday." I was about to collapse and everyone knew it.
"Then why cant we goe and visit him?"
"Tyler, he's in meetings all the time so we can't. Now, stop bothering Aunt Bella and let grandpa put a band-aide on your knee okay?" Jasper stated saving me another chance of breaking. I smiled weakly up at my brother in law.
"Thanks." I muttered quietly while walking away from my family.
"Bella..." I heard Alice and Rose whisper behind me.
"I'll be back... I just need some time... I promise I be okay..." The footsteps ceased and I was alone walking into the mansion. After I was sure nobody was watching I ran up the staircase and into Edward's room. Nothing had been touched since he moved out and everything smelled like him. I laid on the bed burying my head into his pillow, remembering every waking moment that I was with Edward. Fist kiss... first hug... first everything. All these memories flooded my mind as I cried. I cried because of the memories. I cried because I missed him. I cried for my Edward. I needed him. I'm incomplete without him here and I need his support. It's not like he's really away on business... he's in the middle of nowhere and I cant even see him. Rose, Emmett, Alice and Jasper don't understand what I'm feeling right now. I know that they try but, they have each other. Even Carlisle and Esme don't totally feel the same way. They feel their own pain. Pain for losing their son. For me, its pain in losing my husband. My other half. The father of my child. I never know what is happening to him and I don't ever know if he 's all right. For all I know he could be lying on his death bed, wishing for me. Telling his closest buddy to give me a letter explaining how much he loves me and my unborn child. How much he cared for us and how much he missed us. How sorry he is for doing this to me, the babies, to Carlisle, to Esme, Alice, Jasper, Rosalie, Emmett and little Tyler. I don't think I would be able to bear with him being gone forever. I shouldn't of ever let him go. He shouldn't have gone through with this. If he get hurt it'll be all my fault. How will I—
"Bella?" someone asked breaking me out of my thoughts. I looked up to see Alice, Esme, Rose and my mom standing in the doorway.
"Mom?" I whispered, still crying. They all came and sat on my bed, saying and doing nothing. My mom whispered soothing words and rubbed my back, letting me cry.
"Oh mom, I'm ruining your shirt." I stated wiping me eyes. They all just laughed, but I could see the sorrow in their eyes. They all felt sorry for me and I felt sorry for myself.
"Mom, when did you get here?" I asked trying to lighten the mood.
"Oh... I got here about twenty minutes ago. Alice told me what happened and we let you be by yourself for a while. It seems like that really the first time you've really thought about it in a while."
"I'm just mad at myself for letting him go. If anything happens to him it'll be my fault. I could have prevented him from going and and and..." I trailed off.
"Sweetie, there's nothing to me mad about. It was his decision and he did what he thought was best for you and him. This may have been the only way he could show how much he loved you in his mind, to protect you no matter the cost." my mother whispered. I could hear the others in the room agreeing with my mother's words.
"And Bella, he would have gone anyways. You know him. Once he sets something in his mind, he will do whatever it takes to fulfill that desire, want, or wish. You name it. He would have done it." Esme added. There were tears in her eyes as well as everyone else's. I needed to stop this sad fest.
"Okay guys, can we go back downstairs now... I want to celebrate my birthday with my family smiling... not crying. Besides, he wouldn't want me worrying over this. He'd want me to enjoy myself... I'm not getting any younger." I laughed.
"Oh. Great, not I feel old." my mother mumbled causing us all to burst out giggling.
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"Pass the bread Bella!" Emmett asked why laughing at Jasper who was covered in mashed potatoes. Tyler decided to throw a handful at him from his highchair. Most diffidently Emmett's son.
"Ooooo! Bella. I picked out the color of the wedding. It's going to be blue's and silver, and it's going to be winter themed since it's going to be in January. The bridesmaids dresses are going to be dark blue and their going to look ah-maz-ing!" Alice giggled.
"I also picked out Tyler's suit and all the guys' suits as well. The flowers are going to be beautiful... the whole entire rooms going to be covered in flowers and I'm going to get these table pieces that—" Alice's explanation was cut short by the phone ringing.
"I'll get it!" Esme stated getting up from the table. Alice continued, "Okay, well the center pieces are going to be silver candle holders with dark-blue candles and blue flowers around them. It's going to look perfect! I was wondering, should I get them in different sizes or all the same size. I'm not sure yet so... what do you guys think?"
"Alice, you should probably do the same size because if you do different sizes it will throw the room off balance." my mother exclaimed.
"I agree or people may think that they are less important then others... its like in school if a kid gets a different colored paper they will be upset because they think that they are less important then the other kid." I interjected, "Alice, also—"
"Bella? It's for you." Esme said extending the phone towards me. She looked relieved and sad at the same time. Slowly I brought the phone up to my ear and asked the question.
"Hello?"
"Bella, it's Edward." That's when I broke down into tears.