A/N: Okay guys. Just to let you know, Bella is now 4 months along, everythings going great. I'm going to splitting POV's midway because I think its important for that to happen. I know that many people don't like when the writers do that but trust me, it is completely necessary in order for this story to start moving along. On with the read...
Chapter 8
BPOV
"Bella! We HAVE to go shopping!" Alice said barging through my front door. Whoever's idea it was to give Alice a key to my house, was seriously not thinking straight. When Alice receives a key she thinks of it as an open invitation to barge into your life in as many ways as possible, some good some horrible. This case sadly, was the worse it gets. Shopping. You know how I said whoever gave Alice a key was mistaken, whoever gave Alice a credit card that couldn't be maxed out and used on ANYTHING in the mall was insane. She probably has spent enough money in her lifetime on shoes alone that could pay for somebody's car three times over.
"UGH!" I groaned laying my head down on my desk. I had been correcting papers all night and I still had more to do.
"Oh Beeeeeeellllllaaaaaa!!!" Alice sang cheerfully.
Maybe if I stay quiet she wont find me and she'll let me be. I thought.
"There you are!" she screamed behind me causing my body to jump out of my seat.
"Nooooooooooo" I moaned into my hands.
"Yesssssssssssss" she replied grabbing my hands.
"Alice? Bella?" another voice rang through my house. I'm having Edward change all the locks this weekend. They shouldn't be allowed to just come in the house and---. Edward. He would protect me against Rosalie and Alice, evil shoppers in my mind. He would tell them no or take me somewhere they would never find us. Our meadow. Yes. That's were I needed to go. Our meadow.
"Bella? Bella? you okay?" Rosalie asked suddenly waving her hand in front of my face. I silently nodded and looked out the window. Edward was out there somewhere. I may not know where he is, but I know he's out there. Jacob's there with him, he's a good man... I think. Rachel tells me stories about her younger brother and I can only get good out of them. He's safe. He's fine. I trust him with my heart. The car ride to the mall was short because of Alice's crazy driving, but nomatter what the girls made me look at all I could think about was my Edward.
EPOV
Bella. Isabella. The beautiful, wonderful, amazing woman that I can proudly call my wife. She's all I can think about around here. There are many people here that think of their wives often, but I am probably the only one who will actually think about her all day and all night. Nobody else here has a pregnant wife back home. They don't have to worry about them being all alone except for your loving/crazy family members. They don't have to worry if she's okay or if she's suffering because she has no one there to hep here along the way. I will never forgive myself if something should happen to her or my children because I'm not there and I will always regret leaving her to come tot his place, missing the entire period of development of my two babies. They will need a father and I need to be there for them, so if something happens to me, I could never ever forgive myself for doing that to them. I need to have a plan. Just in case. Silently I pulled out a piece of paper and a pen from under my 'bed' and started writing.
Dearest Bella,
Bella, this letter to you is probably one of the most difficult things I have ever had to written. Bella, I need to let you know that if anything happens to me, you will move on. I'm not telling you that to make you not want to. I'm saying this so you will move on. Find another man who could love my children and you with all his heart. Who could give you and them everything that I should have. The kids will need a father if anything happens to me. I wouldn't want to be the one ruining their lives because of anything that happens to me. I shouldn't of left. I should have listened to you that day when you were leaving. I should have found a way back to you. It's to late now love. You need to be strong if I don't ever come back. My family and yours will be there for you all the way and I don't want you to do anything drastic. You'll have Charlie, Emmett, Jasper and possible Tyler to protect you and keep you safe and you will have Rene, Esme, Alice and Rosalie to be there for you and love you. Their your family and they will always be there, even in my absence. This letter will come to you when I feel it's needed most. If that turns out to be when I'm dieing in the middle of a field somewhere or if I'm dieing in a hospital or just thinking that you should know my terms. Bella. I love you. I always have and I always will. Ever since I met you. You were always the prettiest girl in my eyes Bella. That's why I married you. That's why I went to protect you. I thought that nothing should be there to hurt you in the world. That's why I'm here but suddenly I am realizing that by me leaving you so many months ago, I could be causing more damage then another person could have. I'm hurting your heart. You're all alone and I can never forgive myself for doing this to you. Please forgive me my dearest Bella and tell the rest of the family that I love them and that they need to be there for you. Every step of the way for another lifetime. Please be strong Bella and live for me. Live for the children. Live for yourself. Nothing in the world will ever hurt you again. I will always be your love, your husband, our children's father, your protector, no matter what happens. Your life should go on and you should enjoy it.
Love forever and a day,
Edward
P.S.- Remember, Bella means beautiful. That's the only word that I could ever use to describe you. Bella.
Slowly, I folded the letter and placed it in an envelope. In neat cursive letters on the front of the crème colored envelope I wrote: Isabella Marie Swan Cullen. I stuck it in my inside my uniform and looked up at the sky. Nothing could ever ruin this day. Ever.
A/N: Okay guys. It was a sappy chapter, I know. The next one will be more dramatic. It will start with EPOV and then end with Bella's. Review if you have any idea's of what will happen!
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