Title: Stranger In My Own Life
Author: Adian
Genre: Meredith Centric - A/U – It's canon except for a few minor differences until Epi 325 Didn't We Almost Have It All. From there the story is A/U.
Rating: T (Mainly for language)
Summary: What happens when you realize you don't know who you are anymore?
Notes:
I have done research on the medical issues that are in this story. I think I understand it but I'm sure there will be mistakes. I've never written a GA story and the medical aspect of it has been challenging.
This is not a Derek friendly story. Read at your own peril.
Disclaimer: Grey's Anatomy is a creation of Shonda Rhimes and an ABC Studios Production. This story is meant strictly for entertainment purposes and no money is being made off of the forthcoming drivel.
Chapter 9
All parties are called back into the courtroom for the jury's verdict. The courtroom is packed now that all of the potential witnesses have been released.
Judge Gardner asks, "Have you reached a verdict?"
The Jury Foreman stands and says, "Yes, Your Honor."
The Bailiff takes a paper from the Jury Foreman and brings it to Judge Gardner. He reads it and hands it back to the Bailiff.
The Bailiff walks back to the jury box handing the paper to the Jury Foreman. She stands and reads the verdict. "We find the defendant Dr. Derek Sheppard guilty on all counts."
Pandemonium erupts in the courtroom from the witnesses who have been sequestered but not from those who have watched the case unfold. Mark looks upon Derek's family at a loss as to their reaction. They are resigned. No protest has come from them at the verdict. They silently cry as the guards lead Derek out of the courtroom. Mark watches them leave quickly surrounding their grieving mother after Derek does.
Board Members approach Yang who is surrounded by her fellow interns, Bailey, and the Chief. To his surprise Yang doesn't look victorious she looks sad. In fact, she is staring at him there is no remorse in her gaze only the same look of resignation the Sheppard family had worn.
Yang says, "I know you all have questions and I have provided no answers. Many of you have questioned my motives and wondered whether I was after revenge or justice. You can now see what the police, the grand jury, and today's jury based their verdict on. Please sit."
She walks to the TV and puts in the video tape from the wedding. She watches the audience as the fight between Meredith and Derek unfolds. She sees Izzie's tears, George's jaw hang open, and Mark's jaw clench. The vein in his forehead throbs in anger at Derek's manhandling of Meredith. The Board Members and other wedding guests gasp in horror as they see Meredith fly through the air her head hitting the pew and the blood gushing out. They watch her and the Chief frantically try and staunch the bleeding while they wait for the paramedics. The last shot is of Yang in her white wedding dress running alongside Meredith's gurney drops of red staining the ground with each step. Yang stops the tape and turns on the CT viewer.
Yang says, "This is Meredith's CT."
The doctor's process the CT results in horror. She explains to the others what the doctors already know Meredith will not be waking up instead at some point she will die from complications from the coma.
After the Board Members and other wedding guests leave Yang faces her friends and colleagues saying, "I know you have been angry with me for not telling you what was going on. You know that I am Meredith's medical proxy what you didn't know is that I also have her power of attorney. After the bomb, Mere realized that she needed to take steps to insure that her mother and her mother's estate were taken care of if anything ever happened to her. Even though Ellis is dead, I still had to contact the attorney of Ellis's estate Vernon Davis in regards to Meredith. Once I talked to Ellis's lawyer I realized that making sure Meredith was taken care of was my primary responsibility. I called the police and let them judge the evidence for themselves. I don't believe Sheppard was malicious in his intent but he let his anger get the better of him again. He had to be held accountable for his actions. Meredith will eventually die and it is his fault. I will be asking that his assets are seized and used to take care of Meredith for however long she has left."
Mark is the first one to speak. "Cristina you did the right thing."
Yang replies, "Mark so did you."
Entry 20
My life is just one big joke for the hospital gossips amusement and my fellow roommates even my person. In college, I was the life of the party. I was never lonely I never stopped long enough to be. Then I met him and I was having an actual adult relationship now I know what lonely means. I get why mother was so obsessed with work trying to do anything to fill the void Richard left behind. I use tequila and men. Neither option works. Mother had me. She could have tried to make us into a real family but I was never enough to fill that void. Is anything ever enough to fill the void? Will I spend the rest of my life desperately attempting to fill the void?