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Authors Note: Just wanted to say that last chapter was chapter four not 5 like I had wrote on the page! My upload structure is a little different to that on my laptop! Thanks for the reviews I'm sorry to make you people sad but it had to happen for my story to work and no Claire's grandmother can't come to America she loved her husband dearly and now he's gone she doesn't want to be separated from his memory also and shes an old lady so she gets what she wants!! Besides I think Claire's parents want her far away from Quill for now...but don't fret she won't be gone forever I said a separation not an estrangement!! I know this is very short and I'm sorry about that but I have to edit the next chapter and since I'm away in an Internet free zone for the weekend it will be Sunday night before I upload again! So until then enjoy the story!!
Chapter Five
S.P.O.V
It was killing Quill….I could see it slowly eating at him tearing him apart. Whenever he changed I couldn't bare to hear what he was thinking or feeling. Now even Jacob who had to struggle with his loss of Bella, was beginning to doubt that his love for her was anything even as close to what Quill has for Claire. Between Jacob worrying about this, mourning for Bella and Quill's thoughts; the rest of the pack were thoroughly miserable.
But despite the thoughts that were playing out in Quill's mind, he was slowly starting to build himself up again. After it had happened initially, Quill was inconsolable to anyone but Emily, who he seemed to find a connection with Claire. I didn't mind in the slightest at this, it was partially my fault that Brian and Jane had reacted the way they did…. Brian asking how exactly Emily got the scars….When they found out they were not only horrified with me, and when I tried to explain that I was only a newborn and couldn't control it like I could now; they demanded to know how new Quill was too. I almost cried at this when I had to tell them that he was one of the youngest. This totally destroyed any chance that he had, they saw it that if I could do this to Emily then Quill too could do it to Claire. My guilt for hurting Emily was unbearable but now it was positively excruciating with the addition of my pain for Quill.
Before this Quill had been a happy, slightly arrogant boy, now seeing him he looked like he had aged by years, beyond the werewolf growing phase. Instead of allowing the pack to see that he is suffering however Quill is trying to hide it from us, by attempting to be the same old Quill pre-Claire. His attempts are either lacklustre or else over the top, never quite managing to find that proper balance, it was painful to watch. Especially when he came over to my house, which he now rarely did. Every-time that he was there, he would stare off into space and occasionally look at different places that I assumed reminded him of his day with Claire. I couldn't imagine what it would be like to loose Emily…. It was impossible I didn't even want to think about it, I would die without her…. All I could hope was that Quill could manage to hold out for Claire…just long enough for her to come back. Right now the likelihood of that happening seemed slim to none. All I could do was hope……