A/N: Hey Guys! I'm Surprised That My First Chapter Turned Out So Well, I Thought It Would Kill People Of Boredom! Anyway, I Feel Like Typing Up Chapter 2. So Let's See What My Imagination Kicks Up!

Wanting the Love of Another

Chapter II: Desperation Knocking At The Door

No matter how hard Raven had tried to get those haunting words that Jealousy had told her out of her head it kept repeating itself over and over... 'Just be careful, heartbreak is a bitch.' It was like a bad drug addiction, something stronger than Nicotine, like Cocaine or something along those lines. She sighed heavily as her music took her to a far away land... The place was like a depression, the deepest, darkest place she had ever gotten... She couldn't get the image of Beast Boy and Terra walking around happily, there fingers laced together and just acting like a married couple. The thoughts of him loving another stabbed at her heart deeply, but she had turned him down a million times; not even considering that her emotions for him weren't jumbled.

She remembered the day that Beast Boy had invented a game called "Stank Ball" that she didn't want to be apart of, but in time warmed up to it. It was a fun game, one of the craziest, funniest games she had ever been apart of. She didn't realize that her and Beast Boy had spent some bonding together then, that might be when the feelings developed that had just recently dragged her under to a deep depression in which she didn't want to leave her room, let alone have a conversation with anyone... Especially Beast Boy, she couldn't handle the pain that she held when she seen him with her all intertwined not a care in the world... Just then, Raven had a knock on the door "Raven?" Robins voice startled her "Yes Robin?" she asked calmly not letting her emotions break her voice. "Are you alright? We haven't seen you all day, you've been locked up all day.." Raven felt her heart beat fast as she thought up a quick reply "Yes, I'm fine. Just been caught up in a bunch of books lately, you know how I get when I go to the library."

She heard a sigh of relief from the boy wonder, "Okay, I thought that something bad had happened to you so I thought I'd check up on you." She heard his feet echo through the hallway, reassuring her that he had gone. Ravens stomach began to growl as she groaned 'Great. I HAVE to go get something to eat... Maybe I can wait till everyone is asleep and go grab a bite to eat.' she set her alarm clock to go off at midnight so she could sneak downstairs, avoiding Beast Boy and his lover that she basically despised. 'Beast Boy is so stupid to take her back... After all the stuff she had put him through how could he possibly do that?' she thought to herself before sleep took over her and instantly killed the pain and left bliss and relief.

The alarm clock went off exactly at midnight, startling a sleeping Raven as she quickly jumped to turn it off, hoping she hadn't woken any of the Titans, especially Beast Boy. She wasn't in the mood to go through his twenty-one questions of why she had stayed locked up all day. Not in the emotional state she was in, suffering on the inside, same old Raven on the outside... 'Pain hides behind beauty' Raven had told herself over and over today, trying to tell herself that she was beautiful in her own special way. Raven tried to make a silent escape from her room, annoyed about the 'clank' that the door made as it shut. She flew down the stairways to make sure she hadn't made anymore disturbance that what the door had just caused. She opened the fridge looking through the food that Starfire had just recently filled the refrigerator full of. 'Tofu, bacon, Tofu Bacon, Frozen Pizzas, Ah' she seen the perfect food that she had been craving for desperately all day, veggie pizza.

She set some herbal tea on the stove quietly waiting for it to go off, making sure no one was in the room with her while she sat on the counter, lost in her thoughts thinking about having an meeting with her emotions. She was suddenly shook out of her thoughts when she heard the kennel go off with a whistling nose. She quickly turned off the stove as the tea settled down into quietness. "Raven?" she jumped at the voice she had been trying to avoid all day. "Why are you up so late? I haven't seen you all day.." he asked with curiosity. Raven wondered how long he had been there, watching her. She quickly used the excuse she had used on Robin, "I had gotten some new books at the library, you know how I get when I get new things to read that catch my interest."

Beast Boy sighed in relief almost like Robin did, "I thought you were ignoring me all day! I thought you were mad at me for something if you are Rae-" Raven stopped him in mid sentence, "No Beast Boy, I'm just emotionally confused right now and need sometime alone." she quickly grabbed her food and flew to her room leaving Beast Boy dumbfounded. How could she just easily open up like a book to Beast Boy that way? Were her emotions taking over that strong? She decided to have a meeting right now with her emotions as she looked at the clock. It was thirty minutes passed one. Raven had a feeling she wouldn't be able to sleep anyway, so she meditated finding comfort in her center getting sucked back into the world that had made sense to her.

She had quickly called a meeting screaming out "Everyone get here... NOW." they all quickly popped up in a couple of minutes looking at her curious like, including Jealousy. She calmed down and levitated in front of them as they all circled them. "What is going on with my emotions exactly?" she waited for one of them to reply being very patient. Finally, the smarter part of her replied, "We haven't exactly gotten use to having Jealousy around since she had just settled here, so it's going to take as a while to adjust to her emotions and see how everything changes." Raven looked at her thoughtfully, that did make sense, of course her emotions would go haywire because a new one coming in.

"I'm glad that we got that straightened out." she decided to leave and at lease try to get some shut eye while she could. All she could think about was Beast Boy, his smile, the way he laughed when something stupid happened, and when he would always argue with Cyborg about who won the game when it obviously was tied. She was falling head of heels for this boy, all she wanted was to get Terra out of the picture, she needed a plan... & Fast.